I have been blogging for 5 years now, and have been writing my whole life, and went to law school. Later in life a diagnosis affected my mental health, self-esteem, outlook, ability, future potential, and made me feel limited and disabled and unmotivated in life. You won’t get through life, not working towards your goals in life, so set them, you wont know your potential until you try is the lesson, with taking things to heart or a diagnosis, there may be later upsets, bigger heartbreaks, greater difficulties, more challenges, harder fights, and more serious conditions, but you can get through life, so long as you have your ability to live life, get help, take good care of yourself, mindful of others, and steer clear of all fighting on any level with anyone, including all lawsuits in general. So why bring this up? People probably want to know what is being sold? Nothing, a book one day if I am fortunate enough to publish a book and get started in the very difficult career of writing. I think as a medical professional there is no comparison to what I have to offer with a legal education, their education and licenses equip them to diagnosis your problems help you with your problems, get you to talk about your problems, and help you fix your problems, Im not a diagnostic, Im not diagnosing anyone, Im not stating anything untrue or about people that not real and hurtful and pressing and important to discuss, and Im not making up anything Im thinking based on anything Im feeling or doing in life that is wrong or by bad decision, bad thinking, or poor thinking, meaning desperation guilt sickness medication management or any abuse, I am not abusing any system of becoming known, read, or education getting an MLS, or any legal system for determining what is wrong with you and why or what is wrong and why and what can be done, I have not argued, or persuaded, or said anything untrue based upon my life, my mental health, and well being. There is the fight that you cannot win, is when people who know you come to not like you, and expect you to be sick, or to not speak well, and worry if its about them, I have never not spoken well of anyone, or ever blamed anyone I know for feeling sick, or for explanation of any condition that I have endured present or past ever been about anyone, hurting me, abusing me, ignoring me, rejecting me, or not talking to me. I think once you become a blogger you are hard to talk to because people don’t know what to expect, they want to observe, they would rather not say what they think, or they think what you are doing is wrong, thinking that you are figuring out life wrong, or have things known wrong, or think you are working off of other people or assembling something in poor representation of others, no I have not, not ever.

I think if I ever was able to be a life coach, not one-on-one because of disability now and after bullying, it was probably my calling to be doing whatever Im doing in life through writing, and that’s for noe one to tell me what my strengths are in life, or how that was found out or known, you recognize what keeps you well by what is going well for you in life, just like people in jobs, I don’t think a blog is to be compared to a medical practice to then insult me or insult my Family’s line of work, there is not comparison, and my popularity online is not because I am a Doctor’s daughter I am well or smart or sick and embarrassing, whatever the end conclusion is arrived to, that I can’t control how things look or how I seem or what has been said about me to describe the way I talk, a career I made for myself through blogging, or the treatments I have undergone for mental health issues past, there is not formula or explanation for how someone gets a mental health issue, or fails in life or functions, no one deserves to get sick or to be treated sick and just because someone is sick doesn’t mean that they are sick, or have asked for it. I think that’s the wrong conundrum in life, to deduce a persons health as being about others, it wont be about others until what other people think matters, and by that point it will then matter who is helped or affected, or impacted by your life in any way positive or negative, or by your health or changes to your diagnosis and health, what will be believed. I don’t think anyone on a sick day models and puts that up as their linkedin photo, I don’t think people wake up in the morning and use that as their drivers license photo, and I don’t think people who drink and hook up, apply for jobs to drink and hook up (example of a mentally ill thought or thinking or something to say that’s mentally ill or stupid). So in the end health is about liability, so although Im not a doctor and I cannot promise you that what is working for me is why I am well, then make sure not to disprove my own system of staying well in public through blogging, to say that my blog or my system for staying well is unreliable or not medically sound. I wouldn’t call my blog a hospital or a treatment center for anything or any problem or issue, and I wouldn’t say that Im not in the solution when I write and Im able to speak, or not providing solution, or refraining from engaging in solution bearing contents that would benefit the majority when thinking about life, to help make things better and safer and more just society, equal. I think what there is to not like about people, can cause sickness to people, like if you hate gay, then I feel sick, if you hate tomboy, then I feel sick, if you hate Jews then I feel sick, if you hate my face, then I feel ill, if you hate obsesity, then I feel sick, if you hate my voice, then my head hurts, if you hate my writing, then my body hurts, life is very inflicting in that way in which you can be torn, hurt and injured over anything in life and not know why, and