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After sharing all my stages of improvement, its always with enthusiasm that I share never judged for quality, maybe a reflection of disability I never complained on any meds, always kept busy, many computers later, I guess showing more work for my work, is the solution to fixing a bad impression (Im assuming is the…
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Be Brave Discuss Fires What I Know: When you are scared you are going to die it’s a natural reaction to what to make the most of that time add value to life (with permissions ask California Bar exception and FEMA shared ideas registered and throat was who I was I’m sure tested throughout the…
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That if you were important and suddenly not feeling well, getting well is the first step to showing people you care. As an attendee of AA with 20 years sober minus 2006 and 2013, sometimes that confidence is misunderstood for intelligence or shelter or lack of awareness for pains in life, I don’t think that…
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Why my face is deformed (I self harmed the day before visiting the site of a local tragedy my first effort to show up meet who’s been affected and in person video a response and a recorded effort responsibility to prevent not make light of anything big on my blog that seems streamlining words due…
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Current goal is to stay sober, lose weight, start running again. Continue to work on my mental health, be normal online. Focus on what Im doing and saying and how I feel figure out. Continue to be honest and make an effort, forgive myself when I experience mental illness, dysfunction, or inability to write. Keep…
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Conspiracy is with the intent to cause harm, and act in furtherance of a belief that is believed to be falsely made without respect for the safety of all people or participants to a condition of voices, and subsequently correspondence, when sickness is created in furtherance of resolution sought for death, suicide, self-harm, hospitalization and…
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Suffering from voices is not easy, it’s most relatable to viewing any cycle of abuse or bullying, in which there is no return to normal until the voice or the bully wins, which is a harm suffered to you, is the end result of the purpose for voices directed toward you, that is their center,…
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Received a comment recently and over the moon with gratitude and thanks for having such an understanding and compassionate audience. This is truly a reflection of you guys, and glad that from your standpoint, you equally feel appreciated by this opportunity to blog and talk to everyone. I think we all have unique and very…
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When you think of voices? You think of someone who is mentally ill, and sometimes people are told “we all hear voices,” I guess it depends on who you are, for some people its common, for others its not a common experience, and when it comes to voices, it depends on what the voices are…
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Online we are always searching for something that fills that void, whether that’s having a question, wanting to know more about, its in lieu of the extra time that you have to really sit down and see what else is out there, otherwise there are other things to do in life. So it all depends…
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Pop Culture has changed throughout the years, but one thing remains the same, the same admiration and love for who we have the privilege of getting to meet in life. I remember buying a Bee Bop Magazine as a teen, and having a crush on Devin Sawa from the movie Camp Nowhere. I used to…
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You don’t know until you know. Life isn’t a trip, just any moment in which you absolutely can’t move, and quiet, and refuse to put up with the pain, you think of a way out. That’s the best lesson, in how to not let any pain sit for longer than is necessary to recognize whats…
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This is something that Im constantly learning and improving on in life, and I don’t think it comes easy to most, conversational skills about life, not especially right now, so don’t be afraid to state your cares, you would be surprised how many are empassioned to care and have an opinion or two themselves to…
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What is my reality, and how should my reality affect another’s reality. I think when my reality is being judged as not good, or in poor standing, or defective, then that will cause people to want proof of my wellness, mental health, and good standing, to know whether I am reviewed in high regard or…
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I know my blog is enthusiastic and exciting sometimes figuring out my own dilemmas, but I promise that Im not trying to have fun and that Im not picking and choosing a style of writing based on my audience or for a particular age group. I think based on my disability and what I have…
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It takes two seconds to lose a fan, that’s how easily people can be hurt at this point in history, when we have battled the worst, and survived the most trying of circumstances, without Social Media, upon meeting one another for the first time, is a memory worth keeping, and not to be judged for…
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Depending on where you are coming from in life, depending on what stage of life you are in, in difficulty, or doing well, opening up is something that you are taught or told to do, you never come to understand that talking is about making yourself vulnerable to the opinions and judgments of others. I…
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There is no excuse for being inappropriate toward anyone, for any reason, medical or otherwise prescribed. That’s not the solution to diagnose a person with a disease assuming that it is the fault of a person. How is a diagnosis made, based upon what is said to the psychiatrist. A psychiatrist who does not understand…
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I’m tired of every day that I get voices (sometimes depending on the level of stress existing on issues personal or elsewhere) and the harm that is causes me mentally (whether my personal issues are cured ongoing in remission triggered should have nothing to do with who I support at all). -Be human. Im tired…
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See link to draft below! Excuse the blog post. Was having a bad day took too much adderrall. I just lost 60lbs & dieting. 🩵 You can skip reading this? :/ So this is the problem with writing a book unpublished read and gone by … you never know when people hear things right if…
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Going to the Courthouse tomorrow, to check on my case, and get a follow-up on what has been decided and see when my next court date is and what is being asked of me and needs to be provided in order to not be treated as though my love is harming anyone, or any voices…
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Why Blogging with Mental Health Issues or People Issues is Hard … As a blogger sometimes you learn the hard way what it means to be a provider of insights upon which others can relate or be made to feel good by reassured by or confident by. I think as a public figure I have…
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03-28-23 How is the term recidivism used when analyzing the mental health of people, in what ways does a behavior or way off talking present sought to be changed or modified and for what reasons, what is being prevented when a person’s image is changed. In what ways does dislike function to separate a person…
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Re: Civil Harassment and What that Means to Me? 04-12-23 Civil Harassment, means that I cannot love, admire, talk to, be friendly toward any human being in private, and that when I talk to someone in a loving way, and if others know about who I love or admire, that I will be treated differently,…
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By: Leslie Fischman I admit that I have a diagnosis of schizophrenia now, as a result of being interpreted as looking and sounding mentally ill, because of self-harm and hearing voices, on that basis that is how I was diagnosed based on what was told to the doctor, for those reasons I suffer today by…
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It’s May 2023, and I’ve been applying to Shorty Awards for years, since my first submission 2016, its now 2023, and had two submissions this year, this will take time, but I’ve not given up. Stats are important, what’s more important is being able to sustain that 17,963 Alexa Rank and 600M Views, so get…
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MYMOLLYDOLL (By-Laws for ______________________________): To: US Supreme Court By: Leslie Fischman Date: 05-11-23 Mass Shooting Prevention: (1) Allow people to think what they want to think, unless it causes harm to others, not justified. (2) Allow people to follow pop culture and arguments and study freely, without criticism. (3) Do not designate people…
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When gay ends (when women fight with women, it was better when everyone was improving and proud of one another, I think the older system of judgment has since changed, therefore I also expressed criticism of the creation of the word “Karen” to describe “white women” and defended “white women” as one that looks like…
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While battling mental health issues bipolar and schizophrenia, law student Leslie Fischman built a website dedicated to improvement and was nominated for a Shorty Award and Infinity Blog award all while finishing her Masters in Law in Risk Management and Compliance. Through her participation and leadership contacting courts and the police this afforded Leslie the…
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The most hurtful things about life is to do the right thing and not bother anyone, and report, and for it to be mistaken as reporting “the people” I don’t think anyone has time to keep track or be threatened by people in nice cars, or women, and get beat up over breakups, these are…
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Being online or out in the world, should match, meaning if you are accepted online, you should also be accepted in reality. So that much is going well for me. Recently with voices, I lost my battle, the arguments are usually about “harassment” “making fun of me or my sexuality” “making fun of my law…
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I just attended my 20 year high school reunion. So much has changed, and yet so much to be reminded of during the times in life when you were social and apart of. I think that much about life changes, in any moment you struggle whether its mental health, addiction, alcoholism, law school, any moment…
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So Im just sad that because of voices and what happened to me none of my relationships are working out, because I don’t feel good, and keep getting sick, and its too heartbreaking to explain, and although I may not be stable in life, its too late to be anywhere else in life and feel…
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Ultimately Schizophrenia means there is no basis for concluding that you are normal, mean well, have the potential to live a long life and recover, it’s a given conclusion that what is wrong with you is a permanent condition that cannot be fixed by you or by medical advice or treatments, its to say that…
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In my shoes when I have a job and have love I am taken to the hospital that is when people think that I am sick or gone mentally, and that’s what people think mental illness is. On the basis of lawsuit, people think that you are an offender, therefore they think there is something…
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Until recently I was pretty steady going improving and for some reason having difficulty moving forward in life. I realize that because I share online that any misunderstanding becomes a set back that either I have to figure out or go back and review to determine what is being thought about and why I rarely…
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Schizophrenia is an incurable disease, that shortens your life, cannot be easily diagnosed, and ruins your life, reputation, and ability to work, date and have a life. It causes you disability in the form of medications that are so strong that you cant walk, run, or write, it makes you sedentary, it believes that because…
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When it comes to doing well in life, staying well, and being well liked by others, having positive interactions, and maintaining wellness, it will be until something is clarified or spoken to to the extent that someone recognizes that you are well, and have reflected on life in a way, that you recognize the value…
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Draft #2 – CDC Research Paper Question(s): How to Prevent Firearm Related Violence and Injuries, RFA-CE-23-005: How to Inform Firearm Related Violence and Injury Prevention Strategies, RFA-CE-23-006: Rigorously Evaluate Innovative and Promising Strategies to Prevent Firearm Related Violence and Injuries Purpose: The National Center for Injury Prevention and Control (NCIPC) supports research that aligns with the following…
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This post was removed on the basis that should I have problems the point is that I take responsibility for what I see or what I am later made to think, and I now understand that what you mention is made to be about you, and when a woman is put under pressure, that’s not…
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The most recent reference to Superman was made by the widow to a beloved performer and co-host of a popular talk show brought into controversy on the basis of “harassment” therefore in what way did watching that interview enlighten me as to that person’s outlook and personality, that they embraced diversity with pride, have had…
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Your odds for improving are as good as your attitude in life, there’s no beating around the bush about it. So if you are ever made to resent or disapprove of anyone who is online, think what is owed to you to help turn your attitude around is what is expected by a person who…
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I don’t think that most people intend to hurt you when they do, mostly people are normal interactions with others, that’s the nice refreshing aspect of life. So that’s the character “good character” that’s worth maintaining in life, your social graces, conversational skills, image, how you appear. It’s not that others can tell whether you…
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Voices are created when there is a unhappiness directed toward you, which you feel in the form of pain, and in that pain, can escalate to a chaos, in which you are made to hear voices that sound like they are in distress coming from your body, the urgency that you feel is the necessity…
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Think of all the ways that you could completely be devastated in life, and be prepared. Usually something we are told is called “future tripping” a symptom of bipolar actually, along with “catastrophizing,” so let’s learn to rephase our future trips and also be mentally prepared in the event we face a personal emergency in…
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Who likes change, and why are we so averted to change period? Well mostly people like when things are good, so in the event that things are made to not feel good, well this is the upsetting part about change. The discomfort. I feel like people need incentive to change, like a guarantee that things…
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Whenever I hear negative voices, I think what is me, what is going on for them. As a writer I can only imagine what people go through watching you, and Im sure if its about control and heartbreak then its about things going well, and having some control over content, or the direction of words,…
