Once you become known and its on record how many people are reading and the potential number of people who can be helped by you, it’s more than just titles and headings which need to be proven against all odds, obstacles, and losses, it’s about who you are as a person, deserving, or not, let alone who you say you are and proving you are the same person you are online as you are in real life. To be held to a good morale standing is in everyone’s best interests as a person who is known, this would be the proof of being known, how many are undecided of you, either meeting you for the first time, or don’t know you, exposed to you, learning of you, coming to know you, in belief, or disbelief, it’s true that we each are responsible for the same congruence planned to be delivered to the people who either do or do not support us, that’s it what is desired a mental congruence, dear Judge. So excuse me for my hesitancy and exhaustion sharing in the immediate days following leaving treatment, there are plenty of non-issues to separate myself from at a time like this, when three influencers are being held to standards to retain or lose fans by, what one or the other has to say about life, and what meaning is derived from those compositions, i.e. Taylor Swift, Kim Kardashian, and (excuse me for naming myself with only 300k following – Leslie Fischman). There is no such thing as piggy backing on the success of others, that’s not how you become known by an OJ mention, that doesn’t mean all is acceptable or all feelings forgiveable, I’m sure the same standards are held to me as any person known, either making one feel good a benefit to be known, easy to hear from, rewarding experience to cross paths with, or brought into question, and this is the meaning of life, to what extent does your life promote wellness in others and guarantee the success of others in recovery from mental health issues, illness, or disillusionment, and to what extent is any promise for a bettered state of mind not provided and how so would it be proven. It’s true when things clash, there is a disconnect and sudden questioning of oneself, whereby if one is alone and made to feel in question or uncertain can feel sick or unsure, which by normal standards is a disillusionment that can be corrected upon being around others, like the common cause of voices occurring when one is alone, but going away upon being around people. I wouldn’t say that there is some easy solution and mass experimentation that is intended to take hold by anyone’s fanship or due to anything that anyone has to say, it’s about a feeling of things being well, things working out, and that promise for things to continue to be well, and for that future state of being well to be promised and experienced by who is investing time and energy to know, or be exposed to certain individuals, who’s success not only tells them this person has life figured out and well enough to be known as a leader or someone to inspire others to get well and work hard and have things turn out well for them in their favor, but all consequences and ramifications and results, should reflect that intention whether consciously or scientifically determined, to protect the wellness of those with a divested interest in the words of others and what it means to them, for the first time we as a society are coming to terms with a haphazard result of feeling torn or in receipt of communications that are believed to convince people of opinions and for choices to be made with those opinions whether changed, or reacted to in support of, a result is taking place affecting someone who has not commented on major happenings thus far perceived to concern them, such as Kim Kardashian, this allows us to further come to witness the identities of those found to be offensive and intimidating, and the sides to which are supported or not designated in support of the wrong people such as OJ, or a job with a former employee of The Cochran Law Firm, which was found out about after date of hire, not prior to, and interview accepted after several interviews took place, in a continued effort to seek employment as recommended by a career coach to continue applying even past the interview stages of applying for jobs. Out of us three, I’m the only one with a medical history being used against me to change my diagnosis from “me bringing myself to the hospital” to “others bringing me to the hospital” and that’s a chapter in life that I don’t deserve to relive, being treated as though there is something wrong with me, or a change witnessed, that calls for medical attention and analysis, what my diagnosis does say about me is that life is hard for me, it’s a day to day struggle appearance, that its not guaranteed that I can push myself and improve, that I’m capable of breaking, that my disability is something overcome or as assumed in remission or capable of happening again, and that much I can’t promise or lose by that standard, what I sound like when sick, or what I’m supposed to look like, sick, or hurt, lost, confused, or upset, is not my choice. For the sake of campaigning and advising others on what works, its safe to say that Taylor Swift nor Kim Kardashian are taking chances with the psyche of others, never calling into question their own sanity, nor another’s success, and politely moving forward in their careers and to statuses unheard of in these times of struggle. I’m the one person known who is not earning a wage, and even upon earning a wage, I was told that that was less important than time I should invest in more treatment, and what that tells me is who I am in sobriety was not acceptable to the standards of observance, and functioning off meds and working was not anything that anyone was impressed by illustrating that I’ve overcome tremendous odds to be able to function and work off day meds. Instead court has turned into an absolute nightmare, ruining my life, changing my life, and pushing me, and challenging me to extremes with threat of jail or suicide looming, as though those aren’t destinations proper for me, or circumstances that would consume me to the extent of suicide, and that much isn’t deserved for loving and supporting a politician. As far as Im concerned I am a politician with a 300k following that I am responsible for being honest, disclosing everything to, and ensuring that nothing bad happens to them, that’s responsibility, where even if I’m not working as a paralegal and paid, who I am online should not differ from what is expected of a paid employee and not be treated as though someone unpaid performs less, which tells me that a book needs to be published in order for my identity and capability of success as a writer to become known, otherwise I’m hurt as a writer, judged as sickness coming from me, and that’s not something I’ve ever hid from or pretended like I’m scared of what happens if someone gets sick reading my blog, I assume that I would be sued, and that I could go to jail, and since that’s not happening to me, one can assume that neither myself nor my audience is in harms way when it comes to reading my blog. Back again to the “promise” expected the promise reflects the antecedent which is for things not to mix well, for there to be something wrong that someone can tell, and for what’s wrong to be something that a person is required to disclose or is noticeable caveat to watching a person, known or not known to have disability or confusion suggested. So what hurts in the head is something insulting, a lie, a promise that is not fulfilled, betrayal, a convincing that one is good and is not smart such as fraud, or a linking together of connections and alleging that as a person connected one has failed to represent those connections, or is an odd man out meaning disrespected presence not respected.