the more you talk about it, or reference to it, the less people care and not empathize with you they don’t care why youre sick, who hurt you, or what was said, all that matters is when you are mentally ill and people come to see you in that way, whoever feels better thinks that they were doing the right thing to make people hate you, so whatever was the joke that carried everyone else over, and whatever was the hurt that started, that’s for me to decide what still hurts, what hate remains, how should I feel, when do I feel sick, and never give up whether I know what the system of hate is for or rejection, whether it’s a deserved system of disrespect and pain inflicting to others, or whether its an imagined state of feeling sick that can be repaired through written words, to be less detrimental to my health and less obvious or concerning to whoever felt that way at that time, you know if someone feels that way and that’s what they say that’s on them, of course that hurts I don’t have to explain how that hurts, or what teams I am or am not on in real life in reality, but its is clear that when you are broken, and ignored and left on your own  if you feel suicidal that’s youre own fault they would say for getting hurt or feeling sick, so yes I am a member of ASS and graded suicide research papers, and yes I know enough about my own experiences in life that I can come to later understand the consequences or the causes for feeling sick, it will not always be your fault, there will not always be people around you there will be no one to talk to, you may not be confronted with anything, it could be something online attacking you, it could be a person in real life, whatever where the causes once, if pronounced and tested and the same result then no I don’t have to go to the hospital if I feel sick or feel like Im dying, and however that happened to me is my job to take my time and get well and to figure out and is no ones fault, no ones business, doesn’t mean Ive offended anyone, or don’t anything wrong, people feel offended by feelings emotions things and people that they don’t have to care about or told not to care about and I never told anyone based on who I am or where I come from that they have to know me, or have to care about me, or have to help me, its not anyones emergency when I don’t feel well, I have to get well on my own, and that’s no ones fault or at what end of the spectrum of giving up Im ever at that anyone needs to decide when to cut the chord and end things going on in my life, or interrupt my direction in life or ability to do things in life or work, what can go wrong is sickness, when you force people to do things that you don’t regulate, credit, pay, give accurate stats for, acknowledged, award, recognize or allow to be real evidence of someones value worth and education that’s not my end in life, I don’t have it with people and quit in life, I don’t give up on people, I am not short with people, I don’t sue people, I don’t talk $hit about people, I don’t compete with people, I don’t not protect people, I don’t not say what is right or say what is wrong on purpose to cross words with #mlkmemorial, or “The Dream Speech,” for equality, and I dont punish people for their words or attitudes in life what says anything about life, its not my life that’s the lens that you need to look through if Im being called schizophrenic, it’s about why should anyone care or be affected in what condition is a mental illness irreparabale, or words or things anyone says cannot be taken back or fixed as directed toward you a popular Jewish person online, and in what way do I need to not be brought down in life for the wrongs of others, or for people being wrongfully cold to me, and in what way does maintaining a blog justify that I am well, not suicidal, not giving up, and not too much, and that my feelings are real, Im not fighting with anyone, Im not trying to sound good or smooth things over Im not buying into any teams in life, or rejecting people on any teams in life, Im not turning against people, I am not to blame for any weather or attacks in the US, or whatever monster you seek to create to explain for the mental illness of others their deficits, angers, turmoils, upsets, and then try to blame me for peoples unhappiness in life, or lack of success, Im not bringing anyone down in life, so stop accusing me of being mentally ill or schizophrenic, stop accusing me of wrongs, stop accusing me of doing things Im not doing, stop hurting me a rejecting me and embarrassing me, and that’s my limit with surrendering myself and being vulnerable to people improving and then being left out cold to rot or to die or be punished, that’s not my fault what happened on Robertson, those are not my connections in life, and I did talk to police, and I do report, and I did photo the trash and I did do everything possible to care and to try to help so no I didn’t scare anyone I didn’t attack anyone I didn’t blame anyone I didn’t subject anyone to harm, I don’t have criminal connections, I don’t make illegal connections I don’t attract illegal things there is random energy around me no one nis communicating to me, no is being weird, and not is is not at ease or scared, therefore my condition, means tired, me resting means its important, and me being hurt means that its real and Im not suing anyone and Im not complaining to a judge and Im not making a big deal and I don’t care and I want to move on in life and no one should care what happens to me in life or care what my life is like or where Im headed or what Im doing or who Im dating or where Im working, because nothing went right when all of those things were going right for me so what should it matter now, what you need is security in thinking that things will go by well by who you choose to be well by.