One of the toughest battles you will ever face in life is when you are not feeling good, and if you cant figure out why, not wait until its too late and you’ve isolated either by choice, or by preference, and hopefully via no overt words or actions that set you apart from others in an uncomfortable way, it can be a tough return back to your normal life, if you allow those bridges to burn, so don’t be one to take out your aggression (unhappiness) out on others, they are not to blame at the inner most point of whats bothering you, only you can solve that, and if you cant move forward peaceably, then you obviously don’t want to add to an counter energy to be constantly revisited in the form or questioning you or respecting you less for losing your cool, or saying anything off putting. Im someone who is is very careful with what I say, and that’s the benefit of being detail oriented, it may take you longer to say what you are feeling, but chances are you will bump into the very thing that’s needed to be said somewhere down the line, to do the trick, and to fill that space, or unearthing controversy, whether the problem lies in you or them, people have problems, the worst is when someone has a problem with you that you cannot fix, you cannot talk sense into anyone who does not see you as a human being and a person, they may just be trying to get a point across, some go by the “speakeasy” philosophy, where its in whats not said that leads their thinking and actions and behaviors toward you, its like walking up to a painting, either youre going to describe it and they will make sense later or you allow that trait in others to get to you, its important to respect how everyone communicates, not everyone is good at saying it how it is, being an accurate depictor of the times, or saying things in a relateable way, that anyone can understand from their shoes and not judge you or others differently, having you said how you feel, not all feelings and emotions are caused, a lot of what you go through when youre having a hard time is a product of what you are thinking or doing, it really shouldn’t matter whatever is going on around you, there will be chaos, there will be misunderstanding, there will be choices, there will options to rise above, to confide in, to question, to harp on, to focus on, to ignore, its “survival mode” do whatever you need to do to maintain your sanity, and expect that those who are vocal about their grievances feel like they have a right to complain, or not be happy with you, its an “energy world” and “social world” and people have their “preference” and “privacy” concerns, and the minute it doesn’t feel good, well that’s the moment that defines whether people stay in your life, or learn to move along without you, that’s being a writer, not everyone wants to be mentioned or read, and that much space you have to afford to people, who don’t recognize or respect that its through writing that’s keeping you well, you would expect that doing something you love, people would respect and support, its not about shocking people, or being catchy, or trying to get attention with “false advertisement” I think Im as good as it gets, I have a law degree, I have research and writing experience, I graduated with honors, I have solid work experience, I have paid work experience, and I have experience counseling others in crisis, that’s enough life experience to illustrate that when Im required to stay well and be mature and be there for others Im able to, and unfortunately later in life that turned into dealing with peoples anger, instead of their support, and having to be understanding of them no matter how angry or upset they were of me, or disappointed, and to me that’s being a solid person, and if you are lucky being a solid person will take you far in life, you will have those relationships in life you wanted, you will get to talk to people you miss and admire and think well of, and you don’t have to allow your darkest hours, or hardships to mess with the perception of you now, why it doesn’t make sense for you not to be doing well, not everything makes sense, it makes no sense I was smart and didn’t finish law school, and it makes no sense I was a popular blogger and cant figure out how to set up all my google analytics and adsense and alexa to measure to the same volume of stats that show on my weebly, or or analytics, I might just add up all the numbers and just go from there, its measuring something, so something is better than nothing. Even if things aren’t perfect, Im not paying for blogpros and don’t have a huge following anymore on Pinterest, that doesn’t mean don’t keep track, like with relationships the more you notice and keep track of, same with a blog, the more comfortable you become with the concept of blogging and keeping yourself motivated to stick to it and grow, this is my third time trying to blog, the first was 2017, then again 2018-2019, the with Alexa 2019-2020, actual successful stats! I was so proud of myself, even though no one really believed how that happened, I saw the robot analytics options, I didn’t use robots, those were real views, so take the moment, put it in a jar like a firefly and be that much excited about capturing something lovely and live and unique, and then when the time comes for you to focus again, when things are more settled, then continue to build on that progress, for me its maybe getting a life coach certificate for blogging on Udemy, watching a few masterclasses, studying on Coursera, and CITI, and eventually try to write higher quality work like a research paper, as though Im going for a masters in sociology, what I wanted before I discovered other writing opportunities for masters programs, one of which was to study law, figured I would be good at it, not because I like to argue or fight, but because I enjoy writing, like I do blogging.