Delusion, what are the signs of disability, and what are the signs of delusion, I don’t agree that based on what you sound like or look like, or based on slowness should be judged as abusing drugs, I don’t think that my mental health and speed and accuracy in coming to understand myself reflects that I am a drug abuser, is not the cause of delusion, unfortunately, I am prescribed meds for a learning disability. [1] Sometimes in marginalizing people as such, you can wind up causing conditions to people, who think absent “delusions” or illogical thoughts. An illogical thought would be thinking people are doing things they are not, thinking people are communicating to you, or thinking that what people think is controlling you or affecting you. I think whatever my speed and disability is in life that my own business, I was known in high school as someone who is chill and even tempered, that’s what I was known for, friends with everyone. So this later diagnosis of a condition of behaving or sounding in a way that is illogical, doesn’t make sense to me why I would be used as an example of someone with out there thoughts, I think it’s the belief that Im out there, or the belief that my disability is because of my disability meds, is what the problem is, the pressure to be a certain way in order to be accepted, and the pressure to be comfortable around people in a loving way or a team spirited way. I think its okay to be uptight and on edge, that doesn’t mean that I snap or have a temper, that means I like to be alone, and need time to rest and recharge, and don’t prefer to be around people when Im not feeling well. I think I accomplished a lot in life, going to law school, working, and building a blog, all my logic and beliefs are grounded in the education that I was provided with, not a free reader, so that’s whats being misconstrued about temperament, I think that people automatically blame medications for peoples thinking, I think being put on anti-psychotics made me slow and stupid, and affected my speech and tone, it caused me obesity, and sleepiness, and sedentary, in bed all day, and I don’t think that the anti-psychotics help with the frustration or the delay and the wasted years of my life, not being able to function and excel in life, I think that what people think of mental health issues, is too often compared to addicts with short tempers who are unhappy about life, and have difficulty succeeding in life, I dont think that its okay to classify and compare people who have mental health delusions, to drug addicts who abuse drugs and have a mental deficit that is caused by them self harming and giving up in life and injuring their own brain. So Im not sure that its very nice to call a Jewish woman and law student “delusional” because she is a writer, and grew up at OJ’s house, and shared her story, does not mean my thoughts aren’t real, or that my story isn’t true, and doesn’t mean that I think Im important, I made myself important to me, and because I am important to me, I am important to others, and to many online as a writer, regardless of what any definition is forced to misdescribe or compare me, as someone who is “delusional” because you expect people to read and to write fast and to feel good. -That’s all I have to say, unfortunately for me, disability continues and so does insult and there is nothing that I can do about it, and not sure what’s the point of sharing if no one is talking to me, no one is helping me, no one will advise me, and no one can understand me. Why am I not allowed to live life, work, have friends, and date, why is everyone on edge when I go out to the bar and am around people, what are you expecting of me, to be bullied or rejected or mentally ill in public, thats not who I am, I dont think people belong reading my blog, if you dont think I belong places, then please reject yourselves from reading, or analyzing my content, is not for your education, or to help you understand your own patients in life, focus on them. I think this type of viewpoint, causing alienation, isolation, ignoring people, and choosing people who are upbeat photogenic, and have nice faces, and wrongfully reject people who are not warm toward others, to themselves, do not like to be bothered, shy, and dont prefer being exposed sexually, or be made to look at for judgment, I think attracting wrong attention by diagnosis, causes people to look at me as though I have traits or a face that fits a definition, and you know what, if no one in therapy or psychiatry can help me (it’s hard to find doctors, attend appointments, submit to treatments, changes, and be patient improve and have to switch care go to different hospitals different doctors and be refused meds I need to think function it’s so hard to find doctors willing to prescribe both) then I dont have to take the meds (was thinking about weening off anti-psychotics this month to avoid long term disability a therapist once recommend to me) to stop me from living life to my fullest potential, and continue to be delayed in life, so that my personality and femininity is suppressed within, so that I bear traits and demeanor molded and expected by a definition is not a script of my life.

I wore Louboutins (2008) to a Birthday Party in Vegas where Dita Von Teese performed in a martini glass. And a dress from Neimans.

I’m back to dating the guy who took me. ❤️

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[1] delusion tips to recpver for – Search (bing.com)