What I’ve learned the hard way about mental health is that if you discuss what’s causing you illness you are not given a cure … that’s the trick to pain and suffering it’s not what you’ve done right and said right it’s about at what point has how you’ve been or sounded not acceptable to others. Sometimes diagnosis helps us to move forward sometimes it does the opposite to prove that there is something wrong with you permanent and not given an explanation for how caused that’s how you get made to look weird or punished it’s about your ability to tell the difference between when you’re doing well or not feeling well and whether how you are or how you sound is something that another can tell us wrong with you, living insecure scared or made to feel less than yourself is sometimes the consequence of mental health issues although you may not get better, unless your philosophy about life is correct that’s a trait that only you can restore not especially by any diagnosis recover losses to your self esteem due to the inaccuracy of determining there to be something mentally ill or off about you. I don’t think there’s anything out there to living a disciplined life and improving and I don’t think writing is a play on words (to make me appear rambling or nonsensical or open mouthed or loose lipped) I wouldn’t say that my understanding of world history or any code (2008, 2009 on) was ever out there or mentally ill, so it’s not a stage of life that you are made to think about life or a period of time of boredom assumed it could be just working applying yourself and at your smartest. The problem with mental health issues is wakefulness and upon thinking or focusing and being serious people assume for you to be lost or not at ease in life and that’s the misunderstanding of demeanor expected to be open and loving or welcoming I think that’s a stage of life of success and means your well adjusted to be able to open your life up to others and write freely at peace I don’t think writing is meant for this diagnosis I was given it’s incredibly insulting to be accused of saying things that don’t make sense out there or accuse me of having a big head or not knowing what I’m talking about. I wouldn’t even characterize hospitalizations previous as having anything to do with whatever I might go through now post-diagnosis, I think this diagnosis decreases your odds of recovery, it concludes that there was is or will be something wrong with you you can’t solve to accuse you of being dependent on meds to be well adjusted if gives a false impression of your attitude and demeanor in life as something or someone who needs to be controlled or not even tempered to be wrongfully accused of standing out to anyone in a way offensive is insulting there’s nothing that powerfully wrong with anyone for anyone to conclude or determine to weaken the spirit brain and body of a human being or shorten my life that’s not the solution as someone who’s recovered and overcome a lot I don’t think that means I deserve to handle more mishap negative judgment or more powerful odds against me in life politically spiritually emotionally or physically.