I may be the best example of someone who tries really hard, improves, takes meds, has been in psychiatry for years, explored writing famously and now building successful websites, with a world wide audience, and a growing following in the US, and an official Instagram with followers now. But life…

I lost data, after the first time I opened up is when my website was being hacked and noticed my drafts and published posts were being changed and duplicated without my permission, and moved, as a result, of this happening to me, I decided to delete all 36 posts written…

When I sense anger I don’t think Im imaging the issues wrong, or getting things mixed up, no matter what Im in court for, if my goals are to try for things in life Im determined to have like a relationship or a marriage, a successful blog, maybe a child,…

If your losing it’s only important to keep track of why your losing especially when it comes to voices not continue to lose on issues not allowed to improve defend yourself against let any issue fly under the radar not especially in terms of losses. Sacrifice wins in life or…

Life isnt a rush, there is only so many ways you can be hurt in life, face devastation, be humiliated, teamed up on, misunderstood, be in court before things are too much or become difficult, and I can’t say that I ever intended to live a lesser life, or have…

Things don’t get better by diagnosis, look how much has gone wrong for me in life, since being misdiagnosed, and don’t now think as things get worse for me, giving up is not untimely, or appropriate, to discontinue some discussions, or allow there to be peace in terms of what…

I think when you fight a person, and call it “schizophrenia” that takes away from who I am as a person and causes others to question if I know whats wrong with me or can accept whats wrong with me or what a definition says is wrong with me. I…

I think the point of being hurt in life is to teach you your own strength and any lesson on being exposed to pain in life is not usually something you ask for in life or deserve. I don’t think that being hurt enables you to catch up with life…

Whats different about today compared to yesterday, is peace talks ended with an ex pen pal, who is convinced along with voices or hurtful terms, that a fan site isn’t a big deal, or something up, not urgent to be taken down, or an exposure of me or my family,…

After working hard for years to graduate and be able to apply and be hired in a paid position in the legal field, it’s only fitting that I defend myself and the appropriateness and the timing of having such good fortune in life, as being well deserved, in spite of…

Learn to accept silence as your teacher. If there is one thing I have learned about how to help in crisis, it would be to focus on yourself, and by focusing on yourself and being productive, organized, vocal, and by communicating fairly and appropriately, you save others from having to…

There are multiple ways to move forward. Talking about the past shouldn’t be a daunting task but it can be. There isn’t one story of heroism that everyone needs to adapt to. There’s not one social circle closer to the center of anything in life that you can’t find and…

Thank you for your patience as I work on coming back center. I had a good therapy session this week. Working on opening up to my audience and sharing very personal private stories near and dear to my heart. Pieces of my life I went through and like all people…

I’m doing my best I’m sorry my life is so challenging so misunderstood get hurt easily continue to say words or treat me as not loving hardworking respect alone time as figuring solution pricing I’m not mentally I’ll earn trust back not bother anyone can afford another lawsuit not talk…

Instead of questioning how I was or who I was before being exposed let’s focus on why a website is discontinued or what makes it inappropriate to blog and look like something else online at the same time. I never tried to defend hurtful terms I’m glad I survived no…

Because no one let me suffer in silence it was not okay to be on meds or stuck in bed the quality of life or constant crying or anorexia was probably someone who tried hard who is alone being nice may have worried others punished visited supported who’s cat died…

I was put on a 5150 hold they prescribed me vyvanse twice at one hospital and at another knowing both diagnoses functioned attended groups did sudoku not allowed to watch tv or follow the war. Because I got a heart exam and waiting for results sent to my attending psychiatrist…

It took me 4 years dealing with something in private to get a job be present spend time with family be forgiven lose the privilege the blog, make amends, date again, stop dating due to voices, text with replies text saying things wrong be supported, allowed to messaged with court…

Here forward: If I say not feeling well taking a writing break or send a medical update under personal update please don’t be offended by breaks I clearly am working hard to make up for anything you think is my fault. I’m sorry. -I can be serious until things are…

It’s not okay to keep giving me voices and call me delusional if you can’t accept 20 years of sobriety never drinking, can’t forgive going out alone 3 times and seeing 1 fight, or learn why I should stay home view life in the positive I’m not choosing to be…

