Just for future reference I’ll talk about whats going on on my end, with awareness for what is going on on any end toward me by any side created. A lawsuit is a separate issue that is being taken care of outside of court, with respect for my own need to not be held to a lesser standard discriminated on the basis of a complaint in public, with no fighting in private, and no grievances, or mental health issues, directed toward who is suing me, that’s a lawsuit without a fight, and then me not feeling well afterward. Feeling like going to the hospital can occur for any number of reasons. I think my website is working out, I think Ive been nervous since the lawsuit, and having difficulty on Twitter, and it feels like a lot is against me or having to explain in life.

Then there is the separate issue, of music and film which is going well, and based upon how Im doing, can participate by writing and being read by an audience of my choosing, and listen to music and enjoy the company of others through song. A lawsuit simply means that Im being separated from whats going on, that could be in any field. Then there is my membership to Brady. So people want to know why did I talk about college, after a shooting on a college campus, because I didn’t see the news my Apple TV has not been working for months, and that was what I thought of in a moment of silence, following a shooting.

For someone with schizophrenia, sometimes there are periods of quiet. So for example, there was a period of quiet, during the time that Michigan was in the news, and the topic of discussion was chosen and stated before I had the time to watch and listen to the news to hear what happened. So that’s an example, of what Im thinking could have been a result of what is ongoing, something that I can’t see, but comes to mind, so that’s an example of if Im being watched, saying something along the lines of what is known or someone else’s exposures thinking, that doesn’t mean that what Im saying is what they are thinking.

The title of the post was “I have a confession,” and that was written at the same time in the news there was a mass shooting, so based on watching the news the title of that post was changed, because “I have a confession” and a mass shooting do not sound good together, and makes me look like I have guilt as to a mass shooting. So that’s the current pattern sought to be established through me. Its based on what I say after a shooting, whether I have awareness for the issues, and how could I have a guilt, and by what means could I have a guilt.

So that’s seeing me as someone who is capable of triggering someone else, so that’s looking at me, like Im under a pressure of guilt, to not empathize with a person who is under a pressure in which people think that a person is guilty or a cause. What would make a person guilty or a cause of a mass shooting. What are the causes for mass shootings. Then that would be up to a person to read all my work and tell me in what ways have I conveyed any messages abouts any “terms” that people don’t want to hear. People don’t want to hear many things and that is one of them.

So what are known causes of them, and in what way, is there an energy or mentality carried through me to another to justify a feeling, when there is a side toward you such as in a lawsuit, that’s to let you know that there is an anger toward you that others think you are guilty of, therefore if there is an anger toward me, that could be a feeling that is being built within another in a good way, to then attack me on the basis of what they are feeling if they are not feeling good, that is how anger protects people from harm, when they get upset they defend themselves, that’s a lawsuit.

A lawsuit that’s a building up to defend, that’s not a building up to reinforce, no ones anger toward me is breaking me down in a way that I cant feel, a lawsuit is simply telling me if there is a force against you breaking you down, to be mindful of the potential, for others to be going against you in life. There are many different ways that you can be harmed, and the things that you are not aware of and not told, is not my business to know what is driving a force toward me, and in what ways should a force be directed towards me that I should be hurt, or hospital should mean Im hurt or be evidence that I have been hurt and the existence of a force exists against me.

Therefore I am not in a fight. I went to the bar twice and had 6 beers, I was able to walk, and drink beer and feel good. I have been sober for many years and stay home, so there was no force against me, because I was in a room full of people, and no one was upset with me, or mad at me, means that I am not known in a bad way that my presence causes illness or realization to anyone, that they would be made to feel weak or scared or sick by me, means that we all did well around eachother.

I think staying home is a good idea, Im not feeling well because I am usually sober and attend AA meetings, and because Im being sued means its probably not a good idea, to go out and drink, or date, so since I dated, and since I drank, that is why I look bad being sued, because people heard lawsuit and they thought I was going to jail because of something Ive done to someone I love.

So the confusion is my position, which is not sided with, then everything going well, which I am kept separate from, then an incident, and people want to know why is an incident occurring, when Im being sued, and why would I feel like the hospital, well now I can’t go to the hospital, because people want to know why Im not feeling well, Im not feeling well, since before there was a Brady related issue, therefore just because Im not feeling well does not mean that there will be a Brady issue, and my condition is not so obvious anything that anyone would know exactly what has happened to me in life to not be feeling good.

The world is not flat, therefore that only means that’s my condition is not the “victim” that you think belong to a group “criminals” that you think is a team, that is to be fought against to then situate me in a place in life to be attacked or not empathized with by lawsuit would be a medical reason to not want people to empathize with me if they think that Im contagious.

Therefore if Im not feeling well, then I need to stay home, which is today. I simply had to go to CVS to do chores, get things for the house. Whenever I have a burning feeling in my body or in my head, I usually stay home. As a blogger things get better with writing, so a burning feeling in my body or in my head, can be reversed by writing something to explain for the disappointment, or upset over what is coming from me at this point in time and how it should be related to what is going on.

I think that prevention occurs when people are well, and there should be no sickness trending or shared or empathized with or defended in public to mean that there is a fight taken on by people for others. I don’t think that’s what anyone is doing, the case is being handled in private, and that means what is ongoing can get better when I get well, and what is not going right for me, is on the basis of what someone thinks is going wrong with me, so that is the basis for a lawsuit. Is to say that Im sick.

If I am well and losing weight and date and get a job, well then that makes the lawsuit not make sense, why is she able to be accepted into lives, and why and in what way did this life not accept her and on what basis. So that is what people want to know, how and why is a shooting caused, and in what way is that related to my health. I think what people wanted to say was that if I get sick, or they think punishment (rehab or hospital) means that a side reacts to my condition of not being well (would make it inappropriate for me to be hospitalized or seek treatment if Im doing well and the basis for me not feeling well is my fault or criminal then there is no treatment for me being refused or not abided by if it’s something to solve on my own, not expose others to, is the issue now with going to the hospital). Does it matter when Im not feeling well or need to go to the ER, and in what way does it matter when Im not feeling well? I have had bipolar for 10 years so there should be no sudden change of going by me or anyone that all of a sudden a faulty reaction or understanding of life suddenly doesn’t work, and one side is well and one side is sick, by my health.

Published 02/17/23.