Certain experiences in life, coupled with what you have to say about life, can send you off the deep end with people, thinking you’re out there in a way, that’s not relatable or doesn’t reconcile whats of issue, pertaining to your identity, and in terms of being known by whom, what specializes you to be apart of, what was approved about you to grow your audience.

It will be by what you say well that you get public attention or likes, its not by your bad days, your sick days, what you have to say about politics, Gun Violence, crime, mental health, or shared experiences in life, in the end people want to know what is your influence and what is occurring because of you.

I would say a lot of good things happened, nothing that I was cited to or credited for, so as far as Im concerned I was never known to the extent, that anyone would be made to believe that anything was done out of a repeated impression of me or something that I have had to say. Allow people to get to know you, but don’t lose control over what is appropriate to talk about. I wouldn’t talk about subjects if I didn’t have first hand experience, therefore I know how to talk about subjects in a way that does not harm anyone, because it is how I overcame an issue and what I recognized to be the problems faced with that caused for those conditions, whether you believe it or not, is not what is schizophrenic about me.

Its about what you believe and your life, and what other people think is true or not true about you. I can understand that schizophrenia is things you convince yourself are real, and going by things in life untrue or something convinced is of is real. Therefore talking about mental health issues is not a schizophrenic delusion that’s not real that Im convincing anyone is true about my life. It’s what happened to me in my life, and symptoms experienced, and that doesn’t mean that you will fall sick by the same things in the future not if you get strong, and stay well, and don’t give up, and don’t allow any auditory delusion to convince you that anyone can hear what you are saying, whats going on in your body or your head, or what you can see through your eyes, no one can be you, no one can hear you, no one knows what you are thinking, that’s your right to privacy.

I think off the deep end, is when people think you are talking and unrelateable, it can occur when you are purposefully sharing anything private that’s to make light of your life, even though your love is real, I don’t think you need to invite people into your space when you have love, if they don’t respect who you love or how you fell in love, and how long it took to be in love with someone, 2 years of talking to be comfortable to be loving with someone, and speak simple with someone. I don’t wish to do that with anyone else in the world, it’s a rare opportunity to be close to a person who understands you, its not how you want to feel with your audience, intimacy is not helpful as a writer, it weakens your heart, it exposes you to hurt, it makes people think everyone knows you or everything is about you, and that defeats the purpose of any movement, is not by one person energy or output or being made fun of, and that’s why when you are not being open loving and sharing private information about yourself, people think that you have changed or are not being loving or approachable to your audience, especially if you are getting voices, its not a good condition to be convinced that you are sick on any basis.

I think its by the way you talk people either believe you, respect you, see nothing in you, don’t understand you, writing online is touchy subject, considering all people, identities, story your connected to and health, while people may not respect you, they expect you to respect who is connected to your story, and sometimes that means sacrificing your need to have a life, and be forced to blog online unpaid, while no one talks to you, connects to you, helps you, no one offers you jobs, no one interviews you appropriately in terms of what law school was like with OJ in jail, and how did I perform, and what affected me as a person, connected to a story, with someone in jail, in what way was I pressured in life to respond directly to being known in common to someone, in what way does that make people not take you seriously, when people don’t take you seriously, its because they think they are close to you, that’s not love, that’s not respect, when people make fun of you, who come to know you online, that’s a loss of identity, people are not endless pits of enthusiasm and positivity and love, when you hurt someone, they will change, they can get sick, they can get tired, they will be less open to modeling, video, or sharing about who they like, or talk about their love life, and let less people into their world, that’s being hurt in life.