The solution is to keep working on myself, attend therapy, put book writing on hold, try to document face changes take selfies, work toward being employable, do my best with the life I’ve been given to get along with everyone not get into fights, not lose fights, speak proper, not…

If I go on a 3 day bender writing non stop for days my face out as prescribed goes through several stages and changes before my face appears proper today in makeup just to let you know for scientific sake what’s real or delusion or how my face is made…

I’m going to stop “working in public” instead of emails clearly that system worked better. I think everyone’s been through a lot feelings wise like I’m said is waiting for solution reassurance and if day to day help getting going doesn’t have the patience for what’s discussed in therapy or…

I’m working hard for my peace. Maybe my Twitter saves were taken for granted. It shouldn’t matter what 2020 was like or how 2024 is judged. I know where I was how hard I worked what disability was like working and getting a paid job. All that matters is that…

Distinguishing fault. Peace and wellness. Isn’t making fun of what being alone working hard being bothered asked for things or judge a timeline of getting sick or who’s fault that is question why I need to be left alone or question what treatment means to anyone pushing me or supporting…

Battling voices …. A fight for peace. Push yourself to be a better person you don’t have to be perfect. If there’s one thing I’ve learned in AA it is to work hard, forgive yourself, do what you need to do (get a court card signed), stay sober, in order…

(1) Was not writing consistently everyday. (2) Had difficulty messaging and reflecting on bullying without reliving trauma or fight. (3) A person let back into my life I was told to block not hurting me who believed in me said everything nice supported but didn’t stay well. (4) Sharing is…

I’m writing two books one unpublished I need to rewrite sharing quotes from over the years and life advice hopefully sans court issues I’ve been writing much longer than any legal problems or bullying or voices. It was recommended to talk about schizophrenia and given a list of suggestions for…

The main lesson at a time like this, is to not let anyone affect you. My goal is to do my best and stay positive, and not draw too much attention to this type of argument in life, over who loves who or who is helping who, I have never…

My blood pressure today is low I’m under a lot of stress right now doing my best. I did my best to reconcile with this person however he continues to ask for photos then expose me and I really don’t have the time and energy to fight with this person.…

I’m reading a book by Melody Beattie called Journey to the Heart. It’s a daily meditation book, I just started reading January 1 to hopefully September, then go day by day. She reminds us to “go on your own journey. Don’t let others hold you back, don’t hold them back.…

After 7 months of treatment, and taken off adderrall, I am again battling relapse (alcohol), taken off adderrall for the week, and doing my best to discontinue drinking when things are “too much” and focus on the road ahead and my writing. In the meantime Im going through something personal…

We go through life, and sometimes we are reminded of things in life, sometimes we notice things later as things become more clear, and sometimes we get carried away in how everything is connected that we lose sight of a common purpose in life, and this is what I think…

Staying well is incredibly difficult when you are feeling triggered or symptomatic. My best advice would be to stay positive. I’ve noticed that in times of difficulty Im either reaching out to get help, or feeling stuck and decide to shut myself off from the world, and that ends up…

I’m the kind of person who is not allowed to love, be social, express themselves in photos, be photo’d in a bikini or sexy clothing, or be prescribed a medication I need to function. Life isn’t about aging and being too old for marriage, dating, or give birth be viewed…

In life, if you ever experience mental health issues, and/or hospitalized, you are just so thankful to get better, that it really is never about where you are or how you are treated, in times of not feeling well, I don’t think you are ever concerned with how things look…

I’ve never not tried to learn tech or apply to coding school someone who has failed to comprehend what privacy is for or questions communications with the government, as all eyes on me, or no eyes on me preferential in order to perform in life and do well. I think…

It’s very easy to get hurt in life, when there is disagreement directed toward you, whether it’s a symptom, or a condition you experience that tells you whats of issue, or could be going wrong for you. I don’t think anyone ignores themselves, or dislikes themselves. I think we all…

Focus on a positive stimulus, when you are positive, and good spirited and want things to turn out well for others, able to be happy for others, proud of others, influence positive changes to be made, pave way for greater acceptances, it will be the positives that will be weighed…

Why is there no inner circle? Because if I keep getting hurt and keep getting head injuries or mental health issues as a result of being offended online, without repercussion, then there will be no inner circle, based on trying to hurt me, and hurt everyone who loves me and…