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Patient Improvement: Compliance, Strategy, & Upkeep … Research Paper #2 (Draft 2) By: Leslie Fischman 04-17-23 04-18-23 Improving through the continued care of self and by physicians who have been selected to care for you, is the system upon which a patient either improves or does not improve, unless for outside reasons a patient cannot…
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Anger, Intensity, Passion, Courage, and Habit … Research Paper #7 04-27-23 Anger Management So far my experience with anger management has been about feeling offended, feeling threatened, being scared, feeling sick, feeling pressured, feeling sick, and for that feeling to be habit forming, and consequential based on what you say, is how you are treated,…
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Taking a social media break on the basis of shouting, 2-3 times and it getting worse upon shouting, and that not solving the problem, I think Ive made myself clear on what my future plans are, and that I need to work, and I think my time online is productive so long as I stay…
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Having a mature opinion means that you are able to come back center, and maybe that’s a gift to few, who don’t need to be on meds, they can hear, read, listen, and come back center and everything is okay, so what percentage of people are not able to come back center. Normal is a…
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Value, Respect, Integrity, these are basic virtues of being a good person, your word matters, and so the feeling follows, it doesn’t matter who you are talking to in life, you are remembered by what you say, so be an experience worth remembering in the positive. Its hard to make a person remember the positive,…
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Why do people want to be close to you after they hurt you? Mostly it’s a change that they witness that makes them feel good, and then smile about having the power to say something and trigger a reaction from you, which could be voices, an ex, or someone unattracted to you, I would assume…
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Sometimes you have to accept your place in life and the expectations of you, the more educated you are the more is expected of you. The more you get in trouble, the less is expected of you. You can be whoever you want to be in life, as you can see by my photos, but…
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When there is crime, things get intense. When there is suicide, things get intense. When people get sued, things get intense. When people don’t know what to say, things get intense. When people don’t need help, things get intense. When people don’t understand you, things get intense. When there is bullying, things get intense. The…
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04-23-23 — A hard reality is being told something not true and made to believe is true. Which is what insults are and when people F with your head, it’s to scare you, make you feel bad, intimidate you, and threaten you, people who don’t admire you, respect you, or believe in you, think that…
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04-23-23 — I haven’t written a blogging tips article in awhile, so there it goes. How did I acquire 4.4k in organic traffic to my blog while launching my blog 2022, it starts with what you have to say and why, and where you are coming from, a good place, a happy place, a frustrated…
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04-23-23 — It is never too late to change, adjust, take into consideration, rethink, try harder, step back, take a break, move forward, let go, overcome, ignore, try again, do better, be good, apologize, try to fix things, go backwards, stay mobile! Life gets tough but you don’t need to feel stuck by anything in…
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04-22-23 — Life is good so no one expects you to be going through a hard time for any reason, and most people don’t want to be bothered by anything that youre faced with in life as a person, that’s life, you may exist, but if you don’t make money youre not important, and if…
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04-22-23 — Don’t be fooled, the times may be tough, and we may be at risk for identify theft and fraud, but most businesses you will have to learn how to accept how to work with people you don’t know and the key to working well with others and not being ripped off or clock…
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The Entire Legal Profession was affected after the “Laguna Woods” shooting, and it was a big deal by name, and the only way to undo a “mass shooting” by an Asian who is using a location name to communicate to all, would be to reverse the damage being caused by someone pretending to know what…
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Looking at this lawsuit on paper I recognize not to get carried away in fantasy in life, and to accept my reality such as right now, to appear as though Im lying or that my love for a person is not real, or not returned or mutual, and although you may think that everything is…
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If you can’t identify whats wrong about your story, this is when others are interpreted as knowing whats wrong with your story, or for an expression or word choice used by another is analyzed as existing coming from you in existence in you or in another on the basis of something you have said, or…
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As an up and coming public figure online, brave enough to spend the money to apply for awards and do my best to meet the standard criteria for work that is awarded and the basis needing to illustrate positive results, was a challenge worth taking, not necessarily with the intent for personal credit or accolade,…
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From the moment your diagnosed with schizophrenia your life changes forever. Nothing from your past matters, and nothing present matters, all that matters is how you are affected by hearing the word “schizophrenic.” So what causes people to believe that you are “schizophrenic” based on how people feel or based on what they interpret from…
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There are different types of fears that you can face in life, one of the most painful fears to face is being confronted with a truth that goes against your reality or presentation in life, when things are made to look different than they are. It is the extreme feeling of being confronted that causes…
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How you identify is no one’s business, perhaps why my blog is so popular, it’s not that they identify with me or on my team in life, its that the words are they are written make sense to the mind of anyone who is following along and trying to determine in what way or for…
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Being brought to your knees in life by punishment is so that you are directed to appear as though you recognize something to be wrong that you should be able to identify not others, and something that others notice, not to be bothered by or question. This is a moment to think and for good…
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The war in your mind, might be unique, but its something most people go through, whether searching for acceptance of themselves or others, it can be a battle, accepting things in small doses, without being too easily offended by anything you hear “delusion” that’s voices it starts a war in your mind, disorganizes you and…
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There’s so much emphasis on losing our minds, due to drugs and alcohol, but let’s really think about who is most afraid of being gone, who is here now, and who wants whats best for everyone, and prays that things go well, the times may have changed, but those with a good head on their…
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When you are told “men are dogs” as a single woman, who is considering dating again, its possibly to inform you of a potential to be harmed, so that you are not harmed, by something that you do not consider harmful, and that’s the old school lesson, on how much to worry about men. There…
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Twitter is not working for me recently and I think the lesson is a conversation perceived to not work out on the basis of how I sound whether public or private, what destroys a conversation, when the communication is negative about yourself, or in the event that you sound stupid that you sound like youre…
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As an adolescent I was a club soccer player won MVP and scored a hattrick in a State Cup Final Game with 2 assists, I was also tri-captain of my High School soccer team and helped lead my team to a near perfect season 22-0-1 and was All-CIF, I even tried out for the Olympic…
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See also: researchforstudyetc.wordpress.com Published 04-08-23
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Thinking in Quiet … 04-08-23 I think everyone knows the feeling of thinking in quiet: Managing a crisis doesn’t mean that Im responsible for setting anyone back to normal, that’s the lesson with mental health, this is why I don’t overexpose myself on Instagram and don’t have the energy for it. Once you get “voices”…
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I’ve never been hurt worse in my entire life, as it just so happen, when life is intended to not go your way, the automatic set up for disillusionment intended to show you the way out in life or back down seems to fail fundamentally on its terms. What is held close to heart, and…
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Sometimes when facing turmoil, we forget to turn everything off, we forget to back out, back down, let go, and leave room for amends, it’s like a non-stop train to indifference toward you, the more you express or try to fight that difference, the more you end up with less in the long run in…
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As someone with mental health issues, Im more than aware what it feels like when you integrate news, history, and what people think into your own perspective in life, and well aware that usually those with mental health issues are told to focus on less, just themselves, get off social media, and not integrate so…
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I think in the past this was an issue more than it is now, since we have all integrated online, and are apart of one another’s life. There is still the case that in states of displeasure, unhappiness, sickness, or difficulty, that you can simply wish to be on the other side of things, peace…
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When it comes to sharing your story, other people should look good, don’t be disappointed when you look bad, that’s part of remembering life, others are keeping track from therein, maybe you won’t necessarily be keeping track or focused on how your experiences in life are interconnected. That’s the risk for sharing your story, although…
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Will work on my research paper. Rest day meeting with my Attorney. Prayed today, hope things will be okay. Not take chances in life be disciplined. My job is my blog I have disability if I can work part-time great if not that’s ok too. “Too much” take Geodone, Advil, anxiety, prozac, Wellbutrin (psychiatry!) 👍👍
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Who you are is not a joke. And as a politician just tweeted “No one is above the law.” Not even me. What is a threat? A threat is a statement that is made that is intended to intimidate you or take away something from you, it’s what you have that is of value, and…
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How to not fight & look bad sound inappropriate not exchange places with who is advised be treated as the problem. When there’s another side how you talk to the other side matters and is a reflection of you either making you look worse to respond differently per perspective you are what you see so…
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Full Title: On Recent Battle with Schizophrenia Diagnosis Feeling Hurt by Negative Judgment Treated as Admission to Being Mentally Ill, I’m very smart work hard graduated. #endgunviolence Im not suicidal I just feel hurt by the accusations I’m mentally ill, I’m nice enough to blog and write online I just feel insulted in the event…
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If you want to be loved in life you have to be a strong person, because during the course of loving someone, there will and can be many obstacles or boundaries that are preventing total acceptance of one another love or value in life, either they don’t see the value you, or you are not…
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03/31/23 Life is not a fight, that you make happen by any drives to succeed in life, no one is guranteed success upon trying hard, this you learn later in life, if judged in the negative, the harder you try the less impressed others are, the more its believed that you are fighting a condition,…
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Sometimes talking helps, but eventually you have to redirect your thoughts toward things you are capable of achieving right now. How can you in the immediate be made to feel better about your day. So pace yourself, begin each day with one positive thought and go from there and make it your goal until the…
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Intelligence is not gay. People don’t feel good by themselves, they feel good by reflecting on their lives, reviewing their own work, and liking what they see. You shouldn’t always rely on visually pleasing work product to identify or create for standards of value, and Im not an example of anyone who can get away…
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Mental illness guilt, is something that burns your head, and puts your body in pain, its something you hear that hurts your feelings, and upon you physically feeling down, your head gets sad, and your head burns or feels sick. This can occur when people don’t agree with you, feel bad by you or jealous,…
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Reality is what you make of it. It doesn’t matter what disability you have, what meds you take, or what other people think, ultimately you get to navigate your own course in life. It is your life, your body, your mind, your future, so why allow yourself to be disrupted by others. Accepting what you…
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Things will not be good enough, sometimes not unless you speak directly to a subject in a way that prevents both a fear of it having occurred in that way, by any connection to you, named or not named by you, it can still be a hurdle to overcome being known, in what way does…
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Working on being loving with who I love, and refraining from having sex until Im physically strong again, and start treadmill again, and work on overcoming voices and pressure. I think have public discussion of difficult topics is helpful for everyone, so that no death goes unnoticed, and so that people have respect and some…
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Your story matters, however in the event that people are made to think of you with distrust, don’t be surprised if its because of your story, its not that they don’t care about you, its that they think that you don’t care and when you don’t describe in detail how self-harm, voices, or suicide attempts…
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Certain experiences in life, coupled with what you have to say about life, can send you off the deep end with people, thinking you’re out there in a way, that’s not relatable or doesn’t reconcile whats of issue, pertaining to your identity, and in terms of being known by whom, what specializes you to be…
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A solution only works when it:
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As you look back on your life on Facebook and on your blog, think what has changed and why have you changed and what is limiting you in life from the being the person you were, what are the factors of concern that are causing you delay, or to feel sick, feeling or hear people…
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What to Consider Before Blogging: How to Get Going as a Blogger: How to Know When You’re Ready to Distribute: What are your Goals as a Blogger?
