I think in the past this was an issue more than it is now, since we have all integrated online, and are apart of one another’s life. There is still the case that in states of displeasure, unhappiness, sickness, or difficulty, that you can simply wish to be on the other side of things, peace is a condition we all hope to arrive to. What happens when you can’t achieve peace, it usually means that you need to work on yourself, before you get those feelings again, when you want to text and engage with others and put the effort into being normal. Sometimes in states of disillusionment, choosing to stay apart from others, ruminating over displeasures in life, or difficulties, can take you further away from your goals in life, to be at ease, be at peace, and in that happiness glow about things in life. I think right now for me is about how do I feel under threat, in a situation that I have no control over what is decided, and in the event that Im not met with compassion or a worse scenario is presumed, that I will not be capable of undoing what another has come to understand is wrong with me, or my life, timeline, or content, those are very painful things to accept in life, what you have no power or ability to prevent a negative opinion of you or how made. I guess it would be my responsibility to continue and do well, and not inspire a negative attitude toward me in life, that would allow myself, or my condition to be blamed for anything in life, including the feelings of those I love or admire, who I would want to be well, am getting well for.

The experience of being given privileges in life to speak in private and to lose those privileges, Im assuming is to cause me to reflect on what Ive said, or how Ive sounded, review the different states of mind I was ever in and when, and what I sounded like in difficulty, talking to someone I love, who I should be at peace with and able to connect with. IT just so happens that not unless everyone is happy for you can you be with or talk to people in life, its all about comfort, once anyone is uncomfortable or not reassured by you, it follows that then people are not made to feel good together, that I can accept if true. There are places of arrival in life, and when it comes to campaigning and watching us all evolve over the years, once you reach a state of satisfaction and pleased with all the progress, it’s hard to be among anyone who is not also enlightened and motivated the same, for all the things that have gone right. In the end you are what you can relate to, so in what ways have people evolved to make them not relate to eachother. Perhaps people who are more evolved or less susceptible to falling into the epicenters of any viewed failing conditions or heartbreaks in life, would be the happier places thought to reside in times of difficulty, that you can’t control, by who a person feels at peace with. You won’t know what it is about your condition that’s unsettling until you recognize what another person sees looking at you. This is perhaps the biggest dilemma with being famous or known online as a blogger or coming from a famous story, everything else may make sense to everyone, even if its at all related to you, or to the characters of stories overall, but how do you feel as interpreted, and why should you ever feel different or at a disadvantage to someone who is not you, what exactly is someone famous put up against in life, is it being known and others feeling good, or is it you not feeling good, compared to those who are not known in a way that their identities have been integrated in the manufacture of content about life. It’s your participation online, that creates for any image of what is viewed by another, so do your best to make sense, and likewise juts pray that what you witness made by others makes sense just the same, you can’t expect everyone to see from your shoes, and what people are okay with you should be okay with to, people wouldn’t express themselves in public if they didn’t believe that it was an important fact about life to highlight and to relate to the present moment, even to your disadvantage.

So what is jealously? According to psychologytoday.com:

“Jealousy is a complex emotion that encompasses feelings ranging from suspicion to rage to fear to humiliation. It strikes people of all ages, genders, and sexual orientations, and is most typically aroused when a person perceives a threat to a valued relationship from a third party. The threat may be real or imagined.”

What is the usual response to jealousy evoked, it would be a feeling that you are changed by, or made to feel less important by. It could be an acknowledgement of your existence, but you may seek to take a higher road in life, not be compared to earlier stages of life in which infidelity occurred (1995-1998) for President Bill Clinton. What occurred in the years 1994-1996, while Los Angeles was rioting and people were marching my neighborhood, and my best friend’s Father was suicidal in a famous Ford Bronco with a Gun, I was at school, and my Brother came up to me and told me that “OJ shot Nicole.” That day they were making popcorn in the school yard I remember the sent, and cried in my classroom’s closet. As a child you are sheltered from the media and news, that was my best friend’s Grandmother’s choice, who has recently passed away, “If you want to be friend’s with Sydney you cannot watch the news.” Those were my only rules and so I followed, and didn’t watch the trial, we were poolside and playing billiards during the Civil Trial, walking through the family room with Attorney’s on the couch, past the bar where I would frequently get a Hershey’s Kiss in a container with a silver knob plug.

