Sometimes in life we are situated to comprehend pain, if it is so deserving, we call these reminded states, lessons on observing the feelings of others, sometimes it’s not until we have our own life stories, traumas, a secrets to be exposed and revisited that there is an obvious public awareness and subsequent man made demonstration of a person, who experiences a harm and how they are able to move forward, without being reminded, or reminded and hurt, at what point do we stop allowing ourself to be hurt, and who is ultimately responsible for those harms.

You can’t relive life, and we shouldn’t need to end things on moments of pain to know when to stop, get stuck in pain, to know whats too much, hurt ourselves or others, to realize our own mortality, and the lesson with voices, is that is these are things non existing created within you, assumed to be your own responsibility to solve, are you someone who is left with the remainder of feelings that pile up you have not reviewed or dealt with appropriately or are you someone who allows for errors mistakes or avoidance to build until it becomes your own pain in life, separating the weak from the strong, those to be empathized with, versus those viewed to cause themselves harm for their own wrongs not to be empathized with, or someone who causes harm to which another suffers that you should be held responsible for.

You can’t make people feel, believe, ot be at peace with you that’s the lesson in rejection the percentage chance that you are not needed in life, and in the time it takes to make a final decisions, not meeting that standard of wellness, to which either you can be relied on or whether your reliance on others, is something that creates a burden to others, including who would employ you.

Sometimes the lesson in being hurt, or left with pains in life, is to see whether you need to be left with a pain, you can’t solve to know whether you are someone who talks or interacts not knowing you have pain, or someone who engages with an untreated pain, that would make it not make sense how you would be able to help others, if you are any kind of person left in conditions in life that you cant solve yourself, that kind of hurts the whole faith aspect of listing to yourself, listening to your body, getting well at your own pace, theres nothing more painful to lose that who you were when you were well, explaining for what it feels like to get sick, or what sickness feels like, or describe a hurt, and then not be able to repair that harm to yourself through the discussion of.

Sometimes honesty sets a healthy boundary between you and others, that need not be outlined, to simply acknowledge the fact that others are doing better than you and are more well than you no lessons about it, so let that not be a reason for why you would hear voices, or in what way repeated experiences of voices, would hurt worse now, than at any other time in life, shouldn’t be the same resilient, and what breaks us down as people, hurting our resilience, so if its not that others are more well, and if our mistakes and errors become things about us that hurt ourselves, then it is safe to categorize anything else said claimed to be wrong with you is equally as hurtful as it is to accept an error or difficulty through explanation that cant make things better no matter how many times its shown or explained, the conversation seems to get worse overtime, and less impactful to anyone else once threatened by your grievances.

The quicker people can move on, the more blessed you are, don’t waste time taking for granted isolated incidences of upsets, its life, people get upset, whether you are known or unknown, it should matter that’s the safest way to process an upset with compassion or to the extreme of everyone knowing you take responsibility for anothers anger directed toward you but not expressed toward any other driving human being or woman for that matter, they become stories to your life, upon mention, that hurts everytime to discuss, and that’s life, its not about how you feel, and sometimes talking about life, is about people hearing how others feel, and if that comforts who is unsure of you or better off, then accept those pains in life, of helping or convincing anyone of a side or voices that can exist or get bigger, if its support group for any kind of person and representative of their feelings evoked toward you, feeling that their tone and toughness directed toward you is a match for your body, demeanor, and strength within, then allow those pains to teach you of who not to reinforce an entitlement of punishing you publicly or on behalf of another.

Pains that are difficult to overcome, are being rejected and for those bases to be supported by elements outside of your control you can measure up to, the constant test of your ability to move on, question of what causes you pain, and criticism of working when your Father died, and in a negative way that means to others, in addition to what self harm or hospitalization means to anyone, seeing you decide to love someone other than yourself while accusing you of hurting someone you love.

First, what hurts ourselves, things we do wrong, errors we make, mistakes we make, when you cant go back, and if you have hurt your own progress, then that’s how you feel about yourself and whether you know how to correct those failures in life or not, through talking about it, or reliving failure enough times, to be characterized by someone who fails privileged, then it will always pain you and so will the excuses or the “drug” determined to be responsible for that pain.

