Theres nothing romantic about being watched or studied in life, if you are not you, then they cannot be them with you, and that leaves them waiting or moving on, whether or not you are still you available or for them and that’s being a woman, you are either sweet on the inside nice on the outside, or you are grumpy, or self-harming, negative, and have poor conversational skills, it will not be until the point of you giving up which results in random banter, things that make you wonder in a hurtful way, or not understand then misunderstand for insult, then says a good amount of information, or your head a complex equation that is not worth being interested in and there goes your face. Life is about people feeling good, and there is no stopping in life when everyone feels good, then there is your past. What is selfish about mental illness, what is the cause for voices, it will be you giving up in life that results in you not feeling good then others give up on you when you don’t sound like yourself, overweight, don’t look like yourself and that’s the go ahead in life for replacing you, ignoring you, or assuming that your face and your body is a poor representation of yourself not them, and that’s how men get offended if you look grose, obese, and sound stupid, that’s what makes me hard to love. What is a mood? Its not an outlook. What is self-harm? Its instead of. And why would anyone be made to self-harm when they are a writer, then it must be a privilege that was taken away, and forced to sit with emotions and voices, until an ultimate collapse of your own abilities in life all together which equals obesity and lack of a future for that matter. When you should you try hard, well if running sprints wont help that doesn’t mean you will get strong, when should people care, when you are in good physical and mental health, otherwise the basket case, one flew out of koo koos nest, mentally ill, observable, obesity, jealously, womanhood, face dysmorphia, body shaming, all goes through the roof of your head, and that’s being made to look funny, that’s not stupid yet, I will let you know when stupid happens. Stupid happens when everythings okay someone gets mad at you then you lose your composure then you sound like you walked out of the Bronx, half naked, in overalls, and your mind has left your body, and your soul seems to be inside someone else then you think youre a nobody. And what clears the sky, its an acknowledgment of your body on earth and earth loving your presence. What else is there to worry about life? -Then what happens when youre identity is stolen, then it gets stupid, then what? There is no organization in anyone who is being called selfish, if Im selfish that means I don’t care about myself and if I don’t care about myself then that would mean that I don’t care about anyone and if I don’t care about anyone then why would I try to help anyone who also doesn’t care about me, or care about anyone here, that’s the random reverse curse word and frame that seems to be handed to you, like youre going to travel far or make it on any other continent, I don’t think I can thrive anywhere if Im not awake or observant, then what do you ignore, my chin couldn’t be attached to my achilles or my knees or on my back to make things go right for myself in life, and my waist attached to my forehead, or my shins 2 feet long wouldn’t make a difference anyways, and medical records taped to my heart, with a kick me sign on both hands and a stack of papers in filing cabinets professional, what will work for everyone may not work for everyone, and giving up now is simply for the purposes of casting blame she is this then this happens and if you want to know how that happens please ask Elon Musk, who Im sure loves and cares about everyone very much to continue to engineer perfection. Anyone who is a perfectionist is not fighting with anyone, is not comparing anyone, is not criticizing anyone, is not concerned about what others think, is not coding to anything, is not overproducing anything, is not making any songs, or trying to recreate life for anyone to live a life like they haven’t already lived life on their own, and then is she mad and what about and whats a reaction that helps when is that okay and is that okay now, no I cannot react to anyone, I cannot need anyone, I cannot look at anyone, I cannot talk to anyone, I cannot date anyone, I cannot help anyone, I cant lose weight, I can function, why? Because Im not well and why am I not well because I had an easy job in life made more difficult by criticism, and dating someone in the military doesn’t need blessings its to avoid any further confrontations in life or conspiracy about where intelligence comes from all UFO jokes aside, that’s not condemnation of anyone who is related to anyone in life, so please don’t make things about me attracting negative attentions everyone is nice to me, no one is mean to me, everyone is themselves around me, I lived a great life, I have done my best, Im not misunderstood, Im just obese and my face changes. That’s photo sharing, sees you well, then your face goes ugly and your body turns from feminine to masculine and the lbs pack on in a short period of time, and you get dehydrated, what does that mean good or evil, Im not sure if I witnessed tiny humans on my leg as a runner, or what the human body is comprised of, but lets not jam pack me anywhere in life that I turn into something that looks different than who I am in reality, the same as I am online.