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People want to be able to think freely without criticism or assumption. They want to think without worry or inheriting a wrong way to think or see that would leave them feeling excluded. People want to be able to think have ideas and perform to standards that set them apart from others. People want to…
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When you are focused on doing many things right, when you are pushing yourself for acceptances, and applying via application, and seeking to qualify for positions in life, that doesn’t mean that you immediately get a feeling of your life going to happen, you can visualize upon performing upon acceptance, and that is your proof…
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There are many factors to weigh in the event that there is a medical emergency or a mental health crisis, first would be to measure the number of people sick, by which diagnosis and medication, and to monitor the progress of patients, and at which periods, months, do hospitalizations peak. The first thing would be…
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As life would have it, the minute we’ve lost touch with reality and what there is to be thankful for, we accidently get stuck on a path of intensity over issues, that we would be better off without negotiating within ourselves, how do we wind up in places that overwhelm us, and take us away…
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On the tech side of things web design wise, my website is not up to standard, I have paid before in the past to build a website, its about whats going on in my life, whether I have the opportunity to blog, and while reflecting on whats at odds toward me given online bullying short…
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Don’t be ruled by your past, if you have made it this far, be proud of yourself, what do you have to be thankful for? We have all had experiences in life that we regret or dishearten us, the good thing about life is that you don’t have to stay in those places in life,…
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Prevention Research (paper) to be completed … in the next two weeks. USC research app Blogging and AI, research writing and problem solving, trending concepts, mental health assessments and prevention techniques to gauge the course of developing conversations about and how that affects people’s stability belief in what’s working in general and in what ways…
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I think the hardest thing about having mental health issues is being told that you are a reject or that you will continue to live a difficult life and that things will be this way for the rest of your life, its sometimes without hope that you are left in states of being that you…
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When it comes to prevention what comes to mind? In simple terms how to prevent a problem how to avoid a problem how to determine if there is a problem how to stop a problem without saying whether a problem is a cause for something that can otherwise be prevented. What problems have we identified…
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Unfortunately we live in a world, where people question others, don’t believe in people, seek validation, verification, go against people, don’t see anything in people, feel competitive with people, people are not thankful or appreciative, the more you are known, the tougher uphill battle you face, and it’s become clear that upon launching a blog…
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Getting pissed off is a recipe for disaster its like a self-inflicted wound of disablement, perhaps better known to people who bear this trait, sudden recognition sudden dissatisfaction, sudden unhappiness, or sudden anger, what are the bases or justifications in which people are allowed to respond in this way toward you without anyone being scared…
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Took rest a few days, woke up with a massive headache the other day, things like that mean I just need to slow down and rest. It might not seem like a lot of work but writing is work it’s putting parts of you online to be read by others, what you’re willing to speak…
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Being annoying is being loving and not in need of help, it’s everything being okay, and you doing you’re best and no one is truly bothered by you, that’s being annoying. It’s not until you get sick, or seem sad or unhappy that people worry, that is because they think that if you are unhappy…
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I have been blogging for 5 years now, and have been writing my whole life, and went to law school. Later in life a diagnosis affected my mental health, self-esteem, outlook, ability, future potential, and made me feel limited and disabled and unmotivated in life. You won’t get through life, not working towards your goals…
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Right now I would prefer to set aside medical stuff HIPAA, to manage in private, it doesn’t seem to be helping to talk about not feeling well out loud, things seem to be getting worse, and the less help I get. What’s not an emergency, is what can be done, so always put that first,…
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To me it makes no sense why on a peaceful day such as today, one can not be feeling well, and you wonder, what is going through my mind differently than on any other day when I was feeling well, and how much of that is in my control. What can I do to make…
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Taking a break from blogging until I get my health sorted out. Attending AA, resting at home, listening to CBT tapes on Udemy. Going to therapy, and taking it easy. I’m having difficulty with the public announcements right now it’s causing me a lot of stress and I don’t know what to say, I think…
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I’m not suicidal I was going to IOP (since cancelled), I went to the ER twice, I’m fine I’m not feeling well for no apparent reason and it’s frustrating me that I have to write when I’m not feeling well or to be confused as someone who is sick or doesn’t know why they’re sick…
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End of January was a nightmare, I thought I was being sued, I thought my life was over, I thought I was getting in trouble, and then I hired an Attorney, I barely got through the option to respond, and was about to appear on my own without an Attorney, not sure how that would…
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Welcome to my blog! Sorry for the inconvenience of me not doing well and having personal problems to sort out, everything takes time, and sometimes whats difficult for you is not something easy to explain to others, and subjects you to more harm the longer you are not doing well explaining to others why not.…
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If you have ever wanted to make things better then this article is for you as you traverse the uncharted waters of challenging mentally standing in the way between you and others, it starts with what you make things about, and that’s how you prove or disprove you goals, agenda, territory, purpose in life, otherwise…
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I haven’t been feeling well since the end of January, it felt like my life came crashing down on me, besides what occurred during my first paid job in law, things are starting to get better for everyone, and because we are handling a lighter load at this point, after a rough year, I’m feeling…
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How has a failure, or apparent failure, set you up for later success? I think, figuring out what drives you and motivates you in life is all about finding what you are good at in life, what is your gift or talent. When you work hard to achieve a skill in life, you overcome the…
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Most things you don’t know much about takes time to get comfortable and used to the process and I can tell that 5 years later it’s no easier going from writing to posting to editing to publishing to creating each day to the next, it’s like a job, it just seems like you’re having fun…
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After submitting $5 to the Women’s March, I didn’t attend the in area Music & Speakers event held in the privacy of someone’s home. I did however make it in time to attend the local Beverly Hills version of the Women’s March, held in addition to the world record holding attendance in Downtown Los Angeles…
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There is nothing worse then getting well and getting sick again, I assure you this is just your God testing you, do you give up, or do you have faith in your abilities to overcome what is hurting you in life, don’t keep anything hurtful to yourself, I assure you its something that can be…
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A smoking gun is a belief that a set of facts establishes in time and for future reference that a person is offensive and that since one is considered an “offender” is believed to bear characteristics or traits of a person who others do not need to accommodate and instead feel should not infringe upon…
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To Whom this May Concern: As a woman you learn the hard way that when people become upset with you it is considered your fault, the reasons for later whether you identify the issue or not, will always be your presence and demeanor changed. You cant explain a change in character upon entering law school…
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I think the main lesson based on all the sexuality issues relevant to my own problems in life are addressed and readdressed over and over again until (I started dating again) something is said to explain for the grievance held toward women who later identify as bisexual or what that means, for me it’s not…
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I took myself to the hospital and called for help, because I was getting frustrated and sounded like I was giving up in life, and I don’t fully know why I don’t feel good or what is causing that. So this just teaches me that what I have to say is important and what I…
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Never be resistant to the changes you endure throughout the recovery process, whether its from a down, a failed relationship, a mental health issue. Life doesn’t stop the moment you get sober, clean up your act, or breakup, but it stops the moment you stop trying to improve your life, that’s the defeat you encounter,…
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Maybe this wasn’t the best year in terms of the rates of crime, but nonetheless I showed up anyways, and that takes a lot of courage in spite of violence in and around the community. I think what makes things better, is when you get better, and rise to the occasion, and provide sound feedback…
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Delusion, what are the signs of disability, and what are the signs of delusion, I don’t agree that based on what you sound like or look like, or based on slowness should be judged as abusing drugs, I don’t think that my mental health and speed and accuracy in coming to understand myself reflects that…
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If all the fighting private is to make any sense, it would be for the purpose of learning the lesson in terms of what is controlling and why and not to wait until the impetus to control that power is lost. Usually people who have good intentions act without limits, that’s because they believe that…
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I can’t remember the last time I have been this aggravated, overwhelmed, insecure, vulnerable, unstable, and not sure of myself in my entire life, its very rare for my entire head to get upset and for my body to be frozen, so whatever the experiment, my blood pressure is not high, contrary to what it…
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Half the battle is understanding yourself, what keeps you motivated in life, and what encourages you to improve, what types of experiences do we need in life to know that things are okay or going to be alight. I’ve thought about this recently, after sharing previous hospitalizations, what means that it wont happen again, I…
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I don’t know if it’s the same for everyone, but Im sure this dynamic is based on a less popular symptom of being needed, which in the realm of support, is not a healthy relationship. I think the supply and demand analysis also does not apply to blogging and the required output or quality level.…
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Everything is so political nowadays that you can be losing with people before you know why, on the basis of something they believe you to be saying that they don’t agree with. Given my diagnosis Im assuming that Im not even viewed as an expert in my field of blogging, and its to create for…
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Going through any difficulty is a struggle, Im sure we have all been there to greater extents or not. Going through a difficulty, is harder without directions, than it is to write down what you are going through and figure out as you go, how to feel better about yourself moving forward, without getting winded…
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Have not been feeling well, and this is beyond the already difficult year of everyone getting their lives sorted, and staying positive, this is unexpected to go through more difficulty in addition to an already tough year personally. So I think the only thing I know is that although life is hard and my feelings…
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To: US Supreme Court From: Leslie A. Fischman Date: 02/21/23 Re: Follow-Up To Whom It May Concern: It is now 02/21/23 and have still not lost positive momentum, although a few days I was sick and unlike myself on Twitter, for the most part have been taking life seriously, and getting through the difficult parts…
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As someone who is trending, and who people work off of, in view of, in light of what has been said well, to create for themselves, a work product, that either identifies better, or meets a standard higher than what I’m able to provide, would mean to not write or dictate how to feel and…
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Just for future reference I’ll talk about whats going on on my end, with awareness for what is going on on any end toward me by any side created. A lawsuit is a separate issue that is being taken care of outside of court, with respect for my own need to not be held to…
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Let’s not think this when we hear the lyrics, “life is no Nintendo game.” If we can’t work and study in peace, and put our lives together, then I don’t know what is so wrong with a Country that is not even allowed to defend themselves, with their own Military, that makes no sense to…
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Will a 3.8 Sociology GPA, I decided to try “cocaine” for the first time, a friend told me “just try one line I promise you you won’t get addicted,” and low and behold I was in rehab by the next Spring, January 2007. An outpatient at Boulder Community Hospital, I was the only one who…
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Have wanted to focus on writing research papers for awhile, and think a separate website to focus on an issue now relevant on the basis of what’s occurring accommodate for my disposition or changed thoughts affecting people of different races and origins, sexuality, mental health wise, and physically. Most are capable of doing well around…
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The minute you argue you lose the moment of issue your fault, the grievance intended taken personally. That’s life every crowd you’re in belong or prove, anywhere you stand out appease be honest or be offended, life is certain in that way no one gets by standing out not belonging or questioned that’s a normal…
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As a person who has been hospitalized mental health is an issue near and dear to my heart, not necessarily the terminology “mental illness” which I assume are conditions anyone can suffer from and something people are not called if they bear any conditions of depression, low self-esteem, or have experienced some failure in their…
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Hopefully at some point before you realize any meaning to life you come to appreciate what is good about life not be mistaken for someone unhappy or not able to achieve and do well in life is the probability wanted to be discerned by the type of life compared to the ratio of readers to…
