When negotiating limits fail, is when people fail to feel good by things, when people feel sick by things, and when everything becomes about separating interests or using people as tools for blame, such as all in reference to, or all in condemnation of, while that may bring peace to those in control of themselves, and unable to control those who cause harm to others, that’s not the solution to blame someone who you have no facts, data, words, or pictures to prove that an illness was instilled in a person that was passed to a shooter of gun violence, and blame the theory and practice of writing by one writer, to say that I don’t make sense in place of another system not in words that others are okay by and feel good by associating blame to a human body or identity who they mislabeled as mentally ill or criminal, was wrong to do to me. 

Help others, but help yourself first, the world is a big place, and people will not be affected by you, until they feel like they have a stake in the matter to attack you or blame you or be abusive toward you as though their solution for their anger is to destroy you, take from you or hurt you, it’s a mean world, and now is no safer, but Im not one to back down from a fight, and play dumb, or be oblivious to the peace around me maintain, or disturb people living absent me. A Shorty Award nomination is not for solicitation to garbage or for endorsement for a pathway toward a thinking or a person who is not worth a read, if I were sick and disabled I would not write, if there is something to say that’s important that can fix an otherwise painful situation then that would be my body and mind’s response to trauma and defamation and cruelty. 

In that 25 minutes [1] in Texas, to stop a school shooting, we learned a lot about shootings in general, that when a person is convinced that they are smarter or better than others or feel like taking their anger out on others is the solution to end lives, that person has no understanding or comprehension of the beauty of life, how good life is, what there is to live for in life, what there is to appreciate in life, what there is to love about others, or what there is to live for, that’s a person giving up on a normal life, with a structured life and being taken care of and with access to money and resources for coping, choosing to be mentally ill and causing irreversible damage to the hearts and minds of society and to a location as well as the families and friends of the victims of school shootings and gun violence, who don’t deserve to suffer from the unhappiness and lack of disregard for human life, that’s more than a complex, that’s a sickness occurring overtime untreated that got worse and worse until a person was made to feel good about a series of thinkings in life, that not only do society a disservice but wrongfully become known which affects the future’s knowledge of events in history while reflecting on what works and what does not work toward the comprehension of success rates in life, that’s when upheaval and societal backlash occurs, for what reasons does a person become unstable, and worse yet for society to be mismanaged as being of poor influence to the minds of a school shooter with equal access to all resources online and money, guns is money, education is faith, when a person does not put their faith in education and staying well, its no ones fault when they get sick, and it’s the responsibility of people in that person life, to get that person help, not enable and attitude of defiance in life, irritability, hostility, or negativity, that can be fixed not enable people to feel righted by those thinkings in life, or be given guns to protect themselves from otherwise harmless people innocent people who don’t pose a threat to their livelihood, die. 

So what else did we learn a system of feeling good by influencers to be blamed for not feeling good or upholding an image or connection of interests in life will also fail in the event that someone is harmed be blamed. This was especially true after this school shooting, after a year of writing to Detectives LAPD and GoDaddy and Facebook, none of my requests were honored, there’s no need to technically “photo shoot” a person to look like “photo self” by direction of others at night after 8pm on Trazedone and Geodone only, be put online to wrongfully condemn a person who’s solutions are working for them in life and not bothering anyone, I was running everyday on San Vicente like the cougar lion that ran through my neighborhood on the news, and I was blogging as needed and writing quotes on squares, and I was learning how to vlog and make videos, maybe I wasn’t the prettiest or the most feminine and did not have friends or a job and insecure but that doesn’t mean make executive decisions and lie online about my attitude ability or sexuality in life and mislabel me as fraud. A fraud is someone who cannot intelligently communicate to others in a way to which they will feel good, a fraud is someone who pretends to be nice to you to get money from you and robs you, a fraud is something that looks good on the outside, but that an invested time or energy into that persons business or practice leaves a person empty handed or feeling swindled, a fraud is someone who poses as something they are not, or pretending to be something more powerful than they are. Communicating is not fraud, that’s trying to talk to people in positions of power and influence that’s not the problem fan mail, the system of going by others fails in many respects much like we lost the Titanic, and the _________. When people feel in the right to destroy property or people, those losses cannot be taken back, and that’s the lesson in suffering, either you are thoughtful or trained to not feel good about people who you do not respect or think less of, that’s not an inspiration that is protected in life, that’s a secret in common that communicates for the reinforcement of hurting a person without a person knowing it, by views in common to their computer or to their identity, that’s how a person who is oblivious to open communications between others to reinforce attitudes in life fails.

