The problem with being studied is that you can get sick again, so while you may have overcome previous bouts of illness, that doesn’t mean that graver conditions are not possible for you in the future, this is the controversy and Im assuming competitive humor about being given a hard time in life, what is there to believe when others do not believe in you, who is that helping when the risk to my health in being hurt separated, doesn’t serve to function to benefit who is being protected, then whats the consequence or truth or reality sought. I think a fan website was a big learning lesson, and Im sure criminal court is to prove disprove scare me confirm subject me to fear humiliation embarrassment and pressure in life, not to mention hurts my family and their trust of me, to cause others to question whether my life is worth supporting. I think going out was a bad idea, and if its me who identifies that going out is observed as “downhill” to drink or relapse and makes me look bad considered trashy, then those are the words pointed out by my Mother in a text coming from me identifying how things look, compared to how I was doing in life. I think lawsuit is intended to bring out the worst in you, to cause struggle, to lose support, and to be subject to bullying intimidation or threat, I think its for the courts to decide whats too late, I know that Ive not molested anyone, or come on to anyone of any age for any reason, or ever witnessed my face or well being as an inherited trait or reflection of others, making me not deserving of being around anyone of value, its safe to say that when Im hurt my life is over, and view punishment as disability and not possible to work, date, or resume life, and that’s not my choice, for the sake of determining whos molesting who and whos gay, or who loves who, or who is tougher, or more experienced, or inside to anything in life is beyond me, when its constant separation and sickness caused to me, you know nothing good can last interacting with others, when life is short, and to be judged as though these are the reasons for me not feeling well, I can tell you this much that no matter what is said and hurts me, doesn’t mean that its going to happen will happen, or is a characteristic or trait of me being someone who is sick or pretending or not deserving of love, usually you view a whore or someone who you think is dirty as the cause for harm brought upon them, and I think victim blaming is much too late, when the way for acceptances was paved for everyone to just be themselves, when it comes to molestation, the issue is women exerting their power and feminity or class upon you as though youre disabled or need mothering or be given directions in life, that cause harm to you, and subjects you to technical difficulties by phone, photo, physical, mental, and voices, when someone believed a fan site and injures me when Ive not harmed anyone, that’s misidentifying me as looking for sex, or say I present as anything pretty or special to be deserving of love, or accuse me as someone who always matches like I go out and know what my odds of matching are, nothing is guaranteed in life. So Im sorry that everything was pushed to criminal court to be not guilty, and for my value as a woman and a human being to be questioned, as though I belong places I don’t belong, or not abiding by house rules, I think being loving or chatting is not whats wrong or creativity and making the most of your life alone, I think the problem is the delusion of me having power or intelligence or ability beyond the means of others, that is viewed as too strong or “attorney like” like Im bossing anyone, Im not bossing anyone, and what Im learning is that people will hurt me, lie to me, not trust me, not want to represent me, and Im not making anyone help me, Im not guilty, whats the joke is money and being charged as though that’s communication to say that they think Im guilty pay up, or treat me like I pay and punished absent court, so theres no secret system of justice that anyone is going by to make such a determination, and should not be the practice of any professional, or by any blog or circumstance. Im not coaching whos hurting me, and Im not speaking like what Im saying is not true or doesn’t make sense or something to be flipped around or make someone not guilty of hurting me for no reason, I know that Im me, and whatever the system of power being lost is about, I don’t need an attorney, I had to pay for one, and its up to me to represent myself, and if youre guilty that’s not something that you can get away with in life, or get jobs, or make friends, or be welcome anywhere, so I don’t wish for my life to be secretly thought of as anything sick or stupid or not presentable or any struggle fake or hyper or stupid absent minded.