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No one teaches you how to think and behave like an adult there is no shortcut to adulthood, responsibility, and lessons or imitations on how to carry yourself in public or awareness lessons that necessitate anyone to consider what they look like to play a role in how they feel or are treated. Until that…
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Prevention when it comes to gun violence is about creating for making for way for a peace that reasons beyond any instinct to deviate from any channel of wellness or route toward a more happy existence. I think the over obsession with analyzing the guilty leave more room for error and causes more harm than…
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It’s to my knowledge that things get better when focused on content that broadens your thinking not leaving you solely focused on what is painful. The only way to undo a pain in life is to have the ability to think and process and overcome a feeling that you feel stuck with. Sometimes meds help…
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If this continues to be a difficult life then I will not make any decisions to marry, and clearly after this suit will not be having a child based on the permanent damage to my reputation. It’s clear when things become hard is the “feeling” sought to be proven whether coming from you, is the…
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When things get worse you have to be positive because no one is going to talk you through stress, disorder, shame, blame, or looking bad those are the feelings you are intended to sit with in life whenever someone decides to punish you in public it’s what there is about you that you need to…
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Usually life is about feeling good and sometimes you are made to feel stupid and it’s up to you to speak for yourself and prove to others that there is nothing wrong with you and that you are not doing anything wrong past or present for talking to anyone you share to is the pattern…
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I was thinking about the song “Anti-Hero” by Taylor Swift the other day, and wanted to understand my reaction, why did I start crying, it must have pointed to an issue that I suffer from. Specifically the word “narcissism” why would someone narcissistic prefer to look at the sun rather than themselves. This seemed to…
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When there is evil in life, no one can train you on how to respond to evil, but the best way to overcome evil, is to not focus on things to get people thinking about it or assume that you embody it or that its an okay subject for you, that’s how you get misinterpreted…
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This has been a tough year for me, a lot of reunions with exes, and people coming back into my life, but still a long way to go, in terms of being comfortable with myself. I think publishing two books will prove to myself that I can earn a wage for my writing, and be…
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It took awhile to be known in a way you can speak freely without crossing over the territory of others in terms of what they have to offer the world and by their stories represent. It gets complicated once people disagree with you, or come to not like you or respect you, no matter what…
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Written 11/21/22. Tonight’s the AMA’s so I’m sure people just want to relax it’s Sunday, so you deserve that much. I think I’ve already discussed issues and submitted my arguments to US Supreme Court, and have submitted Release of Informations to Todd Spitzer’s Office that doesn’t mean there is anything wrong with me it just…
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Have you ever found yourself out of the loop, and ever wondered what other people are feeling so good about, its called the in-group [1], which is a “social identity theory … [that examines] an individuals self-concept acquired from their membership in relevant social groups.”[2] I wrote a research proposal once and submitted to my…
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Had a rough few weeks with mental illness, but feeling like myself again, was day to day for awhile and sounded really depressed, just read my posts from yesterday and that’s sad to hear what I sound like when Im not feeling well, it’s actually hard to read, so if that’s ever the case, can…
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You can be a woman, and have no understanding of their distress signals or be able to read the needs of one another, it’s not something you are trained to do, to read into others, or figure eachother out. Socially these are skills that you are born with, getting along with others and making friends.…
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Based on my experience, angry voices say things that you don’t say and you can hear them and do not know how they are able to talk to your body. They try to listen to you to see if you talk to yourself, which I don’t, and in the event that I am made to…
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Before you have a life, and get jobs, and in the comfort of support and able to have conversations with people about questions you have about life, while sharing your story, there will be a misconception of you thinking everyone knows you, and treating you are though you are something bigger online than you are…
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What matters now is that I have my life back, although my future is not certain, things have been going well enough long enough, to continue on blogging and being there for others. The only thing about me that not clear, is my mental health, and that will take time, I guess blogging is a…
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“Fuck You” blasting nsync “Aint Nothing but a Heartache” – This could get worse, clean up my act! If you cant help the problem don’t be the problem but as a writer I cant ignore a problem if I have experience with encountering those issues in life overdosing, accidental suicide attempts, cutting, self-harm, self-injury, why?…
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After two years in recovery from mental health issues following being defamed and bullied online and put on medications for schizophrenia, its time to face the facts that when you are teamed up in life, you can’t win, and that’s how all your power is lost. It seems to be the solution to see what…
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When you are a person who loves, and then you get mistreated as though you don’t deserve love, and that’s how women gang up on you, when they think that you have mistreated or have caused hurt to a man, ask Mike Hestrin. Also if you self-harm they treat you as two people and then…
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Being me, mental health issues, are ways in which your power is taken away in life, and when you are put places you don’t want to be, and medicated is disorganizing, you get punished, you get bossed, its an unpleasant experience, it’s a place you don’t want to be in life, and have to be…
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Be conscious of the undercurrents guiding your thoughts and outlook, consider your exposures who you have come to know, and work absent an influence coming from others, that’s creativity, its being in yourself and embodying a character or a prose that can resonate and be adapted to any life upon reading, its not just a…
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If there is one thing you can learn from me as a blogger, is to approach life with enthusiasm, and to speak highly of yourself, I’m sure that’s the mismatch between selfies and videos and writing, that anyone would wonder about, still finding myself at 37. Not sure how engaging I want to be online…
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Everyone has another side of them the side that complains, or gets upset, or disassociates, or gets tough, distant, or defiant, that side of you that sticks up for yourself or others, the fighter in you, just make sure you have a clear destination to maintain a peace, not disrupt it. There is action and…
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To be a successful writer, such as myself, without complaint, and positive reviews, it means to stay positive and to continue to grow through the process as you come to know yourself, and as you meet the needs of others, which is more of a guessing game the more you worry about it, the more…
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In order to build a website you have to have an idea that works for others, otherwise with discomfort, leads to further discomfort, and the message taken across is uncertainty, its hard to grow with an uncertain feeling, most things we feel good about, we are at peace with. Making peace is not an automatic…
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I don’t think Im the first person to be considered to be insulted in the event that there is anything ongoing public that Im expected to be hurt or threatened by such as anti-semitism, I think Im a 1985 child, who grew up with no racism or anti-semitism and never felt threatened by others on…
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I just listened to Chapter 1 of Prince Harry’s audible and I can’t help but respond to the unpleasant circumstances he faced at home with his family, you’re not alone, there comes a time when you’re either old enough to step away from fighting because you loved and cared for your family, that any fighting…
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Working on writing a book, just paid half deposit. I dont think I will be starting work soon, I cant afford to help anyone, until I help myself, so this will be my job for the next 13 weeks, writing a book. Sober. One of my greatest achievements in life, is to accept the help…
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There’s no such thing as low class. There is merely a proving of your worth to satisfy what is thought deserved to be compensated for any time or energy in knowing you. It’s a cruel world over how things look based on who people are and sometimes there’s no satisfaction in improvement only an impetus…
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Life is not a game, not success, not feelings, not people, not identities, not Instagram, not photos, wellness is a condition to respect, it reflects things going well. So what made things go well for me. As I was requesting for placement, overcoming schizophrenia, I shared what I am working on as a job I…
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There is nothing worse than when someone reads your writing and your honesty and seeks to reverse judgment on you to negative, its like being treated as two different people, who you have improved and a writer, and one who is judged to be something defective or mentally ill to play on a lawsuit as…
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When nothing can be done, that’s a painful silence, remembering your old self, and somehow wound up sounding like someone you’ve never sounded like. So that’s the failed chemistry between a DA and a law student, when a woman is changed or not made to be worth it, occurs upon stupidity, or misunderstood as critical…
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Everyone Matters There are so many things to talk about in life, and sometimes the best way to get going and start doing the research is to see someone in the process of finding themselves, all hail professional bloggers, what is there not to talk about, of course its a serious job, the plan is…
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Like everyone, in difficult times, no loss goes unnoticed, and only recently its become clearer that there is an unstated belief that people known are the cause, or their deficit, lifestyles, choices, rejections, luck, words, or directions in life. Whats too much. It’s been my experience living at home with two aging parents, to be…
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A lawsuit symbolizes that this person does not know me, does not care what my reputation is or my health, my schooling, or what I look like, this lawsuit sought to say that Leslie was never known, that her website was never a worthwhile contribution to the internet and for people considering creating content and…
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Remember to take care of yourself first, and if it hurts to try to figure out whats wrong with others, unless they are asking for help, the best way to help others, is to be well and sound well yourself. Mental health issues are hard for everyone, usually little things that can be corrected, I…
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How is peace made amidst chaos? Like all dark places in life created by evil and violence, the sky will not be clear, the future will not appear in clear light, and the present will feel awakened to a state of saturation, when one is made to be consumed by what is around them, either…
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As a blogger I have always done my part to be a welcomed space, where anyone can read, and most people feel good about me sharing, a quiet acceptance and appreciation for being informed about my life. Everyone’s life is an open a window to ideas and for viewing what reality appears like, and from…
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What other people think, this is a subject that crosses our mind, particularly when we are made to look at ourselves, or to observe and review our own lives, before putting ourselves on public display, whether its looking in the mirror to check our outfit and our faces, or assembling a project to put on…
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This is the last day I will dedicate to writing about challenging subjects that I’m not advised supported by or trained in how to approach subjects and makes sure I say everything well enough to fix what is wrong I think it’s worth it to at least try to address what’s not clear and hurtful…
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Improvements serve many functions, beyond just feeling better about yourself. If you are ever made to be questioned then improving also shows that you care for the opinions of others and don’t seek to make a big deal of things not in your control, such as the happiness of others. What becomes a problem for…
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It’s been my experience when there are fires, people become extremely irritable, and helpless, and its really based on who is strong at the time of a crisis to step it up, and to help reassure other people and provide support, until the weakness corrupting the minds of those affected by fires, are not made…
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Self-love is an easily misunderstood subject, and I can tell you that when you get misunderstood to loving others and not yourself, is how you are made to feel bad, and not feel good being yourself, and maybe that’s a jealously project reserved for others testing for limits, secrets, and when people have had enough.…
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If there’s ever an inability to lighten up either something is being misread or taken the wrong way usually in defense to calling a person out as though a vibe was received to be forced to accept a pain equivalent of what matches thought to be done to others, this is when you being single…
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Losses will always hurt and cause you to think about life, that’s a normal reaction, not a depression that should last, the problem is getting through it in stride, no matter what circumstance you are made upset by, there is always opportunity to make things better, or to rise to occasions if you’re able. If…
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Improving the quality of your thoughts serves many purposes. One of which is to recognize that what you are focusing on is capable of bringing about a set of circumstances for you in life or provided you with a lens from which to view life, which if you choose to focus on things harmful to…
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Of all the things you could think about, don’t be ashamed for what comes to your mind, or what you are made to think of. It is not always something in your control, you could be watching TV, or read a story on social media, see a post, see a picture, all of these things…
