My treatment center heeded my carefully made request on a date chosen by mom when rent is due 4/9, however was not able to coordinate on my own also being allowed to leave sober living upon being too tired to meet all the requirements & for focus on job to be the issue March & April, left a job my treatment team didn’t care to accommodate doing well in job again spoke to me as though focus is the issue talk to me like treatment now is worth it investment for the rest of my life as though I’m not willing to make sacrifices therefore to accommodate everyone I successful left job, treatment, and sober living held in positive regard Nevermind the minor continued approach of telling me higher level of care is needed knowing my life and all my suffering treat me as though I’m in a worse place in life to say “over my dead body I worked hard for this job” misunderstood as what needed to be discontinued and more treatment needed based on disability upon texting adverse reaction to insult get life is tough and so is recovery & use or abuse of drugs or alcohol I reported my first read into misinterpretation that doesn’t mean 7 months of treatment and forced socialization making fun of my inability to make friends give out my number be misunderstood as suddenly after 7 months accuse me of being combative or insulted judging anyone in the negative therefore as a result of being told what everyone decided and having to tell my Boss lost my job without confirmation of next treatment residential or PHP considered suffered a loss of an ability to work function off adderall for the first time since high school and in the wait time it took to plan my future and determine where, I lost a job sent nowhere could’ve stayed at work taken a few days off, instead observing me forced to undergo more punishment became about what’s wrong with me not credited for discontinued investment to speak to Todd, is an honest continued discussion with reported awareness of all losses travel my blog and difficulty, it’s unfortunate that you will never see how I am or what’s been done properly by me accommodating everyone’s issues make sure any challenge is reported is not excuse or recipe for anything com antic me going right or wrong it’s clear that when something bad happens I’m constantly blamed viewed in the negative and no one else being hard on me or what for is ever anything worth mentioned in the face of mental challenge or hardship I accept help upset and threat the same as coming from any person so please allow me to discuss my thoughts on crime or violence as a person who writes responsibility with no history of being sued for my corporation or websites or Twitter saved every complaint affected by complaints prohibited from sharing links so if ever there is as a time then I’m sure any time future there can be a time when that’s possible again I’m sorry wellness was viewed as getting away with shocking losses not having written to court or reported to police properly any affect as to me, so that’s the aspect of life no one helps you with, everyone questions, no one believes in good standing or not, let alone all the trauma faced by significant losses I’m no different under pressure online excuse my short positivity it’s apparent a lengthy detailed explanation and timeline of major losses affected me in ways I have experienced life to not allow that to happen to wealthy company brand name or compare my life or the significance of a loss as code to me it’s if you relate distantly share as affected so knowing everything about me will never be code sufficient to explain what’s different or better now to prevent losses just know that when your honest that helps everyone if there’s a cause or membership it’s my experience committing committing suicide so it’s not my story that is said triggered by losses and not losses that are required to direct me challenge me or be used to observe me or judge my wellness as unhelpful. If it’s a death or person made relevant to me it’s because I cared therefore if I’m successful it will be on what about me inspires life prevents death and doesn’t cause us to relive losses and determine anyones presence or voice or health is defective (I spoke to it I think I’ve spoken to most losses never undermined any death or anything happening to me or suffering as telling me or anyone anything about me). How do you think I feel unpaid ruined my WordPress website disabled all ranking tools on websites froze my blog or links or critical of hiring a company to build what I now have access to templates took years to be given access to. So January 2023 was my experience of being punished in public permanently defaming me with the word harassment used to accuse me of being strong or powerful or threatening or accuse me of having voices self harm after sharing my life in photos videos and think (voices self harm is such an easy subject that anytime I’m well positive animated or feminine I’m not allowed to appear well) by phone hacked shouted at and hit my head knowing what I recovered from hospitalized for continue to accuse me of knowing what to do or being able to tell what’s wrong with me or know if I’m sick or not, it doesn’t matter when I’ve sough treatment helped or what years or what I felt like then or how I knew whether I was not well needed help it’s become a joke a devalued timeline of life with no recognition for my masters studying running staying home dated everything’s become about making me sick and watching me or observing me and treating me like mental illness is a joke or there’s some memorized solution that I don’t know or am taught don’t value, I may not be the expert in responding to losses with care but it’s clear it’s not me who is remembered or forgiven good enough having done enough right things in life to not constantly be made fun sick and accuse me of not being someone who knows what’s wrong with me, means my life has become some unmemorable joke of devaluation uninspirational accuse me of helped by observation I didn’t ask for website stats I already did the painful hardwork made clear effort to address my life and with mention of who’s known is not what made me famous or a place I come from later anywhere important that I become out of touch in terms of who I am who to talk to about what or what level of power I should contact, it’s clear I’m not for joke so go ahead and hurt me prevent me from talking to anyone, don’t let life be a lesson about whether or not I’m important or benefit others to