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Difficult Periods …

This is a difficult period in time, working with disability, I was surprised that I was still able to research and write motions, and come up with headings, and issues to argue on my own. My goal is to complete work with few errors, and be competent and continue to work independently. I think I’ve participated in enough internships to feel comfortable in any legal …

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I Just Found Out …

I just found out that I got nominated for a Shorty Award in Best Special Project! The Shorty Awards honors the best of social media and digital, this is not my first time applying. When I started blogging I applied 2016 and was nominated for Best Integrated Campaign, at the time I did not have as much experience as I do now blogging and publishing …

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blogging tips

What is REBT? …

I just completed a life coach certificate in REBT on Udemy, following completion of a certificate in CBT which is a component of REBT. So what is REBT? It stands for “Rational Emotive Behavior Theory,” and for someone like me, distinguishing between voices, my own, versus an auditory delusion, this seemed helpful for at least me to begin with, and Im sure to others through …

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What I’ve Been Up To …

Originally posted 09-29-22. First off, Im sorry there was a provocative fan site. I now realize that whats okay in private, can cause discomfort if put in public, and I would never do that to myself, if it meant I can’t work, I just graduated, so I was hoping for my life to begin again, to be independent, not disabled, not with legal problems, not …

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When Things Aren’t Good Enough …

For example: My Campaign: “mymollydoll” on mymollydoll.com lesliefischman.com and #tags. Whenever you create an idea in your mind, it’s to make things work in your mind, and sometimes our ideas bring us closer to our goals, and sometimes we have to make amendments to the rules or ideas we set for ourselves moving forward. Anytime your in a crunch, all the more necessary it becomes …

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beingpositive, focus

Holding Still …

We’ve all been there those moments when you hold still waiting for a negative feeling or series of thoughts to leave your body, and sometimes holding still doesn’t work. We’ve tried meditation, we’ve tried writing, we’ve tried physical activity. How can we learn to just let go when the feelings arising from a given event or exposures is causing chaos to our minds. According to …

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teamwork, wellness, womens issues

Where You Are in Life, You Deserve to Be …

Where you are in life you deserve to be. Maybe it’s that people don’t think that I deserve to be a successful writer and blogger online, with the potential to publish a book for a fee, or work as a trained life coach for a fee, at some point in the future. It probably has to do with who my best friend was growing up, …

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blogging, wrongful death

Reply to: “Facebook Community Standards” Defenses

Facebook Community Standards Defenses: Leslie Fischman: I don’t understand why my Instagram pages were marked as “against community standards” once my blog posts were being distributed by Blogpros, I was not hashtagging, or speaking directly on the platform, I was only blogging from my website and discussing very painful issues in terms of what I have or have not done wrong, and for my feelings …

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Who Represents Who?

Originally posted 09-24-22. I used to actually say out loud “If you don’t like my Country then get the F out.” That’s how much I love my Country. Then there are parts of you misrepresented by others, and I don’t think that I’ve ever been that way to my family and friends. Sure it’s uncomfortable for nude photos of you to be online, but I …

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celebrity

Relax and Kickback …

If this were a group assignment, then I would be the editor, like I was in college, or in Law School for that matter “Can I see your contracts outline,” “sure” … big mistake. We are in the 4th month of recovery from the Laguna Woods shooting (May 15, 2022) [1], and the School Shooting in Uvalde County (May 24, 2022) [2], and recently locally there …

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makeup, modeling, selfie

We All Have a Dark Side …

Ever wonder about that side of you that gets upset, or winds up in pain, feels a splash of jealously every now & then, or defiant to criticism, yeah that side of you that’s tough, that doesn’t put up with moody people, that rolls their eyes in the face of embarrassment, that keeps their chin up, yeah that side, the one who’s confident that doesn’t …

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It’s Worth the Wait …

Relationships can be challenging. You can be everything to someone or you could be nothing. Who are you to you? Reinforce the things you like about yourself, remind yourself of what you’re grateful for. It’s worth the wait, don’t rush into anything you’re not ready for. Relationships can be a lot of work, just make sure to invest in those you feel good about being …

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When Respect Returns …

One day everything will settle, things will be good enough, and everyone will have had the opportunity to go backwards in life as many times as needed until they assemble the perfect solution to their discord there are always things to blame in life for your feelings, unfortunately the past had no better path in life to be avoided. There’s nothing cold about right now, …

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medical care or legal care?