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Culturally there will always be differences in opinion when it comes to story, status, what you’re known for, who you know, what you represent, what people think of you, and whether you are someone who can be liked absent background information about you, rumor, disrespect, or bad story and some things are permanent and permeate…
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In order to succeed in life, you have to do what you feel is right, and in the event you feel attached to unwanted thoughts or people, it will be up to you, what dead weight you choose to carry around with you or blame for your loss of energy and momentum. It could be…
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I know it’s not a fun discussion especially unnecessary by the standards of all who like me appreciated when everyone was at ease and things were not too tightly wound up or connected going by one another, I think strength has best been exhibited in that way by choice either you wonder or waste time…
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The jobs I have taken on in life, have been because I was put together, and maybe that was because I grew up one of the lucky ones, protected by my older brother and his friends, not an option to date, and in college, friends with my neighbors who were guys, and met girls through…
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This is to illustrate how people can believe me to be a caused based on when I am hurt, to then treat me as someone who gets hurt and then that communicates to criminals who then code in to me, which is what makes my IMDb participation defective, if coded to, if criminals are communicating to everyone…
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Prevention weeks and the past two months have flown by, but I couldn’t have done it without all your support, so credit yourself for braving the conditions with me on my experimental journal toward peace and a growing mutual understanding of circumstances. I hope you all feel stronger as a result of watching me combat…
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A losing battle is where what you have to say doesn’t matter and ineffective because not believed. That’s when importance and significance is lost which to bring up only makes things uncomfortable to those from your story who have their own lives to lead and be remembered by. I think a losing battle is when…
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A lot of things in life happen that way, for things to be good and for things to be let go of, or not made a big deal of, and that’s how life is supposed to work, learning as you go, all things can be forgiven if this is everyones first time around at living…
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Based on how I looked, and based on a lack of confidence and ability to assimilate it was judged as though I have failed to integrate, or avoidant of integration to elicit a theory that I did not try, or became known to a set of conditions of dislike, never occurring, or held a condition…
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Prevention (Step 1) (analysis): It doesn’t matter what the crime is the holder of information relevant to prosecuting a crime is important to share no matter where or how found this is the risk to the privacy interests of the general public whereby if errors can be found within a person that cannot be corrected…
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There’s no specific tone that resonates more with people when it comes to reading, and sometimes setting boundaries causes us to address the pain or the negatives we hear in spite of how far we’ve come. Stigma hurts more than what is said absent any cue or triggered from you to justify a sentiment toward…
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Edit 12-05-22 – Paragraphs 5 and 6 So it’s not too late to make matters clear in the public so no one assumes I’m getting any help or privilege in life and so you understand there is no cover up or set of rules for determining whether my condition or location or work product is…
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Let’s not call it names or credit it better noted by any sect denomination or race or gender I think we have all lived enough life to understand pain, upset, and the impossibility of our future fates. The one day at a time simply reminds people in recovery from pains in general to focus more…
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Addiction is one of those terms that hurts to hear or be made to identify with, but you become what you are, either you cannot help yourself, or you have thrown your life into dysfunction, occurring when doing something that you don’t understand is hurting you, and is causing you to not feel good. Not…
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The big lesson when it comes to prevention is to not allow yourself to be harmed in life by any mechanism or negative judgment of you, while you are not to blame, and that being the improper argument, from where is the harm coming? It will be from loss of support following injury that can…
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Prevention (Step 1) (analysis): It doesn’t matter what the crime is the holder of information relevant to prosecuting a crime is important to share no matter where or how found this is the risk to the privacy interests of the general public whereby if errors can be found within a person that cannot be corrected…
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Motion for World Peace Volume #2 06-25-19 Submitted To: The US Supreme Court By: Leslie A. Fischman Re: Mental Health Issues – Personal Suicide is not the correct response to any amount of pressures to prove oneself or others wrong in life, there is no burden more trying than overcoming the false belief that someone…
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Working on Two Books (Autobiography and a New Book with Chapters Published, for a few on Amazon to prove worth if my writing and clarity and ability to assemble a story that can be read with ease is not difficult or heavy). *And write the solution for schizophrenia based on my own recovery what they…
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Finding yourself takes years and when you make the right choices in life and stick to investing your time and energy toward things that will improve your life life becomes that much easier. We don’t all need to get alike or be known appreciated or hold our heads high in life to be successful, success…
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Prevention is about doing work that you’re proud of and being able to sustain a pace in life that matches your skill set and able to provide the requisite quality of effort needed to create stability instead of allowing for instability to thrive in the minds of the worried or powerless, therefore those with the…
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When you arrive to the new version of you be pro it’s if who you are all wounds and scares about it it wouldn’t be life if it didn’t take work to appreciate the good moments in life. A better place is any place where you are free of the pains that once convinced you…
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You only live once and it pains me to talk about moments not well or what that was like eventually it won’t matter not that you grow a tolerance for pain but if it happens you learn to deal with it not worry or get paranoid over how if you simply focus on yourself and…
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Thank you for speaking in Mar Vista by my favorite high school Windward class of 2003, best female athlete, and described my experience as “the best years of my life.” I should have contacted you knowing an endorser in common through Facebook nice enough to add me to her emails and LinkedIn although we did…
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Since gun violence things have not been going well for me why I decided to discontinue working did not return after a few weeks rest and did not follow up although was told in the event they have work for me can return. So it’s not the job. It’s the gun violence then how I…
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Most disabilities you don’t need to talk about, it’s apart of who you are, and not something you talk about. A lot of things are like that, such as music and film, not something we talk about, something we automatically appreciate, and watch and learn to think for ourselves, and put together our own thoughts,…
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Most interventions are grounded in “behavior theory” in which various methods are used to evaluate and assess the use of technology before ideas become outdated or obsolete. It is the goal of most academicians and medical professionals to improve health outcomes by achieving “meaningful and sustained improvements” overtime. [1] However we cannot always rely on…
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Going through a lot everything is too much right now I can’t understand my own writing and got sick so best not to share what’s complicated or hurting me won’t make things better let everyone get well on their own. This year has been shocking and painful and unbearable embarrassing and hurtful but I’m getting…
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Im not suicidal but Im in a lot of pain, not handling bullying well, I was well for an audition then I got pressure then didnt perform animated, so thats not God telling me not to be an actress the role is not inappropriate its suited for my body type and think that I deserve…
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The only way to combat pain is to rest, stay calm, not waste energy on extraneous or tertiary issues, is not worth your time what matters most is your health, take care of yourself and be good to others and hope that all else false into place, not over complicate issues troubleshooting problems or conspiracies…
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TO: US SUPREME COURT FROM: LESLIE A. FISCHMAN DATE: November 22, 2022 Re: What are excuses created for? (Letter #5) I am well aware that after there is an incident of gun violence, and being a supporter of Brady, to illustrate what I am doing online, to help curb the onset of mental illness, or anger misdirected toward me…
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It’s in your best interests to stay as far away on the outskirts of subjects unless you are directly affected, and this is what an entertainment campaign is all about, its about allowing people to think about things they enjoy putting together as a reference for appreciating the art of bringing life to life, and…
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In this Country you are innocent until proven wrong. I was watching the news today and saw street art of a hello kitty doctor on a city box. Excellent point, of course to me as related to me represents a series of thinkings that Im not sure all who don’t know me would see the…
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Prevention should be key to Criminal Justice reform. Not just a job of any society to cope with the repercussions of crime & violence in our communities here and online. The purpose for stating principles to any campaign would be to establish them in writing first, “principles on which the Guidelines” [1] are based, are…
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I think it’s hard to understand where I’m coming from in life to care, or to blog, or to share what I’m thinking. I think it’s hard to understand how a person with a diagnosis of bipolar and schizophrenia is still able to write and work. I think it’s hard to understand what I have…
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Written 11/20/22 before heard news of a shooting in Colorado. Since changed, will blog everyday. Working on getting a new therapist through cerebral. And focus on my health, going to study Udemy life coaching, read books, and stay healthy for two auditions I’m working on right now, maybe try a career in acting. Acceptance some…
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Written 11/19/22. Likes: 5,900 approximately. Okay I’m going to the ER (cancelled) to tell them my situation and be checked and hopefully go home since it seems like a reputation, sex, love, traffic ticket issue, with recent job loss. So I’m scared that’s all so that I’m given permission to stay home and continue doing…
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It’s hard to speak about what you cannot prove and what no one talks to you about but I’m sure everyone felt the weight of what happened and things ongoing known in common it will hurt to wonder if to blame what is happening in life for something bad happening I think just as I…
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When it comes to mental health everyone’s point of arrival will come in a different form recognized either by yourself or others which you will not always notice yourself, this is where believing in yourself helps, the better you get at recognizing how you become affected or changed the stronger you get at not allowing…
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Everything got suddenly tense again around me, my computer is not working and the L’oreal invite to apply is not working and cannot find the job on all casting website anymore. So I missed a big opportunity right there to prove myself. Having a sense of worth is about jobs, money, friends, and what you have in…
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TO: US SUPREME COURT FROM: LESLIE A. FISCHMAN DATE: November 15, 2022 Subject: My Philosophy in Combatting Violence, Being Liked Being a writer is not an easy sport, while other will feel a sense of relief and clarity from hearing what you have to say, they are not on pins and needles on the spot having to discuss how…
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What does it mean to allow for “open exchanges?” As a platform online, you have to be willing to share your progress as you go, and to allow for an open exchange of ideas to take part. What makes you an influencer is that through speaking, sharing, and writing, you allow for people to think…
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You’re always told to face your fears. To pick apart what’s at the heart of the matter take each issue and stack them like bricks and push them aside for now. All the things you wonder about, what frustrates you, what you don’t have control over, what’s bothering you, what’s eating away at you, and…
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I’m sorry that I reached out to this person on his account to talk and I’m sorry he decided to start exposing me on a Facebook page demanding photos then would show them which made me feel scared, uncomfortable, threatened, embarrassed, and disempowered. I was busy finishing my Masters in Law and was looking forward…
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Guys in your bermuda shorts and t-shirts, girls in your jeans and crop tops, I’m talking to all of you, now that we all dress the same, it’s next to impossible not for us to match up these days. We have finally gotten our looks down, that took a century of embracing our individual characteristics…
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Recent Facebook Page Post 11-09-22 It may not be your fight to fight. Sometimes in listening we learn how to help others not just ourselves. Make sure to always approach problems with a balanced heart, taking all sides into consideration. Sometimes we won’t come to understand things until we experience life for ourselves. There are…
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Spoke to my therapist the other day, need to focus on my health and get well or go to the hospital to rest and get well. I would rather stay home and rest, take more Geodone & Prozac. I acknowledge I’ve not been my usual professional self online writing in positive spirits and it’s just…
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Stay motivated to accomplish your goals in life and keep improving. There will always be moments when you’ll wonder whether you amount to any person of posotive influekce on others. Don’t be taken aback and lose track of what you’ve done well in life worried by what other people think. In order to follow your…
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So now that we all feel officially beat up in life over diagnoses and disease run rampant in the world, where to go from here? The day to day motivations for getting well and staying well are more important than any world history jokes over the devastations suffered, that will do us no good. Think…
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Title: The Power of Acceptance By: Leslie A. Fischman Written: 11-05-22 Introduction It’s hard to diagnose a situation when you don’t feel like yourself. The best way to be of service to others and offer wisdom and insight in tough times, is to start with yourself. Accept all diagnoses, and work from where you are.…
