If 17 million readers (2020) or 90k readers (2016), don’t inform you that you are worth something in life then I don’t know what else will. There has to be a stopping point, when you have improved and also have some awareness of what everyone else is going through in life, it will always be by what you are made happy by, the others will be okay with you, its when you are not happy with yourself, that others become displeased with you, so that’s a good stopping point, a time to figure out what is it that is causing either you or someone else to not be happy with you, or made to be stressed, and have that something not be disclosed to you, or disclosed, and made to not affect you in the immediate. If by the time you become affected its too late, that’s you misreading a situation, or going by anothers feelings, which if you end up worse off, that’s not their fault. So what is it that has resulted in a better face and a better outlook? Blogging. And where will I be most happy? In writing. Does that mean Im strong enough emotionally, or social skills wise to move to another state, probably not. Does that mean I have the beauty to date or marry someone good looking (your atypical JCrew guy), probably not. Does that mean that if I get a job I will be able to find him, probably not (not through blogging that is). Its hard to put down something you are working on, and invest your time and attention into something else, you have to believe in what you are doing in life, in order for things to work out for you, and for someone else that you are helping to make their dream come true. There is a popular statement that you are either working on your own dream coming true or you work for someone else to help them to have their dream come true. I think that’s something to think about at this moment. What are the causes for unhappiness, and where will someone thrive or be made to be happy. I think apart of me always thought that by the time I graduated from law school that I would have a life, and I don’t think that right now is a good time to sit and wonder about what life is like, or could be like, or what I have missed out on, I think everyone has missed out on a year of a good life this past year 2020, and I want everyone to not feel like all hope is lost, I never lost hope in the 2004-2017, in the 14 years that I lived alone and was focusing on school and work, I have always wanted to get married, maybe not have kids, but had a ragdoll kitten, and was a good mom to him. Theres a lot to think about when things are not working out for you in life, and during all the time that is lost while going through your problems, you’ll be so glad when your life gets back on track. So don’t beat yourself up lonely in life, you will eventually find love, and find the right person to love, even if everythings not an exact match, fit to match your social and career goals in life. There is more to life, than walking in a room and having everyone respect you, all couple envy photos aside, not all were made to be stunners in life, so that much about life you have to let go. When there used to be events to attend, that time is not now. -I think it was my fault that I mentioned I met Lee Daniels at an AA meeting, then there was Stormy Daniels, then there was my role, as a law student not to affect the Presidency of those in charge of respecting the health of everyone, then California did not get fire relief, so I joined FEMA Students as a Law Student and started to launch books one after the other and sent a few copies around for review, that was the best I could do, not stay fat and obese and ugly looking stuck in my room hitting my head and talking to my neighbor like a Paramore song from college. When there is a crisis, you respond to it in the positive ALWAYS in the positive, then it goes away, so don’t bring it up to cause it is THE MAIN POINT. Then there is what you stand for as a crisis counselor, are you normal, are you able to help someone get through a problem by talking to you, do you make good decisions for yourself and others, are you a victim yourself, do you understand who a victim is have you managed the care of victims before, yes at the DA’s Office. Are you someone who gets along with everyone? Yes. Are you someone that others turn on yes, when they are not pleased with me, when they think they are better than me, when they don’t understand me, when they feel offended by me, when they take things personally, and when they think Im stupid or less than them. That will not be because of my face, my attitude, my career, or well being, but if you talk about it, then you don’t get a job, you don’t have friends, and you don’t move forward in life. That’s questioning others, that’s being less than in life, its you that gets in trouble, and its you that looks like you have a problem or information that others don’t have. And all that unnecessary chatter is what brings you down further in life, nothing that makes sense, anything too short, not fluid sounding, without depth, not enough information, and then others get tired with you, like youre missing the point, and that’s how you get put down in life, like no one needs you, no one cares, no one loves you, and everything becomes about what they need, what they want, what you look like, what you have to say, and then there is where are you, why are you were you are, then everyone thinks its funny, or not about them, or about you, and this is a long winded discussion of who is made to be part of and who is left out and for what reasons. Why if you cant see something coming and it looks well, its probably a bad idea to see what you choose in life, what you like in life, what your goals are in life, and nothing that you cant figure out in life is beneficial to anyone who did like you for a year of your life, and then wishes they never wasted the time and effort being happy for you, for one year of your life (2020). So what do you stand for, its by what names can all attach to your face and your body, to make you responsible for missing planes and helicopters, its not me that is making fun of my own Country, I would never do that, and its not me that has a dream beyond getting a job, so don’t accuse me of that.