Being annoying is being loving and not in need of help, it’s everything being okay, and you doing you’re best and no one is truly bothered by you, that’s being annoying. It’s not until you get sick, or seem sad or unhappy that people worry, that is because they think that if you are unhappy means that there is a fight, and then it becomes a whos here or you’re not or ghost or disappear joke, over what you are called when and why and to what extremes is that relevant or what is the pattern sought to exist through ill fueled words thrown at people, what is the common theme and pattern to a word inflicted to a person, what is the solution in inflicting words, and in what way is that the solution for reinforcing a truth or something about a person they are either told they cannot change about themselves or is something existing they cannot change and is the basis for a comment, of a lesser thread to be later connected or insinuated to mean that a comment is made in reflection or observance of you and what is your problem or issue with voices or self harm, and seek to justify a quesitonning of your self care or ability to love yourself, make about others or incite anger toward you as though you are not one who was a role model who got fit who looked feminine and doll liked presentable dressed nice to work everyday, not a showboat but proud to work everyday, and in what way was that annoying or obnoxious or anywhere better in life that anyone else cannot achieve.

What is it about people’s futures that make people resentful of people who have peace and ability to have a good life, date, marry, have a child, or work, in what way does destroying a person present ability and opportunities in life, make things different, how should a person appear or what should the exhibit in “frustration” over the words of a psychiatrist who treated me for a year and dumped me as a patient for missing an appointment, in what way are others done or disappointed with you, and in what way do you look bad, when a relationship ceases. I think it will be in illustration of connecting and disconnecting and sickness is the pattern sought to be exhibited to prove whether you have a future and people in your life, or whether you are someone who is in need of a life and thinks that people open doors to you in life, or whether you can open doors for yourself in life, or whether that matters to you, how many doors open for you, or on what basis.

I think at different points in life you will find ways to think in a positive way about life reflect, however meaningful that was, you are devalued when your website is broken, and you need to hire help for $400, when they destroy your theme, when they disable your ability to check your alexa rank, when they only show a shared rank to a business platform that you joined, and so you don’t know youre rank and upon sharing people think that youre numbers aren’t real so you look like a false representation of yourself and your previous stats, and then have to start over, and not get hurt in the same way, and be left to not be differentiated from others, its until you don’t matter, that you never existed, and never were an influence, and then doesn’t matter whether you were, its when you do or say something wrong that causes you to not matter or not exist, is when youre influence doesn’t matter, and punishments are systems for making successful films, because they are about rises and falls and lots of money, so people want to know how much in excess were their lives lived, to have lost everything, what were they doing wrong, and why do people get to make money off knowing someone, who then does not have a life, and is not able to make money from their own life, or because of who they are able to get a job or be known with sympathy.

I think benefit of the doubt is given in good time, takes years, I think self harm voices, is to make you appear mentally ill or erratic a loose cannon or disturbing, I think mental illness being in your own body is disturbing let alone be disturbing around others, I think the common discomfort is the membership to a class of women, who they are seeking to differentiate me from age groups, and is on the basis of self harm, hospital, or diagnosis, makes me not belong as mentor, or life coach, or advisor to younger women, who should not be exposed to the consequences of writing, and being apart of, being destroyed, not able to see your stats, your google rank destroyed, and then tests on everyone knows you no one knows you doesnt seem to work or change your head from being smaller or bigger on that basis known to be your problem, is not your problem, then being known by all or known by less cannot prevent what is causing me to be questioned one the basis of what Im thinking if Im not writing to say that Im not speaking or withholding or don’t have anything of value to say or make it to mean to be about others, to devalue me as a person and to not help me through my won writing, disempower me, is a pathetic way to determine whether someone is of value or smart or creating or causing trouble or playing victim, I don’t think that I have it in me to pretend to change to act or be preferential I think everyones made it clear that women are to belong to a separate class that is inspired by one another, supports one another, doesn’t steal from one another, doesn’t compete with one another, and is proud of one another, and then there are the class of women, who they are seeking to denominate me to the unhappy class of people who have less and then differentiate me from women, by hurting me so that Im not fit to date, to see how I feel alone, or what motivates me or what causes me to run or to live life or stop living life, I think life is much to precious to have trust issues with people so Im sorry I cant stop voices, I cant prevent that condition, no medication can solve that problem, or computer or tech, or phone, or account, the same issues seem to happen, and it’s not that Im giving up, and its not by having less that an example is being made of me to compare me to people who end up homeless, to punish me as though I don’t empathize or to treat me as someone who has a diagnosis that means they are this way so they deserve less in life. So that’s is what Im going through, because Im not allowed to rest a few weeks or a few days.

I will instead battle mental health issues out loud and write three posts a day until you get a feel for who I am and so no more watching or experimentation of me in private is necessary to see what my face looks like what Im doing my mouth, my body, or any reaction and hurt me as though I should not exist and treat me as not belonging on the basis of my energy, or say that Im mentally ill clearly not apart of was some peoples solution by telling me to go to the hospital, its’ until I cant speak and I cant work, that that job was done in making a determination for me to ultimately make me feel sick, get voices, self harm to make what they have to say right and then to constantly compare and observe and hear what I say and expect me to be well and to have a new life or a new interaction and its when you thought I was annoying gave me a hard time then not functioning, wondering why I don’t snap out of it or whats my choice or what am I revoking, or what are my privileges, or what are my rights, or what am I doing, wrong, Im not doing anything wrong.

Im accepting my diagnosis Im not arguing or fighting with anyone, and Im leaving it up to Google and rebuild a website and write 3 articles a day whether I have sickness or am doing well speaking fluid whether its clear and understandable or confusing and cant relate and will solve what is occurring in my life based on what they think is my attitude in life then make things about things that things were never and then say in this life do this, then this life do this, then this life do this.