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The nights when everything is crystal clear are best, you can sense the energy of everyone around you, lighting up, that’s a day when you have appreciation for what’s around you not just stuck in your head about things. It feels good to be observant. The otherwise introverted state of being feeling watched or judged…
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The last week or so has been pretty intense, leading up to the Shorty Awards announcement of finalist, I’m assuming that I did not make the cut based upon my online presence leading up to the awards ceremony, and based upon my present health going into decline, but getting better today, I talked with my…
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I’ve decided not to share my thoughts or opinions anymore as to things on going in my life or share stories from my life anymore since that is not the solution to my current dilemmas and problems. Because I was diagnosed as schizophrenic with a law degree it no longer makes sense for me to…
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I’m sorry I was not feeling well and didn’t sound like myself when I was talking about being in pain and suicide I’m not suicidal I’m very proud of myself I walked for 3 hours and the causes for me feeling sick were probably because I compared not writing to suicide, meaning when you follow…
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10-31-22 Still not feeling well today walked (3) hours today going on the treadmill again working through physical illness suicide and also work through pain taking Tylenol and continue to write until I can maintain a positive spirit and not be too vocal over how I think who or why would hurt me if I…
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If it takes opening up to say something that can be said in a few sentences then it becomes unnecessary to share that’s what happens in upset it won’t make sense unless it can be summarized and if the summary is not helpful then I don’t have to share taken down. A story is only…
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It’s been a few months now can’t stay well keep getting sick physical pain headaches loss of sleep and difficulty moving. I’m doing my best to write still getting voices taunting it’s too painful … I need to get well to go back to work and may discontinue blogging since everything is so controversial and…
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When negotiating limits fail, is when people fail to feel good by things, when people feel sick by things, and when everything becomes about separating interests or using people as tools for blame, such as all in reference to, or all in condemnation of, while that may bring peace to those in control of themselves,…
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I may have a harder life than most spiritually and by reputation being a public figure read in the millions online, but that doesn’t make me a more powerful person physically or mentally, like all people, you are what you are and feel as you do in life, so live a good life, do good…
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I will discontinue changing or updating my website until I have the time and energy to grow in a way by website manage content update pages, will stop for now. Will continue learning on Udemy, as I improved speaking wise just to hear real voices talking to me, not left to unprovable voices talking about…
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It’s better to not matter than to matter to others be hurt then be treated as sick or at fault for your failures in life that is something men cannot be blamed for present past or future it’s your wellness so love yourself. People care until they don’t that’s upon upset dissatisfaction or unhappiness (in…
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First off, intense day yesterday but we should put more things down specific so it’s not like no one is keeping track of stuff we LOVE and why PROUD. Secondly, I have a second job interview tomorrow! Holy cow got a second interview for a Demand Letter Writing position. Be professional that would be so…
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If there is one thing I have learned from a diagnosis of schizophrenia, is to always be in control of your emotions in regards to topics, people, or places in life, explore life within reason, but not to highlight or address subjects without proper forethought, it’s something you’ll want to prepare yourself for in life,…
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Let people into your world, but not without directions. It seemed my initial thought to build a huge ad of myself online with directions to any potential suitor in life would help to explain myself better in life where I stand, what I think, all the conversations we used to never have in intimate relationships.…
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Have you ever gotten the feeling like you knew something bad would happen, seems like this is something common occurring in times of instability or lack of faith in trust whether in others, or by our own devices unable to see the positive in. It’s okay to have your reservations, like most risks in life…
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I’m not really affected by the trending anti-Semitism, because I choose not to care what is thought about me, because I already know what is thought of me. For example: (1) Is Privileged (2) Entitlement (3) Thinks Highly of Self (4) Inflated Ego (5) Thinks is Pretty (6) Thinks is Intelligent (7) Thinks Can Provide…
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They say that through sobriety you change, and although you wont notice in the immediate others will, and that’s part of the beauty of changing, or losing weight for example. The main goal is to stick to it, even on hard days, or if you feel like everything’s going to be reversed on you, it’s…
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There’s no shame in the waiting game. When you’re good and ready to hit the field running, make your jazzy Bumble or Tinder profile or any dating app you’re comfortable with you will be ready. Right now it’s about you, healing, forgiving, feeling lifted, thankful, happy, at peace, work on all those things before you…
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If you don’t know yourself by now, then there is no love that can remind you of all that you are and could be in life. Im lucky enough to have been given a second chance in life at love by good men I have met in my 30s, while abstaining from dating, and my…
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Bloggers function as stepping stones help you get through the day, concept, emotion, or annoying regressions in life probably best suited in dialogue for companionships and loving relationships, the simple chit chat we all love and adore to share, some don’t even get that much in life a pleasant hello or acknowledgement. Try to “maintain…
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Removed March 23, 2022. Just finished therapy. I’ve worked really hard to be around people again, date and have friends, and attend AA and NAMI. It’s important I continue on this path and work so that I don’t self harm or get suicidal it’s not okay to have nothing in life, to be ignored, or…
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Originally Published … 10/3/2020 Truth is established through writing, that is how sense is made, and without writing, that is how disagreement is made, upon assuming what is right to be based upon what is going well, and then assuming that what was not well, was not right at the time, that is that persons…
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Originally Published … 11/5/2019 Everyone values quality quiet time, in fact that is a right protected to you by the law, not free from unreasonable or negative thinking, but free from disturbances by others. Whether or not someone is mentally disturbed has not yet been factored into the equation, and or for what reasons, be…
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At some point I would disclose who I am, what Ive been through academically, and hospitalized 9x, and have done so, but now is not a point in my life, where I am strong enough having overcome a difficulty that I can sit back and rest on my laurels, that’s how respect is lost, when…
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Bear with me, in the middle of changing roles in life, from blogger, selfie queen, to paralegal and hopefully one day life coach, this probably means to make some changes to my Instagram Private @mymollydoll1985 which Im both proud of and hope to change my tone future, compared to how Ive dealt with upsets in…
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The benefit of being a reader is you get to know everything you know plus everything that I share, the benefits of sounding boards in life, you get to hear you better, but it’s not the same going the other direction toward me, in the event of negativity, I become withdrawn from what makes me…
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Everyone’s story is important, not one funnier than the next, or uninspiring, we all have had experiences in life that make us both unique and special. Recently a high horse was passed to me from Shorty Awards in the form of a nomination, and suddenly I felt thrust into the defensive, that took awhile to…
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Link: https://voloco.resonantcavity.com/applinks/creator?id=2816614 to “mymollydoll” by Leslie Fischman, writer for lesliefischman.com. 🌸
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It could be a superstitious joke about me having two drinks being arrested (2013) (I’m sorry that was unusual of me to go to Hollywood 3rd time there ever out) and that could code you into something about me being too much, fair statement, or could be about Moms Demand texting me to come in…
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To compensate the time energy and effort of others to worry or figure out for themselves a solution is provided in the form of not holding others liable for harms to me, which means either Im proper and respect how Im feeling fix it, or it becames a situation of make believe blame and insensitivity…
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OCDA appearance in-person (Day 15) #writing Why? Bc I’m speaking improperly bipolar instead of saying things in the clear responding to fights is not how to end a fight creates indifference so a positive attitude ok with what is versus seems combative that’s how you get mistreated as though should be treated with expectation of…
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I’ve not done anything to harm rapport with anyone I don’t need to be a bitch in common you torture and squander and label schizophrenic I’m cool with Barack I have severe mental health issues memory issues writing issues and don’t perform well under voices tortured who are not the CIA but people who try…
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Growing up privileged is not a full proof plan for success, like each one of us, its what we make due with the resources we are given in life. My Mom moved out when I was 5, and grew up without a Mom in my house, and sometimes stayed at her house. I saw my…
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Believe your limits in life, even if someone else doesn’t respect your boundaries. So much can go wrong once information enters the channel to the general public. There is assumption and in defiance of self “the public” reacts and responds, in a stand your ground way toward you, as though you are the wrongdoer to…
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In a male dominated world it makes sense that some of the best brand name concepts came from them. Write you’re own, here’s what I see: Nike: Just Do It Adidas: All day I dream about soccer. Snapchat: Based off a mistress texting service. Lipkits: Being given lip service. Monica: Sex scandal in troubled times.…
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Building a team is not a new concept to battling the goliath of reasons for which people decide to shoot others, we will never comprehend what is going through the mind of someone who chooses to take out their anger and anguish on another, I know that I would never understand, having not been in…
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A writers life is full of obstacles and personal hurdles and although it looks easy it may sound nice the process is grueling each step forward a new you is born, the confident undertone that carries you forward and it’s not easily discovered. You’ll notice starting out that you’ll be very slow going that’s heading…
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Recently have taken a break from work it’s been three weeks now, still in good standing, when they have work again for me will call. Meanwhile practicing applying for jobs again and getting views just going through the process helps build confidence moving forward when it’s time to grow. I applied to a life coaching…
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Yesterday was an emotional day, I think everyone is doing their best to address the situation online through “Missionary” and “Woman King” and “Amsterdam” why that happened to me was not provoked by me, I think when people are close to me if I talk to others then become possessive and take out their anger…
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Before you throw a fit and get upset remind yourself that things get better. I know it’s hard standing in your shoes to realize any dream in life you’ve felt worth investing your time and future in, but with enough practice you will get better, maybe not from the start, but you’ll get there, just…
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#laxcourthouse (Day 1) When you’re focusing on areas not for public display it’s not only not ongoing in my mind but could be a series of precursors being used to gear judgment toward me created by a group unauthorized to review my work privately as a result things do not come to an end or…
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Title: New issue bothering me Getting voices and not giving access or being forced to negotiate with anyone who makes me look bad causes me voices and dislike are toward me assuming is a result not by who I am what I’m doing private or publicly the turn off is that I cannot be accepted…
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A lot of good things have been happening for me lately, despite a recent incident of self-harm, I don’t know how that occurred, was probably getting voices and my feelings were hurt. That’s usually how it happens. But for the most part, I’ve been positive. Here’s what is going well for me: Here’s what is…
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Forgetfulness happens, you could be in over your head, you could be processing, you could be unprepared, you could be out of your league, you could have low self esteem, you could be in a down, you could be mid comeback, you could be overwhelmed, it happens. Multi-tasking is one step after being put together,…
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Usually on my day offs from writing to #toddspitzer, I need to stay productive, it could be to think about something, to review my work, to send higher quality commentary or phtotos or video, by now, its all about improvement, then there are symptoms, usually if Im not in a loving mood if Im getting…
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This is a difficult period in time, working with disability, I was surprised that I was still able to research and write motions, and come up with headings, and issues to argue on my own. My goal is to complete work with few errors, and be competent and continue to work independently. I think I’ve…
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I just found out that I got nominated for a Shorty Award in Best Special Project! The Shorty Awards honors the best of social media and digital, this is not my first time applying. When I started blogging I applied 2016 and was nominated for Best Integrated Campaign, at the time I did not have…
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I just completed a life coach certificate in REBT on Udemy, following completion of a certificate in CBT which is a component of REBT. So what is REBT? It stands for “Rational Emotive Behavior Theory,” and for someone like me, distinguishing between voices, my own, versus an auditory delusion, this seemed helpful for at least…