What’s Done is Done …

There’s one thing you can’t rely on a worse condition to explain or rationalize what has been there’s bound to be pieces missing. Getting docked points for accuracy and breadth is about what you know and speak of or leave out there will always be higher bases for thinking in the positive. Seems like a nightmare occurs upon doing well either you’ve punished yourself or …

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abuse, activism

Missing Out in Life …

I never considered myself anti-social growing up and not in law school, but to accommodate my then boyfriend, who preferred that I did not hang out with people, trying to convince me that Im better than that, same with medical treatments, told to ignore who is harming me, not make a big deal out of it, including my Attorney, who is not a fan of …

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Filing a Formal Complaint …

Re: mymollydollfan.com. I have copyright to term “mymollydoll” created by me 2013. Because he used my pen name to attract attention to his website to make false claims about me accusing me of being something I’m not and caused me to get voices and hit my head tormented for over 3 years. -I was sent to a psychiatrist to treat a condition called “schizophrenia” caused …

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#reality, #rulesofthegame, #stopbullying

Quality Bites …

I’m sure Im not first to this battle in the face of negative opinion to a woman who shares her mind. Im not the first woman to share her mind and be criticized. We were not all made to smile and wave, and speak less, and when the times get tough, a more positive influence that is accepting of all is preferred to any mind …

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#wrongfuldeath #wrongfultermination #mylifemystory #idontneedyoutospokepersonANYissues #idontneedyoutocommunicateforme #itsyourlossnotmine

Why I do not think I’m schizophrenic … 17M traffic once

Originally posted 09-17-22. Good News, can still put together a research paper and understand laws and how to apply what I learn to issues specific to this case fairly. Here please read this: “Writing Sample” By: Leslie A. Fischman mymollydoll w/copyright  21 total views

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Not a Fun Feeling …

Right now is not a fun feeling, not with shootings nearby where I reside home and at work, and don’t think that in behavior, medications distributed daily monitored by my Mom since 2017, should give the reassurance that my feelings and behaviors are completely mental health related as to “voices.” Not a losing team in life taking medication, and the medications I take are not …

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abuse, beingpositive, blogging

In Plain Sight …

There’s nothing in life that you can’t learn for yourself that can only be taught by another. Relying too much on others to live life to talk about life, does not allow you to have the confidence to experience life for yourself, without fear and with compassion for your learning curves in life. Solutions are stated and perspectives hopefully to reduce the number of negative …

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beingpositive, personal update

Personal Update …

Taking a break from #socialmedia for a few days to focus on going back to work tomorrow I have an interview tomorrow. Not to make things urgent or wrong with my #socialmedia -I think discussing broken relationships or anything medical cannot be explained well from me but I’m sure there is plenty of explanation from them concerning what I sound like and look like was …

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blogging

What is a Life Force? …

In different periods in life, you will have different needs, and more or less time for discussing things that you do not feel need discussion. In times of need its important to be heard and to be supported, if you have friends they will be sure to reinforce that you are a good person, worthy of staying well, and don’t view you as someone struggling …

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beingpositive

Find Your Calm …

Scrolling through pictures today found a top I haven’t worn in awhile, it becomes a game of “find it” thereafter, searching every box, folding every article of clothing in my room, and sorting, and by the end I’ve searched everything twice and by the end the third search of what’s hanging found it, what I initially thought it was. Good news is my whole room …

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entertainment, negative judgment

What is Stupidity? …

When it comes to feeling good, no matter how it occurs, you must be doing something well, either mentally or physically, not worried about outside pressures, in your own skin, being yourself, and able, competent. That’s feeling good in my mind. It’s when nothing bothers you and you can exist, without interference from other people or thoughts, in your zone of focus.  I think it’s …