Being viewed in the positive is something that you earn in life, both privately and publicly. What people don’t accept about you in life, such as who I like or love Todd Spitzer, continues to be considered a delusion to love someone or like someone who on paper is viewed…

Everybody wants to be apart of the solution and to have their input be valued by me and interpreted in the positive. I don’t think that “my side” in life is taking away from other people preserving their innocence, or reading to battle me, change me, or force a side…

When no one sees your side, this is a way of alienating people, and isolating people in life, to get them to believe that everyone else is normal and they are not, or everyone else is related to and they are not, or everyone else is not punished, and they…

After much delay since August 26, my cloudflare numbers are starting to go up, following writing 3 posts, and plan on continuing to grow my blog again, and lucky to be given a second chance to grow my website and my following, in spite of delays and public discussion of…

It may not be what I think that matters, but that doesn’t mean that what I have to say about life, is suddenly untrue or not helpful, as declared by another via insult privately or publicly. I consider anyone who turns on me, or considers voices to mean that parts…

How you handle controversy says a lot about you. I think sometimes mental health gets judged in the negative in the event that you have to express a grievance, or frustration, or complaint, or trying to describe a fight toward you or someone being combative toward you. I think taking…

I’m sorry I wasn’t feeling well for three days, going through something private, with someone who was fighting me, but things are better now. I’m sure I tried to discuss it online in a way that classically makes me look bad and doesn’t help. I think taking a writing break…

It’s always okay to pause, start over, go lightly in life, things can be too much you can experience frustration or repetition of illness or self harm and voices but I’ve never lied to anyone about what self harm is instead of suicide or what not feeling good meant to…

Punishment to me in my brief experiences being punished, if you don’t include hospitalizations or mental health issues, is a difficult experience in life, and for the first time in your life, you are made to not be proud of yourself, and that scary jitteriness of being locked up and…

The last time I applied for jobs I got interviews, many interviews. This time applying for jobs I’ve received no replies. Which makes me wonder what has changed about since leaving my last job. I just have to do my best and stay positive at least I’m honest about my…

To me anger is a dangerous subject if mentioned causes much disagreement towards me questioning my perspectives on life, sexuality, trust I have had an all positive relationship history and I am too adjusting to circumstances as they are today and health expectations, fitness, and attractiveness. Being popular online is…

You experience mental health issues you disclose various treatments and open about hospitalizations it’s an experience you improve but are not immune to going back to the hospital and no health you have the energy to gamble with. I will never be street and that doesn’t mean I’m not cool…

When you’re head hurts sometimes it’s a lesson, sometimes it’s God protecting you, it’s usually not anyone you can accuse of being hurtful, there are many smart ways to view life if you simply aren’t affected or hurt by things easily the stronger you’ll be most people forget negative judgments…

I need to take my blood pressure everyday write it down and once my blood pressure is low enough then meet her again in 2 weeks she is willing to prescribe me adderrall based on telling her exactly what I’m going through. And 3 doctors now have told me to…

The Radio is back as consolation for everyone’s worry recently wondering what’s going on what’s different its that I’ve been offline for a few weeks, I had attended therapy improving everything going smoothly until I got a secondary opinion and because of a wrongful diagnosis I am being treated as…

The best way to address the seriousness of what is expected of me now, would be to describe how demoralizing it is to be diagnosed as schizophrenic, and in what way that becomes a new and permanent lesson on mental health, when it stops being about you, and becomes about…

I’m not giving up in spite of difficulty I never said blogging was easy or not a huge responsibility or ever not believe in my stats I think right now I just need to focus on my health, not take risks with discussion, continue to keep to myself not bother…

To know with certainty that you are doing well, and will continue to do well, will always go by the system of priorities given to you as a person who is being helped, and it will never stop being your responsibility to listen and stay well. In the end to…

No one is immune to the pains that worry bring, awaiting to hear back or see results, be reassured, put at ease, informed, or disappointed. Sometimes it feels like disappointment can turn into this unnerving weighted pressure on your head, that keeps getting worse and worse, upon delay or miscommunication.…

One Thing at a Time When I look back on my journey through mental health, there’s never a moment when I wish things would have turned out differently. Having a mental health issue whether identified by another or yourself, can sometimes occur in the form of a rude awakening, simply…