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Originally posted 09-29-22. First off, Im sorry there was a provocative fan site. I now realize that whats okay in private, can cause discomfort if put in public, and I would never do that to myself, if it meant I can’t work, I just graduated, so I was hoping for my life to begin again,…
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For example: My Campaign: “mymollydoll” on mymollydoll.com lesliefischman.com and #tags. Whenever you create an idea in your mind, it’s to make things work in your mind, and sometimes our ideas bring us closer to our goals, and sometimes we have to make amendments to the rules or ideas we set for ourselves moving forward. Anytime…
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We’ve all been there those moments when you hold still waiting for a negative feeling or series of thoughts to leave your body, and sometimes holding still doesn’t work. We’ve tried meditation, we’ve tried writing, we’ve tried physical activity. How can we learn to just let go when the feelings arising from a given event…
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Where you are in life you deserve to be. Maybe it’s that people don’t think that I deserve to be a successful writer and blogger online, with the potential to publish a book for a fee, or work as a trained life coach for a fee, at some point in the future. It probably has…
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Originally posted 09-24-22. I used to actually say out loud “If you don’t like my Country then get the F out.” That’s how much I love my Country. Then there are parts of you misrepresented by others, and I don’t think that I’ve ever been that way to my family and friends. Sure it’s uncomfortable…
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One day everything will settle, things will be good enough, and everyone will have had the opportunity to go backwards in life as many times as needed until they assemble the perfect solution to their discord there are always things to blame in life for your feelings, unfortunately the past had no better path in…
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There’s one thing you can’t rely on a worse condition to explain or rationalize what has been there’s bound to be pieces missing. Getting docked points for accuracy and breadth is about what you know and speak of or leave out there will always be higher bases for thinking in the positive. Seems like a…
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I never considered myself anti-social growing up and not in law school, but to accommodate my then boyfriend, who preferred that I did not hang out with people, trying to convince me that Im better than that, same with medical treatments, told to ignore who is harming me, not make a big deal out of…
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Originally posted 09-17-22. Good News, can still put together a research paper and understand laws and how to apply what I learn to issues specific to this case fairly. Here please read this: “Writing Sample” By: Leslie A. Fischman mymollydoll w/copyright
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There’s nothing in life that you can’t learn for yourself that can only be taught by another. Relying too much on others to live life to talk about life, does not allow you to have the confidence to experience life for yourself, without fear and with compassion for your learning curves in life. Solutions are…
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Taking a break from #socialmedia for a few days to focus on going back to work tomorrow I have an interview tomorrow. Not to make things urgent or wrong with my #socialmedia -I think discussing broken relationships or anything medical cannot be explained well from me but I’m sure there is plenty of explanation from…
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In different periods in life, you will have different needs, and more or less time for discussing things that you do not feel need discussion. In times of need its important to be heard and to be supported, if you have friends they will be sure to reinforce that you are a good person, worthy…
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Scrolling through pictures today found a top I haven’t worn in awhile, it becomes a game of “find it” thereafter, searching every box, folding every article of clothing in my room, and sorting, and by the end I’ve searched everything twice and by the end the third search of what’s hanging found it, what I…
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When it comes to feeling good, no matter how it occurs, you must be doing something well, either mentally or physically, not worried about outside pressures, in your own skin, being yourself, and able, competent. That’s feeling good in my mind. It’s when nothing bothers you and you can exist, without interference from other people…
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Planning ahead gives you confidence and direction in life. [1] So what should we do when we lose inspiration? I was thinking about this today, how difficult it is for some to hear what they want or need to hear and how easily our feelings are hurt these days. This is how talking yourself through…
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I was lucky enough to hear of Todd Spitzer’s name on NBC before driving to a Treatment Facility for Mental Health issues (it’s dual diagnosis and also a Rehab) I went to a house instead of UCLA because they did not have any bed’s available. I usually go to the hospital when I’m not feeling…
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What does a focus on mental health teach you, it’s not just to get your mind off others things to be told to focus on yourself but it serves a purpose for preparing you in advance in case things come up to not be affected by. The more in control you are of your own…
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Eventually we come to our senses and realize that it’s just a bad day, maybe the morning after being upset or anxious, or after a bad interaction or demonstration of self or thinking, and that’s okay, we are allowed to have bad days, when things are just not right, and have lost our sense of…
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Something psychiatry can’t help you with is how you look or what people think of you, it’s the reverse feeling of empowerment to be situated worse off in life or convinced that you have a debilitating disease that cannot be overcome. It doesn’t make sense to me how I can write and do well through…
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Before you question the positives and start gaslighting [1] and blaming or drawing negative attentions toward others, focus on your confidence, that’s a gift that no one can take away from you, whether you think another is wrong, whether you think what you’re doing is right, or whether you believe your actions will carry conversations…
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In the aftermath of any battle, we may find ourselves picking up the pieces and reflecting on what has transpired. It may be hard to remove things from memory but there are ways to overcome your anguish, and finally let your defensive walls down again. It can be stressful keeping up walls, and find your…
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One of the best feelings about feeling good, is having your sense of predictability back, able to read yourself, and see clear. It seems like we lose the back of our minds when emotions are heightened and tensions are running rampant with negative thoughts and feelings about ourselves and where we see ourselves at the…
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One of the first things I learned about myself moving forward is about being eligible to work for any type of victim services, so that was a good point Greg Gutfield, that it would be ridiculous to have someone like “OJ do victim services.” Whether I relate to that or am offended by that as…
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Originally Published 06-23-22 To be written at #laxcourthouse protesting a recent situation being harassed by someone pretending to be #toddspitzer and a publicist I don’t need love from random people who are important in other worlds. I’ve had a good life and met wonderful people. I don’t need to be exposed made to look stupid…
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Originally Published 08-14-22 Not handling things well today, it seems like things can be going well and things can still not turn out right, not with your haters, not with your followers, there always seems to be a dumbfounded wonder over my health, even when Im doing my best. We’re not perfect. Which makes me…
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Please Note: To be published @ level 21 (04-30-22) According to psychologytoday.com, feeling smart has been described as the “the logic in emotion and the emotion in logic.” [1] Eyal Winter, author of “Feeling Smart,” is an advocate for our ability to read into “our emotions [that] serve us, and further our interests,” and lends…
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Visiting OCDA Office, this is day 2, of visiting, I think I have stopped by twice before, so this may be my 4th or 5th time visiting the office, just sitting outside, Ive been walked into the building once to talk to a police officer at the front desk. Getting your life back post punishment is difficult,…
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Feeling good and being apart of is a part of life, whether you understand the meaning behind your feelings or experiences be able to go about life as you are, without feeling threatened by others. A lot of life is about confidences, like going to a Laker Game, or being out in public, its not…
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Removed Post Excerpt from an upcoming article in Level 21 Magazine (my writing today affected by calling the detective to update him on the hate website of misinformation): “Game Theory is “the study of interactive decisions,” describing our interactions as humans, social creatures, “who interact with their environments.” This theory “enables us to understand the…
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In order to help others you must first learn how to help yourself and get through your own problems in life, and I think I have managed just that. Everything else in life is more about how you make people feel and how many people get along with you, in order for things to go…
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Originally Published 07/28/22. I try to be a movie buff, I thought with #directTV I was all caught up, then I got Apple TV and realized that there are so many movies I have not seen and started clicking “save to my stuff” on Hulu. A very special person just re-entered my life and it’s…
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Good day yesterday bad day today too much attachment to things and not focused on being present allowing myself to get hurt by how I’m speaking in private then how I speak in public is viewed as either trying hard in a sincere or not sincere way then doing well how does that demonstrate prevention…
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Written at #laxcourthouse (Day 1) … I read two great articles today in part, one on narcissism [1] and the other on work productivity and blame [2], searching “creating problems.” What resonated with me were the themes of being difficult or unforgiving and the time wasted in trying to repair disconnect that either you contribute…
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I just got back from my AA meeting home group I’ve been attending for years now intermittently, where I did my 90 meetings in 90 days two meetings a day, when you’re starting life over get started in a supervised direction in life, I guess they were the ones with the wisdom to give us…
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By the time you’ve made it through your darkest hour and light is beginning to shine back into your life don’t get ahead of yourself by putting too much pressure on yourself or others, the expectation of you is high however your expectations of others should not enter your mind, who you need to focus…
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I think everyone’s going through a difficult time from what I’ve heard regarding people I know from my life or who know people I know and I’m sure it’s not just my social circles in life who feel the pressure and I’ve tried to understand it myself. So the main point of sharing my story…
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Without a job life is difficult, hard to get through the day and keep busy stay motivated, and hard to talk to others when you are not made to be proud of yourself, and it doesn’t get easier with a job, the better you feel the worse the judgment, no one ever really feels sorry…
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Today is a solemn day in entertainment news, following the death of Olivia Newton-John, after losing her battle with Breast Cancer. For those of us who were moved by her performances past, and grew up in the years that the film “Grease” inspired us all to go after our dreams and believe in the possibility…
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There’s no guaranteed route to respect, but there are ways to improve upon your chances for it. This is probably why self-improvement is such a hot topic. Figuring out what your weaknesses are and owning up to them, is one way to recognize that you are not everything you want to be and not everything…
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Once your troubles leave you you’ll have time to think more, but it’s the time period adjusting that can feel the most troublesome and time consuming, like getting yourself out of any rut in life, whether its addiction, a bad breakup, a state of paranoia, coming off a drug or alcohol, the recovery time is…
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Everything either flips when you do, out of control (booted in or booted out from acknowledgement and consideration, that’s your choice to have everyone support you or turn on you by discomforts), Or everything’s well balanced settling (if you mention concerns & write without inducing trauma and reduce conflict by acknowledgement of an unstated grievance…
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I just recognized what it is that’s discomforting, so although I may be presently going through something difficult and feel obligated to disclose that’s a piece of information that heightens tension meaning to not be confident in me makes other people feel bad or sad and that’s not purposeful of me to make others feel…
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If prayer doesn’t work for you, then think what will help you spiritually get through what you are going through and come out the other end, feeling like a better person as a result of having your experiences in life. Nothing lasts forever, including the painful moments, so in your distress, instead of worrying and…
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If it’s been awhile since you last smiled or laughed then you would be on board with my tone in life, which is not humanly possible to get through that much seriousness in life, and not lighten up as you get through the hard parts, and that’s apart of being human. We can’t all be…
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Sometimes in trying to get help we are harmed or put in harms way, anyone else not knowing what you are up to, feel so threatened by you opening up to the police or to a government official. There are no sides in life to be disrupted when you choose to confide in someone that…
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When something good happens works just the same as when something bad happens, it’s a feeling that occurs over time, which is why you are reminded to be consistent if you want to be successful. Everything adds up. I was thinking this while being detained outside #toddspitzer’s house for more than hour talking to police,…
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To be doing well doesn’t mean that you are clear of not struggling or facing hardship in life or difficulty of opinion or interpretation of you, and that’s the problem with getting in trouble, or looking troubled (mental health issues) as a smoker or someone who is obese and not pretty to be viewed as…
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For anyone in need of some encouragement and feeling defeated this post is for you. It’s okay to be vulnerable I know we don’t enjoy the feeling of feeling manipulated or changed from our regular selves normal and put together but don’t fret. We all go through periods of nervous anguish in difficulty and I…