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psychiatry

Rescinded Care …

Planning ahead gives you confidence and direction in life. [1] So what should we do when we lose inspiration? I was thinking about this today, how difficult it is for some to hear what they want or need to hear and how easily our feelings are hurt these days. This is how talking yourself through your own problems in life helps, like my Quotes blog …

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negative judgment, personal statement

What is Success? …

I was lucky enough to hear of Todd Spitzer’s name on NBC before driving to a Treatment Facility for Mental Health issues (it’s dual diagnosis and also a Rehab) I went to a house instead of UCLA because they did not have any bed’s available. I usually go to the hospital when I’m not feeling well and that’s the suggested course of action, to put …

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activism, blogging, news

Say No More … Remember When

Say no more … remember the days when we used to fret over the smallest details, blaming one another, in defense hurting one another, without remorse, that combative atmosphere creatively seems to have dwindled and waned over time, and I’d like to think it’s because we grew and are much bigger within, not the innocent bystanders we once were. That’s having agency in life. It …

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The Role that Personal Empowerment Plays On Prevention as a Whole …

What does a focus on mental health teach you, it’s not just to get your mind off others things to be told to focus on yourself but it serves a purpose for preparing you in advance in case things come up to not be affected by. The more in control you are of your own emotions the less loss of control you’ll feel in the …

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It’s Just a Bad Day …

Eventually we come to our senses and realize that it’s just a bad day, maybe the morning after being upset or anxious, or after a bad interaction or demonstration of self or thinking, and that’s okay, we are allowed to have bad days, when things are just not right, and have lost our sense of peace. For someone with mental health issues, it can be …

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blogging, body image, depression, dysmorphia

Feeling Misunderstood …

Something psychiatry can’t help you with is how you look or what people think of you, it’s the reverse feeling of empowerment to be situated worse off in life or convinced that you have a debilitating disease that cannot be overcome. It doesn’t make sense to me how I can write and do well through blogging, when I speak well not when I write in …

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advocacy, book

What’s Working …

Before you question the positives and start gaslighting [1] and blaming or drawing negative attentions toward others, focus on your confidence, that’s a gift that no one can take away from you, whether you think another is wrong, whether you think what you’re doing is right, or whether you believe your actions will carry conversations in the right direction, in times like these my diplomatic …

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progress, teamwork

Once You’re Done …

In the aftermath of any battle, we may find ourselves picking up the pieces and reflecting on what has transpired. It may be hard to remove things from memory but there are ways to overcome your anguish, and finally let your defensive walls down again. It can be stressful keeping up walls, and find your happy medium. There are ways, to “take steps to repair …

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advice, affirmations

Let’s Clean House … Where to Start

One of the best feelings about feeling good, is having your sense of predictability back, able to read yourself, and see clear. It seems like we lose the back of our minds when emotions are heightened and tensions are running rampant with negative thoughts and feelings about ourselves and where we see ourselves at the present. So how do we get there? For anyone in …

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abuse, advocacy, affirmations

How to Let Things Go Post Trauma … #stopschoolshootings

One of the first things I learned about myself moving forward is about being eligible to work for any type of victim services, so that was a good point Greg Gutfield, that it would be ridiculous to have someone like “OJ do victim services.” Whether I relate to that or am offended by that as a woman, or by the charcter of my relationships with …

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attitude, looking bad, looking good, modeling, personal story, self-love, style, thoughts

The Most Tiring Aspect (re-blogged) …

Originally Published 08-13-22 The most tiring aspect of being a blogger and becoming known is the limitations that others have with respect to your health, past, or acceptance for you, not seeing what others see in you, in terms of what it is you do well and a thorough job of ensuring, the confidences of others. Whenever things are too much for someone I think, …

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abuse

#enoughsaid (re-blogged)

Originally Published 06-23-22 To be written at #laxcourthouse protesting a recent situation being harassed by someone pretending to be #toddspitzer and a publicist I don’t need love from random people who are important in other worlds. I’ve had a good life and met wonderful people. I don’t need to be exposed made to look stupid and be made fun of for being half Asian and …