Meanwhile in DC President Bill Clinton was working during a period in time when there was a “general downward trend in criminal victimizations in 1996; and the murder rate dropped 10% between 1995 and 1996.”[1] However in 1995, one of the biggest terrorist attacks in the United States occurred Oklahoma City Bombing. So what does the color blue represent? The correlation between Political Infidelity, Terrorism occurring during decreased crime rates? Ultimately in what way did impeaching the President serve society and the public, that one who is responsible for managing the safety and care of all of its citizens, should not be any place in life mentally away from work or fulfilling his duties as President. In what ways does the personal life of a Political Figure serve as a precursor of things assumed to be going on wrong in high standing, that has ever been used to blame for decreased crime rates and Terrorism. Other than the expectation of things being well, it may cause us to remind of what happens when something goes wrong, like Terrorism, yes it would be important to know what is occurring privately before things go wrong, to determine in what way an Affair was not at the time, blamed for a failure to prevent a Terrorist Attack, by a fired Government Employee, who is therefore responsible for the mental illness of a Government Employee, and in what ways are Government Employees likely to inherit a mental illness or why, and in what way does my experience 2008 working for the Government, and the subsequent psychosis I experienced at home, at all related to a fired employee terrorist in Oklahoma?

This was the first time in my life, I was ever not jealous of anyone, but things went wrong, and then launched myself on a DA’s hashtag and connected my Instagram, whatever the focus should be, it should be on what has gone right not what has gone wrong, or to compare a period of stability, to an infidelity foul politically, or an interaction caused on the basis of any crime, presumed, it would be my story that makes me comfortable talking to the Government and not comfortable talking to the people, trust is an issue, and qualifications are an issue, most people are not equipped to care about people, from stories that have been minimized to humor, made a friendly subject of, not really comprehending the sensitivity of event or facts about a person’s life, or how ever related to Politics. I think bad representative of suicide, presume that my personality is suicidal or making fun of my suicide and talking to a DA, or thinking that everyone knows what my 2008 or 2009 looked like, whatever is the humor, it would be something I would likely respond to to clarify, on the basis of suicide not being my fault, based on a Kate Spade bag I purchased and forgot to mail to my friend who visited me that year, came to my apartment. You won’t know which facts influence people to adjust conversations to be about Kate Spade and suicide, until you think its about you, or the “changed direction” to your image online as mymollydoll.com and graduating to a nude website that you complained about for over a year that LAPD Detectives would not take down and had to get taken down on your own, that’s not a choice to be trashed, that was made by the decision making capacity of another person, who thought to do that to me, on the basis of a new diagnosis “Schizophrenia.” I think I would know if I was in danger or made to feel suicidal and that’s not a joke, and that is not going to make me write in public or make a big deal of anything public for the rest of my life, that’s not what my campaign is for being insulted, or losing people in life on the basis of me being made fun of in an insensitive way, that is not deserved at all. My torment is not anyones humor, and my torment, or timeline, is not responsible for any shooting period My Father died, I didn’t talk about it at all, it’s no one’s business what my relationship with my Father was like or how close we ever were, and it’s no one’s business what he looked like when he was dying of Cancer, and no that’s not the sad story that brought anyone down in life, and a nude website is not responsible for my Father’s death however inflicted or accused of being some kind of embarrassment, my Parents have always been close to me proud of me we never fight, so don’t think that my life is worse than it is, or a life if introduced to a DA, that he would be disrespected in any way, a good life is a good life. Sometimes people wont know if your life is good until you get nominated for two Shorty Awards, start modelling professionally, and an article is asked to be written about you naming you Top 40 Under 40.

[1] https://bjs.ojp.gov/content/pub/pdf/cv96.pdf

Published 04-04-23