Give people time to get well, in the time since leaving law school and visiting the US Supreme Court, I had my entire future in front of me, while in tote a huge loss that hurt my core, not finishing my JD after getting sick Spring 2011 dumped during finals, after calling for reassurance or encouragement my nervousness or instability or lack of confidence after having sex in a monogamous relationship feeling tired and underperforming in law school was then viewed as reason to not date me, which hurt because I did not want to be in a monogamous relationship to begin with because the last time I tried for marriage things did not work out and I ended up in the hospital, life is incredibly stressful and to focus on one thing at a time that is what I wanted to invest my energy and commitment to school, my education, not waiting for a person to see me or visit them connected to someone who then turns around and is not available or busy or cannot see me or who misunderstands my connection or nervousness, as mental illness, and its upon not feeling well or not doing well that you get insulted, let go, and it then becomes your responsibility to put yourself together again, that is when my depression started, feeling tired and not functioning, could not memorize, and I started law school 3^rdin my class, able to learn and outline and flashcard on my own and tackle essays in a grade A fashion Torts and Criminal Law, As on both essays in both classes, and in Advanced Legal Writing. Success does not always work in twos, we were a successful couple we could have gotten married but I got sick and when you get sick its hard to take care of one another or make commitments future if life is not happening for you in life, you can either choose to stay or to be alone, and I decided to be alone, and he did fine without me, and forgave my sickness, upset at times, visited me over the years, but we were unable to reconcile our relationship at a later date, because I then got sick again 2020 when we last saw eachother, and that was upsetting for me, sometimes people cant fix you and sometimes you are not well enough to be fixed by people, so although I am now trying to present as life coach, with more credentials that others counselors online, and writing experience online in a public way read not spoken in private, I am again not physically and mentally strong enough to cater to the interests of others, that’s what sickness does to you, you will have difficulty working, dating, taking care of yourself or others, and for whatever reasons, work on yourself until you get well again. What can be learned from me getting hurt online is that although its not a big deal to others I was traumatized, punished, it destroyed my relationships, and I got voices, and no one helped me I had to get the website taken down on my own as it got worse and worse out in the open with a link to Facebook, and although the site itself seems harmless or not hurtful to someone who doesn’t like me, it was physically harmful to me and to my health and caused me severe distress and mental suffering and disability, why? Because at 27 posing nude for someone who has had sex for you is for their viewing pleasure, it’s not to become a target or to become famous, and interest in exposure means that I am physically strong enough to be hit with a pressure of viewership in the millions that I can sustain which is a power divested in a human being over time to which they become physically strong enough and trained to function under the pressure of being known or watched and that takes time, luckily I have written so much over the past ten years that even if I am shocked disabled and cant speak well, I still managed to function through writing, so what was bipolar initially upsets internal and inability to get jobs, or maintain a relationship, later worsened in a public way to shock my body with the force of 8 million people who at random could attack me and disrespect me with a public viewing of my body to view me as trash and to think of themselves as better than me. Im not for making people feel good about themselves by causing me suffering, and Im not for imitation or influence past the point of being harmed, that’s putting my body and mind in physical pain and suffering so that someone who connects to me does not feel good, or worries, or doesn’t feel confident by me, that’s when no matter what you sound like matters, therefore the power in my work is not in the power that Im able to give to others, it would be a story of (1) forewarning (2) boundaries in discussions (3) defenses and explanations (4) rehabilitate my character (5) show a good example of someone who works through disability and problems my diagnosis is not for (5) explaining others (6) defending others (7) helping others who are schizophrenic to or injured or harassed in the event that someone with the same diagnosis causes harm to others blamed (7) is not permission to ignore me or reject me or treat me as problematic or bad luck to disorient me or cause me confusion or voices in alignment to that rejection of me be reinforced in the form of bullying (8) and 8 my condition at no time entitles or offers for free my work or my history records private not unless I die all information and writings are hereby owned by the US Supreme Court, and my writing is not for money unless I write a book, I make no money by traffic, I collect no data on following, I send no emails to anyone, I ask no one for help, I don’t pay for social media services or take any courses on marketing, and my diagnosis does not mean to treat others in my audience as to be communicated to in spite of me speaking to talk overhead about me as though I cannot tell and help them by publicly referencing me in a way that I cannot tell to situate me worse off in lfie or make any conclusions about my fate, history, ability, treat as trash or devalue my work, my life, my progress, so that I don’t matter to defend people who know me in common as though I would attack or try to change what people feel good by. You cannot change that fact that people will not like you in common and feel good in common but not feel good by you, that is what happens when you talk about people in common and do not talk to someone and ignore them, in my case schizophernia was caused to me, whereby I was not allowed to feel good in common to others noticing things and be viewed as having recognized and feeling special too by all the little things in life, therefore I was wrongfully treated as not apart of on the basis of someone seeking to not insult me or hurt me so that no one cares about me or respects me and that sets me up to get hurt or attacked in life, if I look like a person who is overweight and not pretty not in my nice clothes or $200 worth of Victoria Secret allowed to wear, and subjected to ridicule for my body shape and what my breast butt and vagina look like and face to determine my worth and start the clock for my life expectancy upon being physically shocked by posting something not in my control that was made to be worse and worse and false and false until my head is gone and everytime I get hurt in the head I cannot think I cannont function I cannot make progress, I cannot date, it takes me a long time to get help, everything takes a longtime to get done, and everyone is busy and has energy for other things and no one treats my issues as emergency, that’s going by a system of treating someone as though they don’t help and treating the man as healthy and treating me as disease, I was smart well spoken and thoughtful and made content individually I did not not take grose photos or write anything to shock anyone or say anything not true everythiung that I write is true and although it may be true to me and happened to me and hurts the cool thing about life is that it doesn’t matter to you and you are not affected by it that is because Im a good person and I don’t get angry, I don’t get upset, and if I say stop and hit my head, that’s to make voices who hate me feel better to see me physically in real life get beat up punching my head, so they recognize that I worked my fucking hardest to fix my face and my body and like anyone who doesn’t give a fuck about themselves can give up in life and get fat and not try and its not fair to me, to turn my body and face into crap and my mind to garbage fighting just to assert your wealth or knowledge power condemn my outlook and life expectancy.