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Not Handling Things Well … (re-blogged)

Originally Published 08-14-22 Not handling things well today, it seems like things can be going well and things can still not turn out right, not with your haters, not with your followers, there always seems to be a dumbfounded wonder over my health, even when Im doing my best. We’re not perfect. Which makes me wonder what is expected of you. When I started out …

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Right Now … (re-blogged)

Originally Published 07-13-22 Right now things are uncomfortable, things are time consuming, things are difficult, and everyone is trying to put together a picture of what is occurring and why, as well as hear from others to determine how things are happening and why, this is why we have the news, to hear testimony and opinions from selected speakers, things are starting to evolve we …

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Discover Your Inner Genius: Behavior Economics, Social Media, and Problem Solving … (re-blogged)

Please Note: To be published @ level 21 (04-30-22) According to psychologytoday.com, feeling smart has been described as the “the logic in emotion and the emotion in logic.” [1] Eyal Winter, author of “Feeling Smart,” is an advocate for our ability to read into “our emotions [that] serve us, and further our interests,” and lends his insight based upon a “quiet revolution … over the …

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attitude, exposure, happiness

The Type of Person I Am …

Visiting OCDA Office, this is day 2, of visiting, I think I have stopped by twice before, so this may be my 4th or 5th time visiting the office, just sitting outside, Ive been walked into the building once to talk to a police officer at the front desk.  Getting your life back post punishment is difficult, being who I am, I would have never expected to …

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attitude, philosophy

Feeling Good …

Feeling good and being apart of is a part of life, whether you understand the meaning behind your feelings or experiences be able to go about life as you are, without feeling threatened by others. A lot of life is about confidences, like going to a Laker Game, or being out in public, its not a pecking order when it comes to be around people, …

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beingpositive, blogging

What’s Meaningful …

In order to help others you must first learn how to help yourself and get through your own problems in life, and I think I have managed just that. Everything else in life is more about how you make people feel and how many people get along with you, in order for things to go right for you in life. The bigger of a deal …

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advice, blogging

Just watched … “The Desperate Hour” … (re-blogged)

Originally Published 07/28/22. I try to be a movie buff, I thought with #directTV I was all caught up, then I got Apple TV and realized that there are so many movies I have not seen and started clicking “save to my stuff” on Hulu. A very special person just re-entered my life and it’s been nice getting to hang out with him again, his …

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Personal Update …

Good day yesterday bad day today too much attachment to things and not focused on being present allowing myself to get hurt by how I’m speaking in private then how I speak in public is viewed as either trying hard in a sincere or not sincere way then doing well how does that demonstrate prevention it doesn’t nor does my participation online well or not …

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advice, blogging

When Things Get Political …

Written at #laxcourthouse (Day 1) … I read two great articles today in part, one on narcissism [1] and the other on work productivity and blame [2], searching “creating problems.” What resonated with me were the themes of being difficult or unforgiving and the time wasted in trying to repair disconnect that either you contribute to that faltering or you accept on your end what …

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health

Do the Dawn …

I just got back from my AA meeting home group I’ve been attending for years now intermittently, where I did my 90 meetings in 90 days two meetings a day, when you’re starting life over get started in a supervised direction in life, I guess they were the ones with the wisdom to give us memorizable pointers and I’m assuming the bond and dedication to …

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beingpositive, conversations

Goal Setting & Fixing Your Life …

By the time you’ve made it through your darkest hour and light is beginning to shine back into your life don’t get ahead of yourself by putting too much pressure on yourself or others, the expectation of you is high however your expectations of others should not enter your mind, who you need to focus on is you while earning back trust and respect and …

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A Difficult Time …

I think everyone’s going through a difficult time from what I’ve heard regarding people I know from my life or who know people I know and I’m sure it’s not just my social circles in life who feel the pressure and I’ve tried to understand it myself. So the main point of sharing my story is to illustrate that you can get through it no …

