What does going to court represent, it represents that when you are not doing well, its how things start to go right for you in life, whether you are in the wrong or someone else, it’s the only dose of reality that sometimes wakes up or makes certain that there is acknowledgement of a problem and that something is being done to address that problem. So what has improved since I was last here, I was able to get a job and engage in loving and social relationships and got to share that joy and presence with others online and at Laker Games, sit well among others and be present without the discomfort of being known for any reason made to feel uncomfortable or not proud of myself. Everyone has the responsibility to care for themselves so in the event that you are not made to feel well, you have that opportunity to get well on your own so that you can go back out into the world and be social and date again, and maybe that will happen for you and sometimes it will be difficult, but its not okay to prevent opportunities for living life because you do not think that someone deserves a chance of living life. Going to law school is a sacrifice of your time, its not for political purposes that you go and challenge yourself and come out a better person. With challenge and hurt comes demoralization, and you will only learn that once you have lost your battle with mental health issues or others, which is why its important not to have problems with people, or else you get sick trying to explain yourself to which no one understands why you are not well now, with what you have or why you were not well then with what you have, I think you get what you deserve in life, and the sad fact about life is that it wont matter who with that will keep you well, if you are not viewed as someone who is well, and that’s why its important to stay well so that you can talk to people who are doing well and want to make a positive difference in the world. No one wants to be made a negative example of, not by connection or a knowing of, or by interaction be brought down in life by the indecision or lack of coordination or disorganization of anyone, I am someone who is detail oriented, who means well, and keeps to myself, so to be declared as mentally ill because I care or because I have been affected, its not okay to go through my things or to treat me like Im not a positive person, or someone who when they are doing well, have never lived a life that I cant bring another person into, let alone child. So its painful for me to be tested and treated for self-harm or suicide and for anyone to make it about others when its about me staying well and not understanding the reasons for me getting sick. And no its not my fault all the time, and like most people who get to drink be loving and flirt, they don’t get psychoanalyzed or judged about it and treated as stupid for who they are when they are with people, I don’t think that that means that you are stupid.