When respect is lost, it will always be painful in ways that will end up leaving you feeling suicidal and doing everything you can to stop that pain from existing, making you proactive, seek help, write in public, sometimes looking bad, forces us to accept that if we look bad, to accept the way we look and get familiar with the feeling, however it doesn’t prepare you for other times when respect is lost and on what basis that’s created whether you were harmed, or look bad as associated, or assumed to be wrong based on how things look by term, “harassment” if you as you were are recognized as something not doing well upset angry sick losing using or failing in life the RULE is you cannot associate to anyone and no one will like you or respect you and that will be the cause for disappointment, when the common thread is a “drug” it becomes a larger philosophy historically in terms of how respects are created or distributed to not include you, so be strong, not because you care if others are strong in spite of you, none of that will matter until you get hurt or blamed for the same things that hurt you caused you pain or disability to begin with, either that’s a pain and suffering that you endured others forgive you for and in your improved state of mind, becomes a none issue, or it becomes the constant accusation and excuse for a loss of respect, coupled with other adult issues, such as isolation, dating or not, sex issues, breakups, misfortune, or worse failure future, you can have everything and you can lose everything, and you may never be prepared for those pains in life, however created, the main lesson is don’t justify it, mess up, ask for forgiveness figure out what exactly caused that disappointment and loss of trust or failure, continue to endure what is means to not be trusted and how that makes you feel and accept those who outgrow you, leave you, or see themselves as better than, nothing hurts more than regretting all the decisions you made before you ever became paranoid of how anything ends up in life, no one is that strategic to know what hurts you, so see the good in others, and in those moments of pain, think of what you can do, without worrying of what was done to you, chances are nothing else will matter upon improvement, other than continued faith in staying well and doing what is right, while accepting those hurts in life, you cant convince someone hurt by you who doesn’t trust you that you are anyone else in life or better, if they fail to see you as you were or at your best, so its okay to let go of taking on the task to prove yourself to those who choose to punish to you, allow people to be right, even if it makes you look bad, what youre left with is you, don’t worry about anything else other than your health, and although it would have been nice upon being well to be credited for your resilience, sometimes openness as to whats injuring you hurting your heart, is something your better off not mentioning or so even allowing to turn into code or combined banter and acceptance for a representation of you public or by rumor spread that is hurting you and doing more harm than good.

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If prevention is raising awareness to pedophilia and perverts drunk drivers alcoholics, drugs addicts, incarcerated women, breakups, hospitalizations, self harm, 5150 assessments by non medical professionals, those are things you will never have control over, how people feel what things mean to them, and what is considered prevented hurting you, so even though I am not a pedophile and not a pervert and have been tortured for 4 years by those terms permanently ingrained in a secretive way accepted by others, that doesn’t mean that Im hurt or prevented from doing those things or committing a crime that Im not guilty of and wrongfully describes who I am as a person, my age, maturity, childhood trauma, upbringing, economic status, education, academic standing, grades, while it helps those who don’t want to look bad to make you look bad, the cost of another not looking bad for supporting you or loving you is forgiven what people think of them and what they do to you in retaliation for you having made any decisions in life at your age to ever be accused of making a decision in life carelessly that would have an affect on anyone past current or recently separated from, so that’s the common denominator to the use of force upon a person who is assumed to be rich, or have high esteem, education, or disability their own fault, the terms are permanent the discussion of what was said to add more permanent and hurtful terms is the fuel to the fire to hurt you more on behalf of who is claimed to have hurt you and that’s how others are supported in calling you pedophile pervert drug addict drunk driver and watching you suffer becomes not their problem, that’s how you get treated, when you attention is rejected, and upon you not doing well, wrongfully accused of having cheated or done something with your heart or body that would make you mentally away or detached from others whom you were previously attached to during your time in recovery to get well, the main lesson with disability is when you are incapacitated and stuck in bed you are supported and everyones nice, in the event you change or less able, this makes people angry, if you cant talk to people, people become angry and think you are close to or bonded or talking with anyone new and punished for it, and so on and so forth it goes being hurt as though hurt is a reminder of knowing your story how gravely you should be hurt and who should be remembered as having been hurt by your attention or loss of ability, shouldn’t be anything that you should be punished for you your own pain and suffering and disability, is no ones job except mine to get help and get treated for, so in the end when you improve everyone close to you is glad when youre back, and if you get sick again, that’s a permanent pain that sticks to you for the rest of your life, and that’s what it feels like to work so hard to be around others, then punished and rejected from consideration, its like nothing else left is possible for you, not even job dating etc, sometimes its complete defeat and pain and suffering that we are reminded that its not what was done to us, that matters anymore, but more or less a matter of how long it takes for me to know what Im doing or saying that causes me pain or making me hurt, no matter what the subjects is however created “pervert” whether or not Im respected, its clear that I cant prevent voices, so me getting sick wasting energy expressing how painful and untrue a comment is, doesn’t matter so long as Im in pain, its though deserved, including any time loving, or who Ive loved recently, then what hurt is real, my own, or the hurt believed caused by me, to anyone who anyone thinks I made to know or love me intimately or physically by photo or book, who turned out to be a disgusting human being who hears voices, that makes her give up and hurts her feelings, how am I supposed to be valued, proven sick, and maxed out and put in pain, what is the ultimate loss I should feel to misunderstand #scotus as permission to kill me, capitally punish me, make me die at home, or suffer pains when I did my best to explain got mad twice, on the basis that being called “pervert” subjected me to discrimination and convinces women that Im sick or grose, and entitles men to attack me like I make women uncomfortable is not my fault, and equally as hurtful, so let there not be a secret truth everyone’s okay with ending my life, and then accusing me of engaging in a loving relationship you pre-detetermine is inevitable or a harsh character trait or badge you think pains another calling me too young at age 38, or accuse me of being small inside, or smarter than I am or stronger than I am, and act like anyones feelings are hurt when Im being called “pervert” to justify a drunk driving incident of someone who is Lesbian to wrongfully accuse me of insensitivity so insensitivity is provoked to reverse everything I stood for or what groups present around, in favor or prosecuting me as being any truth or unaccepted part of me “the word pervert” and expect me to inherit pains, or accept pains, Im not causing, and make fun of me defending the word “pervert” why secretly trying to hold me responsible for everything that goes wrong, as though its being said instead of anything.