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Without a Job …

Without a job life is difficult, hard to get through the day and keep busy stay motivated, and hard to talk to others when you are not made to be proud of yourself, and it doesn’t get easier with a job, the better you feel the worse the judgment, no one ever really feels sorry for anyone who they think looks healthy, its assumed someone …

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entertainment

Know Your Worth …

Today is a solemn day in entertainment news, following the death of Olivia Newton-John, after losing her battle with Breast Cancer. For those of us who were moved by her performances past, and grew up in the years that the film “Grease” inspired us all to go after our dreams and believe in the possibility for love to happen for us, many of us could …

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advocacy, blogging

There’s No Guaranteed Route to Respect …

There’s no guaranteed route to respect, but there are ways to improve upon your chances for it. This is probably why self-improvement is such a hot topic. Figuring out what your weaknesses are and owning up to them, is one way to recognize that you are not everything you want to be and not everything you could be and could be doing a better job …

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advice, affirmations, beingtoomuch, blogging, book, Book Drafts

Only Later You Realize …

Once your troubles leave you you’ll have time to think more, but it’s the time period adjusting that can feel the most troublesome and time consuming, like getting yourself out of any rut in life, whether its addiction, a bad breakup, a state of paranoia, coming off a drug or alcohol, the recovery time is a process, so learn to love the body you’re in …

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advocacy, blogging

One General Deduction in Life …

Everything either flips when you do, out of control (booted in or booted out from acknowledgement and consideration, that’s your choice to have everyone support you or turn on you by discomforts), Or everything’s well balanced settling (if you mention concerns & write without inducing trauma and reduce conflict by acknowledgement of an unstated grievance concerning the way support is shown and from who and …

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In Reviewing Prior Posts …

I just recognized what it is that’s discomforting, so although I may be presently going through something difficult and feel obligated to disclose that’s a piece of information that heightens tension meaning to not be confident in me makes other people feel bad or sad and that’s not purposeful of me to make others feel bad or sad in the event that I’m not feeling …

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thoughts

Things Will Get Better …

If prayer doesn’t work for you, then think what will help you spiritually get through what you are going through and come out the other end, feeling like a better person as a result of having your experiences in life. Nothing lasts forever, including the painful moments, so in your distress, instead of worrying and beating yourself up, do things for yourself that make you …

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It’s Been Awhile …

If it’s been awhile since you last smiled or laughed then you would be on board with my tone in life, which is not humanly possible to get through that much seriousness in life, and not lighten up as you get through the hard parts, and that’s apart of being human. We can’t all be immune to stupidity (in the form of love), fighting (in …

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blogging

When Trying to Get Help …

Sometimes in trying to get help we are harmed or put in harms way, anyone else not knowing what you are up to, feel so threatened by you opening up to the police or to a government official. There are no sides in life to be disrupted when you choose to confide in someone that you trust, usually people who are trustworthy, are not interested …

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abuse, advice, blogging, Uncategorized

When Something Good Happens …

When something good happens works just the same as when something bad happens, it’s a feeling that occurs over time, which is why you are reminded to be consistent if you want to be successful. Everything adds up. I was thinking this while being detained outside #toddspitzer’s house for more than hour talking to police, what’s more important than what was said, is where I’m …

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blogging

To Be Doing Well … (visiting #toddspitzer’s house, and overcoming delusion and talking to #orangecounty police in person).

To be doing well doesn’t mean that you are clear of not struggling or facing hardship in life or difficulty of opinion or interpretation of you, and that’s the problem with getting in trouble, or looking troubled (mental health issues) as a smoker or someone who is obese and not pretty to be viewed as unhappy or does not have things right for themselves in …

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exposure, happiness

One Day You’ll Look Back …

For anyone in need of some encouragement and feeling defeated this post is for you. It’s okay to be vulnerable I know we don’t enjoy the feeling of feeling manipulated or changed from our regular selves normal and put together but don’t fret. We all go through periods of nervous anguish in difficulty and I promise you that it will pass and you will no …

