Rewrite 4:46pm 10/30/22

Trash feels better when you take a conservative woman of value “Leslie Fischman,” and they date me and dump me (haven’t met their mark want (better) give me an STD, and disconnect from me [before I get well, get strong, get better, want fun when focused, or try to date past punishment and diagnosis when I feel gone ruined] so that I commit suicide that’s the real world [appreciate what you get in life I was never picky over time spent was usually just working not well enough but available they were nice enough to visit me.]

[That’s what makes a woman look strong or sexual it’s their pride in spite of rejection it’s their pride in spite of being ignored, it’s what changes a woman from being sweet to defensive it’s the changes one endures that flips the other to appearing better than, above, or nice and in the reverse you are viewed as ugly, ill tempered, out there, or not rightfully insulted, that’s life. The best way to overcome insult is to be a happy person and not let anyone affect you or change you. You don’t have to change to reinforce ill or disrespectful feelings toward you, hold your head high and keep going in life you’re not a trick and don’t let anyone treat you as trick or trash].

If you are ever unhappy refrain from the motto: “it fucks you it dumps you, it doesn’t employ you, and it thinks they’re better than you.” [That’s the exact attitude that makes men feel hurt by you or insulted and women think they’re better than you sweeter than you are]. If it doesn’t respect you [work on yourself] or doesn’t help you [seek professional help] if it shouts at you [don’t defend yourself apologize and move on] and if it blames you [say less do more] for things it thinks is your fault [seek advisement from an attorney or therapist].

I’m not Chinese, I’m barely half-Asian they call it Pacific Islander and my Dad is Jewish, so that makes me half Ukrainian, Israeli, Russian. A person like Kanye West has no reason to trash me because of what’s trending in spite of me being defamed and trashed online on a GoDaddy website and Facebook page. I’m a private citizen, I’m not for meme-ing and using as reference to make a company name, song, or movie without my permission to devalue me or to misinterpret me as not put together, with it, apart of, and working in support of the good health of others.

Just because I look fat and ugly in pictures and put on medications that caused me obesity and to have a big stomach does not entitle you to shame me or disregard me to others write me off as a charity case I have EVERY RIGHT TO EARN A DOLLAR IN THIS COUNTRY how dare you secretly try to discriminate me or make fun of my life my identity my privilege to live this life and not be suicidal over what you think or what you value in life. I don’t care if you think you’re royalty (most are by now experienced wealth while I was writing my heart away online and in my MacBook while finishing my Masters) or special WE ARE ALL SPECIAL [whether you know it or not] WE WERE ALL BORN TO WORK IN THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA [no matter what disability or deficiency understanding code or game or how archaic your interpersonal skills are too caring or attentive] unless disabled or incapacitated [we all deserve a chance to prove our worth whether for marriage job or degree deserved].

[The best solutions would be where any side thrives not just one supported, buffered, given benefit of the doubt, popular, weak, multiplier, or alone, when all sides thrive [for or against, in support of, or indifferent to, distance to all sides is my preference given my diagnosis is likely to disturb or upset or be rejected as not good enough or disorganized) -no matter how close an understanding or follow of anyones story or comprehension of history or choice making in life, not feel denominated for caring or being cautious of misuse]. [If] you’re the conflict of interest, you are in violation of the non-competition clause, [don’t be] unethical [have a heart], if you are a corrupt business man and person [what entitled you to destroy take away value from others or campaigns who informed you of that ability or right to disenfranchise people’s identities over words or outcomes prove publicly].

[If] you misuse people, identities, photos, and computer for personal benefit to shame or cause mental illness to a creator of content not authorized for your viewing. Then, “how dare you,” invade my computer for content, how dare you encourage people to violate my right to privacy and go through my computer [to create a diagnosis upon telling of schizophrenia cannot be proven], and how dare you make money off making fun of me and encouraging continued attack of my privacy and spaces to make others feel apart of , [while excluding me.]