So that was insulting to be called pervert and fraud online, whether you are using that as a justification for a shooting in Laguna Woods and Texas is the question, in what way did my image or identity or Jewish identity or writings or education be wrongfully promoted to people to capitalize on in life, people who do good or people who do harm, a person who does not have money such as myself or job was misunderstood to not be of value, and the issue is whether if I am ugly and obese or labeled “schizophrenic” is that to make me seem responsible for anothers anger toward me or mistreatment ignored and favored and to punish me medically and be treated as someone who carries a sickness that angers others, that’s the mentality of people who punish, and to make others feel better, say that because this happened to Leslie that this happened here and there, to cause me suffering or suicide, and that’s not fair to me, or to Sydney’s cousin Aaron who passed away, or for my Father who died a painful death suffering due to colon cancer that was not caught in time. At what point do you stop hurting someone, once they are hurt and a permanent disability is caused to them, at what point do you stop, until they sound stupid, or until you hear something you think youre entitled to condemning them for. No ones mental illness including my own is to be used as excuse for another persons mental illness with guns, in what way are we connected in life, by OJ or website or Instagram, if so then instead of hurting me and not taking it to court or police report, please don’t market me as mentally ill to attract mentally ill people or schizophrenics toward me as though Im supposed to help them feel good in life, we all suffer, and most of all people suffer more when you convince people that Im stupid, when I helped or blame me for gun violence in the first place. The system of being nice to men has failed, not only loving, but kind, and generous with my time and replies, they are going by another system, money and beauty unfortunately and that system cannot be helped. Im sorry that because of what happened to me I was blamed or situated in life to suffer as though I did something wrong to him other than discontinue talking past fighting, or be treated like I did something wrong by not having sex, or be treated like I have wrong thoughts that cause illness in others to know me. Im not responsible for gun violence in schools those are ideas trending, and it’s a very dangerous idea to say that Im mentally ill, with a famous Marilyn Manson case re: a song in a body causing mental illness to a kid, and the cause issues to my face and my body miscommunicate me as a scary identity or someone who is strong in a way or gender opposite to their own sex. Those are evil ideas that make people feel good, she is grose she is rejected, she is Jewish she is grose or blame her, she is white she is not black and shes connected to OJ, or she is pretty but she is not pretty, or she is pretty and when pretty her face gets ugly by voices, to miscommunicate that I am two people one that is pretty and one that is ugly and get voices, to make me not like me so that I hit my head so that you can be mean to me like I hurt a pretty version of me, and attack me when Im not pretty as though that’s the identity of the person who does not like pretty or is gay, I think that’s confusing for your face and for your body to change connected to people, Im not racist or an intellectual, I listen to radio music watch theater movies, and wear plain clothes. So this is what motivates technology to not help, sure they can add emoticons to let me know we like you, but at the end of the day, if I am treated as two people I am not to illustrate what you think a case is about abuse, dumping, and murder, then please do not use me as example of a person to not care about or who wants attention or is hitting their head for attention, its when Im in pain and that pain does not stop, what is the purpose, until I die or commit suicide, off speak, or sound stupid, I can be all of those things but once I am gone, then you are all on your own, then what will you do for prevention, blame me give me a short life call me schizophrenic and wrongfully accuse me of being hurtful or causing stupid. What is the solution for peoples anger suffering, losses, death, it seems like in defiance of shootings in Laguna Woods and Texas, pain and suffering, death, and hospitalizations was caused to my family, and I got COVID, so in what way does healing peoples minds take priority to the risk that is imposed to people when people of importance get sick, how important is it to spread rumor hurt business or readership by wrongfully claiming that Im mentally ill or was sick toward you. I am myself I will always have my problems and beliefs, none of it secret, Im not schizophrenic. I have disability which gets treated and when people don’t like me they put my head and my body to sleep so that I have to stay home and cannot work or function or write and that is not fair to me.

Reference:

[1] https://www.latimes.com/nation/la-na-texas-shooting-investigation-20180521-story.html