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blogging tips

Good Advice …

Good advice is hard to come by, you won’t always hear what you want to hear when the troubles you face are of your own making, this is true of addiction, or making mistakes when it comes to being close to wrong people, or run the risk exposing yourself to others, not all people can be trusted. This is what makes the internet great, it’s …

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blogging

Different Anxieties …

Everyone has different anxieties in life, and now more so than before, this seems to be the present issue. Whenever there is a system of thinking which is working for others, to refer to a person, to shine light, or make fun, or to assemble with the intent to prevent mental health issues, that is through acceptances of people that things are made to be …

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blogging

The Uncool Element …

It’s common for unhappy people to deflect blame for situations they feel personally insulted by as though they have been misrepresented. You are only misrepresented by the people you trust who in turn let you down or fail to meet the mark throw you under the bus or for excuse of their own guilts about things create a delusion of there being something that you’re …

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Personal Update …

Not feeling well can’t sleep taking a break from blogging being harassed receiving text messages non stop insulting me criticizing me and calling me names and pretending to be Todd another moment well ruined to be made to look stupid, if this continues I don’t have the blog. And reserve space online for people who aren’t attacked by people who want stuff from them photos …

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blogging, gun violence, medication, modeling

How to Approach a Difficult Subject …

Most of the time we can live our lives absent minded what others are thinking, I think we become the most paranoid when we are not stable or waiting on others to affirm whether we are on the right track and that may or may not occur in the form of support via love, or recognition of what you are going through hopeful for your …

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Why I Visited the OCDA Office … today 06/23/22

“Someone pretended to be him. Checked in also stated concerns regarding my identity and recent gun violence make sure my identity is not being used to coordinate or influence beliefs on how things happen or why suggest overtly that it’s my fault or that my identity is known in a way not accepted everyone knows me by now it’s been 10 years writing. Nothing new …

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blogging

We See Four …

I know it’s not a comfortable subject prevention and issues following an incident but I think it’s in reviewing our progress that things get better in terms of what thoughts we allow to supersede our best judgments in life not to allow the thinkings of others to persuade or condemn one another as being responsible for the thoughts of the other. We are each separately …

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abuse, advocacy

What is a Jelly Bean?

What is a Jelly Bean? A Jelly Bean is someone you love who you can’t get through to, and in trying to get through to them explain to them how much you love and admire them, hoping that they will see the same in themselves. A way to get someone to snap out of the mood that they are in, and get into being their …

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abuse, blogging, body image, concept

Rude Awakening …

1. No one thinking your funny. 2. Being prescribed a new med. 3. Getting a new diagnosis. 4. Having great sex and never hearing from them, until weeks or months later. 5. Suddenly sober. 6. Suddenly normal again. 7. Pissed off and no one responding to you. 8. Recognizing there is no game and building a set of ideas for yourself to go by. 9. …

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abuse, beingpositive, Uncategorized

I Don’t Have to Be Beautiful for Anyone …

I don’t have to be beautiful for anyone that’s not what blogging and recording my health by selfie is about it’s about making improvements and working on yourself, focusing less on others, and the task at hand whatever that may be. You can only integrate and work alongside others and share common graces, encouragement, pride, or helpfulness when it’s a equally beneficial experience in the …

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abuse, advice, dysmorphia, exposure, feelings, influence

Handle Things in Stride …

You can’t really toot your horn in this business unless people allow you to, a career in writing teaches you to aim for delayed gratification rather than seek immediate results. As a writer you are feeding off your own energy in life, that’s what gives life to new ideas, and your inner genius, which you can’t tap into if you are too focused on what …

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abuse, advice, advocacy, affirmations, blogging

And That’s the End of That …

I’ve noticed that the tension has decreased and people are going back to living freely again, although there is much to worry about in the news, I think overall we are coping better having had these discussions whether or not there are actual people commenting and replying to my posts, I know that I get support in the form of likes, which I appreciate. Have …

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advocacy

Writing is a Gift …

If you have ever taken the time to explore a skill that you want to improve upon, and finally get comfortable doing something that you enjoy doing, you eventually learn a lot about yourself, and also get a first hand window into what others may go through in trying to gather their thoughts and express themselves. For most of my worries I wish I had …

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advocacy, negative judgment, respect

Some See Life, Some See Death …

One of the scariest facts about life is death, and while you may not encounter the feeling or have been exposed first hand to the experience of dying, Im sure it is something that you have feared before, and especially now with the news of its happening, its not reassuring to hear that there are still people in existence who take lives, for reasons we …

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advocacy, blogging

What is Machine Learning?