destroy me I’m honor of a Judge & RTO accuse me of hurting someone I took care of therefore it won’t be until I’m alone suffering and no one’s involved patient or people who met me know me that’s of issue the issue is why when working with a job was that viewed as applying before PHP/IOP permission. I applied 1-2 jobs before sober living and continued to apply during the time I was told I could apply for a job, what’s with the protocol of requirements requiring me to wait long periods of time to be told when to apply and treat me as rushing or overwhelmed unfocused on sobriety or step work, in life it’s not a joke rules standards expected or not affecting me everytime you punish me for doing anything expected told when is not okay to use against me as what I’ve done wrong or make my crying irrelevant or unreal – my life is about knowing myself and my wellness it’s never been my issue or experience to be pushed told when told no old applications or having applied told to wait and for it to be too late tested on what I’m like waiting or ready to take on tasks told no going by the timing and preference of another and then treat me as a person who makes choices is already actively applying and told no after applications sent to one random job I’m not suited for, is an example of how rare it is to get a job period in any condition after putting years of effort to qualify be able treated like a job is replaceable or treat me like applying to jobs is easy you know what cannot be replaced is my entire life and what it means to you and it’s clear no one listens no one cares any issue identified is a made up code about defamation humiliation or sexuality hurting me and forgiving who hurt me blaming me making fun of my concerns effort and mistreat me as having any memory or strategy period that works or doesn’t work what’s clear is I was well doing my best, who looks stupid is me and no one cares no one made a big deal of me being hurt receiving death threats and instead of telling yourselves Leslie is a good person proper puts effort into life you’ve chosen to acquire my private life or struggle and throw it around like a stupid delusional joke and treat me like mental health is easy and there’s a known solution I don’t follow accuse me of disbelief or paranoia in the end life’s about how many times is my health or life changed to accommodate (lawsuit and hate website) as many times I will suffer Tell the Judge until who doesn’t value me need me or care about my writing determines they’re satisfied confident that who sued me and made a hate website doesn’t look bad is understood not viewed as bad taken the shoes of empowered by with distaste active disgust dissatisfaction toward me, dear judge will be as many times as it takes to make me look bad until it makes sense to anyone from my life or challenge faced empowers them to have helped me while making me look bad or worse compared to who met me, will be the continued justification of hurting me pushing for more discontinuation of living life more disability more punishment dear Judge their stopping point is until or limited by their ability comfort and job, I hereby declare any description from me makes me look bad and becomes something I’m punished for to the extent dear Judge until I move on they helped me I’m ridiculed for minor hardship and my stopping point is looking bad being alone quitting everything clarifying what makes people okay or not okay by me, if who I am wasn’t good enough it’s too late to tweet “I’m not feeling well” dear Judge when that communicates I’m stupid not a life coach can’t advise has court or problems not taking life seriously or unaccepting of negative judgment (again how I look will change to worse until who dislikes my mental health can’t comprehend inability to type as offensive mental illness) makes it clear so long as you all are okay and so long as I never contact anyone for the rest of my life and accept I’m made sick until no one’s at fault I look bad as though I would ever blame or create hardship to good people accuse me of being dirty or inappropriate places I don’t belong or accuse me of being so mentally ill use my health to wrongfully accuse me of being hurtful to know or “impulsive” as though I don’t know when to stop or overwhelm others it’s come to a point that I don’t care what people think it’s not about me these are facts of life I have to accept that I’m not viewed as well the constant observation of demands by superiors to see how I handle being constantly checked and reminded not believed when I’ve done things proper and for once helpful reminders to later become about why when I’m experiencing mental difficulty anyone superior would be offended did not sit down to talk I have zero experience with being someone who’s observed as to demand communications of, at some point it should been accepted I don’t open up or have problems or difficulty I should be expected to open up on demand and be expected to be able to speak or explain to anyone superior what’s wrong so what’s insulting is I’m tired there’s nothing wrong I need my privacy I’ve been through too much to open up and my life is not something I expect you to help me with or be reported as “tantrumming” poorly responding off meds with difficulty speaking spoken at like I’m offensive so again it’s not my privacy or limits quiet effort to leave a sober living I did my best at could not keep up with the schedule loo out for myself my health my limits …. I’m happy everyone had the opportunity to meet me be unimpressed by me not respect my privacy “require a person to facilitate a PROGRAM interview” is not about who this person is or who they’re helping me it’s about in what way does anything about me carried over information protecting me by treating me as someone who needs help to be interviewed is about hearing me interview share medical history not accept my phone call separately make things about supposed to go home, and let all the time run out functioning positive able to answer questions honestly, be about my condition when treated or not stable unstable it’s fair to say if I’m not worth their time appreciative of being helped it’s my condition I know and my loss to be unready for treatment therefore please don’t make an issue of interview questions and how anyone I don’t know decides what I need fit for or treat me as though when it comes to life I rely or don’t rely or read into anyone’s perspective of life as a whole treat me as having a life unsuited to be