TO:                              US SUPREME COURT

FROM:                        LESLIE A. FISCHMAN

DATE:                        November 15, 2022

Subject:                        My Philosophy in Combatting Violence, Being Liked

Being a writer is not an easy sport, while other will feel a sense of relief and clarity from hearing what you have to say, they are not on pins and needles on the spot having to discuss how they feel or state what they see in life, that’s the difference between a blogger or a writer, and someone from your audience, who has the liberty to hear what they think, and hear what you have to say, whereas I am the only person to whom I can go to for feedback to recognize through review and reflection of what has been said and why, what is needed to be said, and what has been said well, that I can only experience through reading my own work, not the work of others. When you are in your own story, only you can tell your story not someone else’s, and although people may feel empowered to know your story or feel privileged to call you out based on what they have heard, that is also not their right to call the shots on me, as though I have created any situation or circumstance that has worked disfavorably to their life circumstance or ability to prosper and be well liked. 

Being well liked is the solution. There is no safety in comradere, but there is safety in having things right in your head about things, from which better decisions can be made, this I believe. It’s when there is something wrong, either nagging at us, or not present in mind, is how people get hurt by those who believe that they got the issues, or understand things better than you, that’s who is reading not always on my side, not to my liking. Benefactors of a privilege to knowing me and hearing from me and using my knowledge or my writing to their advantage, they don’t know me, they could simply be going off of what someone else has said or view me to be stupid and them to be smart because they understand what I am saying and think that I don’t have comprehension too. 

Writing to the US Supreme Court is not a strong stance, it’s actually putting myself in a weaker stance willingly, to not allow for anything bad to happen, that’s when you are confronted with your weaknesses in life, and that’s to my benefit, no matter who feels strengthened by any moment in which I am brought to my knees in life, to explain for myself, or on what set of terms, to which others deny, there is no going on of a feeling of disdain to a person in public light, to which a person or others can suffer by, which is to be blamed upon one person, that’s a painful life to live, in spite of hate or gloom, to be considered the bearer of a condition of the issue that others have with me. 

I think some are privileged to be represented in life, I don’t think that I have that privilege. I think by story, genetics, diagnoses, or obesity, that empowers others to feel like they are better than me, and consider themselves affected by my condition, as though its beneath them to consider. I have never viewed myself that lowly in life, and I don’t think that I deserve to be viewed that low in life, there are other people who have drank and done drugs for years and make money and ruin their lives, I’m not one of them, and sobriety does not make me immune to illness or higher up than anyone who does drink, it just makes me more responsible and so does being a law student. 

Chaos in voices occurs when people think you are going against them, when you are no longer opening up and having fun as though no one is watching, that’s how people want to see you, they want to watch and see what you are like when no one is around, or when everyone is watching you, that is how we as a society measure people’s strength by how they are in front of people. And because of my story and being connected to a Defendant of “The Dream Team,” I am made to look as stupid, or eating $hit, or stepping on $hit, or angry minded or uneducated or pretending to be smart or pretty, they view me as wannabe, not a Politician who is favored in the public light, and not as a Public Figure who is well regarded as a writer online. They see me as small if they do not feel good connected to me and think that they have the right to go through my things like my life or my condition affects them and that is wrong to do, to watch someone in private for information or clearance on issues, or for proof of what someone is about or what their story looks like, in private. 

I think apart of people does not want me to confront issues in life or speak to issues in life, or to describe how I am feeling, apart of people don’t want it to be real and don’t want others to have to admit to knowing me, or seeing me, and not liking me, that is their right to feel that way toward me that doesn’t mean that it should be allowed or is deserved, I’m not beneath you, I’m as rich in the mind and capable for being successful than any Porsche turbo SUV shouting at me, that’s his ego not mine, and me entering the right lane, not in his way, so what was that for? You can’t go on and intimidate a person as though they are not apart of, where did your car and money come from? Germany, exactly, and who is the German girl who was slain in 1994, my Best Friend’s Mom. So think what do you represent and who is known for what you represent in life, and tell me how should I be viewed as a threat to you shouting at a car that is moving away from you, how does that make it my fault, for making a U-Turn, these a the types of people I walk to the Police Station, who are aggressive toward me, I’m a woman, and I’m not stupid, and shouting at me doesn’t make you richer or smarter than me, it makes your life look easy, that you don’t have to speak to everyone on earth to get a job, and be known in writing, in order to be selected to audition for a Lead Role out of thousands and hundreds of applicants of pretty women, vying for the same role in life, in a movie. That means that I have credibility, and the reason I stand out to you in the road, if because my car is clean and because Im worth millions of dollars in education and my identity stands out more than yours that is why your voice was faint upon shouting at me, that’s God telling you Im bigger than you and maybe you should hesitate and not speak that way toward me, that’s your body backing down. That’s how strong you need to be in in life, so that another does not exert force over your mind and your body, that’s someone who when confronted by something smarter than them, ends up feeling smaller than you, because you are not the threat, its they are being a threat to you. 

Sincerely,

Leslie A. Fischman