There is no almanac of exactly everything you should know to make good decisions for yourself in life, that’s part education and experience, and sometimes you have to live life for yourself in order to fully comprehend the meaning of difficulties in life. Based on where you are in life, or who you are in life, don’t worry for those who throw wedges in your …

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affirmations, blogging, concept, depression, negative judgment, Uncategorized

The Heavy Load …

Once the heavy load is lifted you’ll feel tired but awake it’s like spiritually ending up at a completion point with ample time ahead to get going again, that’s recovery you process experience a wide range of emotions and thoughts and find your place again in life, the journey is always tough what to remember what to forget and wonder what will tomorrow be like …

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advocacy, affirmations

Poem: “Yellow’s the Name.”

Yellows the Name In different places, but not far a welcomed ear At last, the wankering sound of voices has stopped The issue collided with the everpresent satisfaction  A job well done indeed as though your soul hires Those who remind you by doubt and question Too close to be considered enemies, maybe just angry fans Good purpose is the common denominator Making every reaction …

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Issues Aware of Prior and After “Laguna Woods” Shooting …

The wrongs of others need no defense special or with special consideration for the parties actions criminal and harmful to the health, well-being, safety, and livelihood of those injured by that parties actions, whether misdemeanor, homicidal, or violent. Therefore it is wrong to assume that by what is working for others in terms of creative understanding and compartmentalization of what is of essence when discerning …

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abuse, advice, beingpositive, blogging tips, Book Drafts, reading comprehension

The Weekend is Here …

This week went by fast, and ended in some turbulence on my behalf and Im sorry for that especially on Instagram I get all caught up in sending a message, and should probably spend more time putting it together, something that I need to work on and typos in messenger, maybe use my phone less. If you’ve left your moment of reflection and moving again …

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advocacy, affirmations, blogging

Tell Us Some Good News …

Well today didn’t go well, anytime I stay up late too many nights, or get off my morning schedule and don’t wake up early, my days get shorter and it feels like Im accomplishing less per day, only able to do one thing, like work, or run, or blog, or clean my room, the best days are when you are able to accomplish more than …

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Keep Calm & Carry On …

I know we’re not English, but there was a great ceremony this morning in honor of the Queen of Great Britain, Queen Elizabeth II, the leader of the United Kingdom since 1952. Similar to the United States, is the lack of enthusiasm from the younger generations for the Monarchy, same goes for the US, in terms of our Presidential representations. At this moment in time, what will …

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advice, negative judgment

Where to Begin …

There are different kinds of problems to have in life, problems within yourself, problems with other people, problems that others have about you, and problems that you can’t let go of, they can be problems present, past, or ongoing, what matters most is your health. Problems are the kind of thing that are attached to a condition or feeling we feel is urgent, like a …

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abuse, advice, advocacy, blogging

My Feelings About Gun Violence …

This is not an easy time for most people. Usually when something traumatizing happens it brings up the last time you were put in a position and made to feel that way, whether its through reminders, another devastation, a loss, a breakup, a failure, when things become difficult for us to manage whether that’s thoughts or feelings, we can be overwhelmed, and I guess in …

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advocacy, blogging

The Answer to Your Problems …

The answer to your problems is not always clear it’s through discussion of your issues in therapy or psychiatry that you are able to manage your symptoms better. That doesn’t mean that you still can’t get tripped up or bothered by things including the issues and actions of others. At best make sense if your own experiences in life first before diving into the psyche …