helped or accuse me of problems so sick non admission to an IOP or mission for Michael is anything about who I am where I belong or deciding who can help me accuse me of ever being unwilling to attend treatment it’s clear dear Judge that my life is about not earning back privileged earned it’s about who I am or what I’m like sick be wrongfully punished like my problems or life or interactions is anything I’m made fun of being sick and no one else is then convince me my blogs not real wrongfully punish me as a fabricated patient give me hardship and problems wrongfully accuse me of being someone who is fucked up who shows up and is so stupid mentally ill that no one can help me and is insulted by me or my level of stability punish me as a mental health joke or sick observation. Like it will take as many times for me to get sick and be observed wrongfully accuse me of knowing what’s wrong or what med to take hurt me as many times as it takes dear Judge until no one can help me and stop using medicine and labels to mistreat me as injured until the satisfaction of another’s fear your blaming me for experience I don’t have make fun of me as people pleaser or not like knowing how I work by observation is how to empower anyone or conduct scientific evaluation with respect for me, so that’s the current hold do this until this happens don’t do this made to wait after disclosing curiosity for sickness incurred upon waiting, not care what I know about myself and punish me like I don’t follow rules don’t know when need to be told when I can do anything or be a “no” joke, “harassment joke,” treated with insensitivity to #metoo concerns instead of valuing my mention of it bravely the insult already took hold and it’s clear judge I’m not entitled to any help or legal representatiion so long as insult takes hold I will be hurt as many times until #metoo becomes about making my life a joke and accuse me of having fucked up so bad in life that I’m insulted sound sick enough times private or public that none of my preferences matter be punished made sick like the joke is to offend me for everyone to be spoken to privately treated professionally except for me will be until I get sick no one can help no one cares I look bad they give up my best is ignored and you punish me to memorialize the professionalism and expertise heroism of everyone positive who met me hurt me as many times as it takes to injure me as hurtful is a suffering expected 100% of anytime I’m viewed as mentally ill or hurtful dear Judge means my health is about how many times does it take for me to suffer hardship until I look bad or get sick and everyone’s peace is me getting sick and being told I’m sick means dear Judge that life is about me living well & repeated declarations of illness was intended as a solution created or problem I can’t see use schizophrenia as a treatment of me to inform help others to not care for me view me as informed be the example of something done to me that helps others not recognize what hurts or makes me look bad enough times as it takes dear Judge that I’m allowed to give up with no explanation and for the answer to be something is wrong with me that I’m accused of as being my fault no one is willing to forgive me and cannot forget any complaint makes clear my intelligence is about me getting sick accuse me of being hurtful and accuse my experience in treatment benefits to normalize being helped therefore I am grateful for treatment options and it’s unfortunate for there to be no solution for getting sick or looking bad is accuse me of making things up or sick on the job means dear Judge allow me time to think and process how bad things are the expected hardships to protect others, the continued effort of disqualifying me from job options studied for the easy settling joke of wrongfully accusing me of fraud or mental illness to dear Judge give time for everyone not responsible for me be protected unaffected and excuse all reasons to prefer not helping me ignoring me constantly prey upon all the times proper submitted to treatment isn’t remembered punished for missed appointment or intolerable dysfunction in typing dear JUDGE those are the permanent ways I’m made to suffer not forgiven and that’s the formula I’m made to suffer by it’s to the point (dysfunctional typing) and emergency tended to included everyone except me, the issue is using mental illness to create some pattern and punishment of an emergency occurring without me and compare me to women who meet me and are helped professionally consistently observe me when people help me and suddenly everyone rejects me and invent a new illness dysfunction inability to type a known tendency dear Judge decide to punish me as speaks mentally ill accuse my writing as coming from a person accuse me of speaking improper or offensive to women or men, at what point Judge will there be enough writing sufficient to recognize if I wanted to help everyone give me time to accept how mental illness is now caused to say is my fault pretend like I’m punished as a should know upset to scare intimidate not care who sees or cares please allow me to live life not question anger towards me means somethings wrong with me and punished made to look bad, dear Judge I’m clear that I’m made to be scared to death that I should have never went out and I’m clear on ways it can be communicated that when affected by upsets those will then dear Judge and forever now intended to mean I’m viewed as the problem accused of having a life unprotected dear Judge me as the hard life that made the lives of those connected hard is why I have no solution have run out of time energy and ability to meet the demands of punishment request to be given my Vyvanse back. In summary Judge the preferred solution is how many ways should I work meet be compared scared to death launching permanent records of me destroying my life means the preferred solution Judge is permanency hardship and sickness that is publicly declares as being my fault and lawsuits make permanent to never talk to anyone for the rest of my life what’s also sought to be permanent is declaring illness to prevent me from living life freely dear Judge means I can forfeit my future dreams or having goals or privilege to have any love sometimes life is a joke about being nothing doing nothing having nothing dear Judge to the satisfaction of ruining my life, dear Judge it’s clear voices pressure obesity social skills is about me not existing remembered is why I give up.