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beingpositive, blogging

Got a New Job …

Aside from what’s been going on recently in the news, I have been doing well, but it’s never easy to hear the news especially when it comes to gun violence it’s something that has always traumatized me. When life gets tough you’re either someone who stops in their tracks frozen or you do your best to keep going, and for some people it’s not a …

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beingpositive, blogging

Don’t Be Ashamed …

Don’t be ashamed, set boundaries if you need them. We all feel bad when we make others feel bad, mostly we are people pleasers when it comes to blogging or being any kind of public figure, it literally hurts if anyones not happy with you or if you can’t make them happy, you feel powerless, you can get frustrated, and it can be defeating. You …

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The Sky’s the Limit …

I just took a week off of work, my new paralegal job (legal assistant), and my job blogging for Level 21 Magazine, in lieu of my Father passing away from Cancer, he’s been on Palliative/Hospice care since February, in and out of surgery, and did not make it. I’m starting to feel the anxiety of recent events and the coding in regards to what a …

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advocacy, blogging

Where to Start …

It’s not been an easy month, I’m sure not for most of us, so if there’s any way I can better be of service let me know. Usually when I’m not feeling well I distance myself, around right about now I get headaches, so maybe that’s my instincts telling me to write anyways and get back in touch with everyone be there for others. Nows …

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The Circle of Care …

If it hasn’t hit you yet, once it does we are all here for you, that’s trauma. It stops you in you tracks, causes you to freeze, and lose your positive momentum. Life may get difficult emotionally, but that doesn’t mean you’re alone. Tune in to things that matter to you, and don’t be afraid to get hurt in doing so. That’s part of life, …

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Being Handed Problems in Life …

For example, a solution or a problem, can work in a manufactured way that reflects an exposure or interaction that gets ingrained, and then plays a role in the direction of your choices moving forward, either affecting where you end up, how you are picked or what and to whom your attentions are drawn to, its mostly by similarities that we are made to put …

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Why the Obsession? …

It’s true that we can become so obsessed with our own thoughts that we will speak to scenarios created in our minds, ingrained in our memories, and wind up where, exactly to the feelings we describe, where is the growth in that? Memory needs no exact science to decipher exactly where a feeling came from or what a feeling was about, instead remember yourself as …

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What does not happy with you cause …

Not being happy with me causes me voices when I need to be alone or when people are upset with me that hurts my head so if I’m stable quiet I’m not allowed meditation time to space out when I space out I’m interrupted or when I’m feeling good I’m interrupted. It’s when I’m calm regular either do more or if I’m overwhelmed maxed out …

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abuse, beingpositive, body image

Personal Update …

Right now Im trying to get stable to go back to work on Monday, starting a new job, my first paid job at a law firm part-time with full-time potential, Ive been looking for years they are very hard jobs to get an qualify for pay, hopefully Im not too late, in terms of all the meds I am on at this point in life, …

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Somewhat Controversial …

I’m not sure when and why this happens to me to write and write speak effectively then all of a sudden start discussion off topic, I’m sure that’s the schizophrenic looking part of my writing anything short stated or not without enough explanation and detail, you know sometimes the hardest things to say or figure out in your mind are best stated in short you …

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How Long Does it Take to Fall in Love …

A long time, there is no easy road, quick route, or short cut, you either are willing to wait with enthusiasm and make it to that point of comfort with someone or you don’t meet the mark, and sometimes we learn this early on, and sometimes we find out the hard way not measuring up. Attentions will fly, and you may feel alone, but if …

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Fine & Dandy …

Getting a job doesn’t necessarily mean that things are fine and dandy, this is just the beginning of a new uphill climb, much like blogging was for me, I suppose it’s something you get better at overtime, except this time I’m on meds for schizophrenia so it makes things that much more challenging to get the hang of things again work wise, so when I …

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medication, negative judgment

How to Function in Dysfunction …

There will always be times in life, where you will be made to adjust, and it won’t matter where you are in life, what you have, or where you’re headed, life tends to just come to a stop, and we have all been there, not sure of ourselves or what to do. This is what separates the weak from the strong, or if you are …

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