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Good advice is hard to come by, you won’t always hear what you want to hear when the troubles you face are of your own making, this is true of addiction, or making mistakes when it comes to being close to wrong people, or run the risk exposing yourself to others, not all people can…
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Everyone has different anxieties in life, and now more so than before, this seems to be the present issue. Whenever there is a system of thinking which is working for others, to refer to a person, to shine light, or make fun, or to assemble with the intent to prevent mental health issues, that is…
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It’s common for unhappy people to deflect blame for situations they feel personally insulted by as though they have been misrepresented. You are only misrepresented by the people you trust who in turn let you down or fail to meet the mark throw you under the bus or for excuse of their own guilts about…
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Not feeling well can’t sleep taking a break from blogging being harassed receiving text messages non stop insulting me criticizing me and calling me names and pretending to be Todd another moment well ruined to be made to look stupid, if this continues I don’t have the blog. And reserve space online for people who…
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“Someone pretended to be him. Checked in also stated concerns regarding my identity and recent gun violence make sure my identity is not being used to coordinate or influence beliefs on how things happen or why suggest overtly that it’s my fault or that my identity is known in a way not accepted everyone knows…
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I know it’s not a comfortable subject prevention and issues following an incident but I think it’s in reviewing our progress that things get better in terms of what thoughts we allow to supersede our best judgments in life not to allow the thinkings of others to persuade or condemn one another as being responsible…
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1. No one thinking your funny. 2. Being prescribed a new med. 3. Getting a new diagnosis. 4. Having great sex and never hearing from them, until weeks or months later. 5. Suddenly sober. 6. Suddenly normal again. 7. Pissed off and no one responding to you. 8. Recognizing there is no game and building…
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I don’t have to be beautiful for anyone that’s not what blogging and recording my health by selfie is about it’s about making improvements and working on yourself, focusing less on others, and the task at hand whatever that may be. You can only integrate and work alongside others and share common graces, encouragement, pride,…
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You can’t really toot your horn in this business unless people allow you to, a career in writing teaches you to aim for delayed gratification rather than seek immediate results. As a writer you are feeding off your own energy in life, that’s what gives life to new ideas, and your inner genius, which you…
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I’ve noticed that the tension has decreased and people are going back to living freely again, although there is much to worry about in the news, I think overall we are coping better having had these discussions whether or not there are actual people commenting and replying to my posts, I know that I get…
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If you have ever taken the time to explore a skill that you want to improve upon, and finally get comfortable doing something that you enjoy doing, you eventually learn a lot about yourself, and also get a first hand window into what others may go through in trying to gather their thoughts and express…
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One of the scariest facts about life is death, and while you may not encounter the feeling or have been exposed first hand to the experience of dying, Im sure it is something that you have feared before, and especially now with the news of its happening, its not reassuring to hear that there are…
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Once the heavy load is lifted you’ll feel tired but awake it’s like spiritually ending up at a completion point with ample time ahead to get going again, that’s recovery you process experience a wide range of emotions and thoughts and find your place again in life, the journey is always tough what to remember…
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Yellows the Name In different places, but not far a welcomed ear At last, the wankering sound of voices has stopped The issue collided with the everpresent satisfaction A job well done indeed as though your soul hires Those who remind you by doubt and question Too close to be considered enemies, maybe just angry…
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This week went by fast, and ended in some turbulence on my behalf and Im sorry for that especially on Instagram I get all caught up in sending a message, and should probably spend more time putting it together, something that I need to work on and typos in messenger, maybe use my phone less.…
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I know we’re not English, but there was a great ceremony this morning in honor of the Queen of Great Britain, Queen Elizabeth II, the leader of the United Kingdom since 1952. Similar to the United States, is the lack of enthusiasm from the younger generations for the Monarchy, same goes for the US, in terms of…
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There are different kinds of problems to have in life, problems within yourself, problems with other people, problems that others have about you, and problems that you can’t let go of, they can be problems present, past, or ongoing, what matters most is your health. Problems are the kind of thing that are attached to…
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This is not an easy time for most people. Usually when something traumatizing happens it brings up the last time you were put in a position and made to feel that way, whether its through reminders, another devastation, a loss, a breakup, a failure, when things become difficult for us to manage whether that’s thoughts…
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The answer to your problems is not always clear it’s through discussion of your issues in therapy or psychiatry that you are able to manage your symptoms better. That doesn’t mean that you still can’t get tripped up or bothered by things including the issues and actions of others. At best make sense if your…
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Aside from what’s been going on recently in the news, I have been doing well, but it’s never easy to hear the news especially when it comes to gun violence it’s something that has always traumatized me. When life gets tough you’re either someone who stops in their tracks frozen or you do your best…
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It’s not been an easy month, I’m sure not for most of us, so if there’s any way I can better be of service let me know. Usually when I’m not feeling well I distance myself, around right about now I get headaches, so maybe that’s my instincts telling me to write anyways and get…
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For example, a solution or a problem, can work in a manufactured way that reflects an exposure or interaction that gets ingrained, and then plays a role in the direction of your choices moving forward, either affecting where you end up, how you are picked or what and to whom your attentions are drawn to,…
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It’s true that we can become so obsessed with our own thoughts that we will speak to scenarios created in our minds, ingrained in our memories, and wind up where, exactly to the feelings we describe, where is the growth in that? Memory needs no exact science to decipher exactly where a feeling came from…
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Not being happy with me causes me voices when I need to be alone or when people are upset with me that hurts my head so if I’m stable quiet I’m not allowed meditation time to space out when I space out I’m interrupted or when I’m feeling good I’m interrupted. It’s when I’m calm…
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I’m not sure when and why this happens to me to write and write speak effectively then all of a sudden start discussion off topic, I’m sure that’s the schizophrenic looking part of my writing anything short stated or not without enough explanation and detail, you know sometimes the hardest things to say or figure…
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A long time, there is no easy road, quick route, or short cut, you either are willing to wait with enthusiasm and make it to that point of comfort with someone or you don’t meet the mark, and sometimes we learn this early on, and sometimes we find out the hard way not measuring up.…
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Getting a job doesn’t necessarily mean that things are fine and dandy, this is just the beginning of a new uphill climb, much like blogging was for me, I suppose it’s something you get better at overtime, except this time I’m on meds for schizophrenia so it makes things that much more challenging to get…
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There will always be times in life, where you will be made to adjust, and it won’t matter where you are in life, what you have, or where you’re headed, life tends to just come to a stop, and we have all been there, not sure of ourselves or what to do. This is what…
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Sorry about today over posting. Think I’m just going through a lot thinking trying to keep busy and stay out of trouble or controversy, that it all came to the surface every fear or thing I noticed and responded to and wondered about the same what are the causes for suicide first and foremost I…
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To me it does no good to get help when someone has a problem with me, because then they attack me more, such as in my present situation for the past two years since August 2020 when I discontinued talking to someone who became angry with me after I experienced identity theft. When talking to…
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There’s a simple phrase “don’t say anything that you wouldn’t want to be said to you.” This is to not only not hurt other peoples feelings good or bad towards you, but also not in the reverse feed lines to anyone who then takes your shoes, and then treats you as though you feel that…
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While you are not told what the risks are to sharing online, there have been few less discussed in detail, such as what is being done with the information you share online in social media, and in general online, by email and online storage options. We all have the privilege to share as we go,…
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While my career does not look as successful as most people in the legal profession, I have done my best to make due with what degrees I do have, and whatever placements I have been offered. I just started scanning through Youtubes at my new job, “Level21 Magazine” and found a video on Miss USA…
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Need to take a break from blogging, limit posting to once a week if I have time to. I think being myself and speaking openly in a positive way is great when I’m doing well but not if I fall off balance or get sick from bullying and harassment. I’m going through a lot recently…
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I was told to “always be a lady,” its whats been recommended in a quote by Justice Ginsberg, and I think Im forgetting to represent myself well, in the event I am made upset, hurt feelings, or aggravated, it can bring out the worst in you, more masculine traits. One of the main points of…
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Maybe its not understood when someone stops having sex, its to avoid STDs and to avoid being used, and end up not feeling good upon attachment and loss of companionships, which is sex without commitment, in a casual relationship, the future of your endeavor is not known, you can become attached emotionally or physically, and…
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For the most part I have improved, it’s better to be a man of your word than to be made out to be something that you’re not and that probably occurred because I wrote a book, I was doing well at the time I wrote my book, despite fires and jobs and any controversy with…
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Psychosis is a feeling that you get through it can describe an emotionally unmanageable position in which you feel isolated or alone the terms of the environment around you hectic chaotic as though something is happening to you that you cannot control … when things are out of control that’s when you have to keep…
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Sometimes I think the message gets lost or the tone, am always doing my best to be clear spoken and clear headed and share exactly where I’m at in life in writing, physical health updates, and mental health issues via CBT thought diary. I think for a time it was okay to speak my mind…
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*This post was removed because then I start talking to him not my audience the person who upset me so when you read it and it doesn’t apply to you upsets the wrong people when it’s intended to clarify to who hurt me that I don’t wish to help him benefit reading my work if…
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There’s a general dislike that occurs whenever a system of understanding is hurt to not allow for mistakes in thinking or to be judged as someone trying to assemble a poor thought on a history in a way to draw attention to things or circumstances not to enliven the spirits of criminal conduct behavior and…
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August 29, 2020 (not published) Even if no one respects yourself respect yourself enough to not behave in private in any way that if the world were watching you’d want them to think of you any differently. Part of feeling good and loving life is feeling good about yourself one of two equal parts to…
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Creating a safe place is not easy not in private and not in public you’ll reach a point in your recovery when you feel tested usually in transitions or when trying to prove your sanity and stability that’s the problem with disclosing where you have been it’s not believed until it’s seen and so it’s…
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If you have not lived life long enough to experience rejection and cold shoulders then maybe this is not the blog for you not to cloud your perception of “people” in general that’s not my intent to discuss me and my views and “people” in general, when people say people that’s just excuse for putting…
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For the first half of my life I was always one of the most popular girls in school, in elementary school, high school, and college. I never had social problems, was not prescribed any medications, and did not go to therapy or group therapy, I didn’t have problems until college, that’s when I started dating…
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When things get hectic emotionally, its okay to pause, and to take a break, whether that involves more sleep, meditation, therapy, support group meetings, do what you need to do to get back center. Even when you are functioning at your best, it is true that things can become intense or stressful, even if everything…
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Recently back to blogging weekly consistently it’s been about a year since I have felt like myself and that took a lot of hard work on my end to improve and grow out of old mistakes, liking the wrong people, and being taken advantage of. There’s a time and a place for being loving and…
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As a public figure in a market saturated with inappropriate humor, you can’t help but be cautious when it comes to how you are perceived in your individual reality absent other more notable figures, to an outsider it becomes a game of comparison, the real deal versus the poser and so the insults fly. Either…
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We are always told this especially on days when things finally cool down and people are at ease getting our energy back planning for the road ahead don’t pile on too much of the past that’s baggage you’re better off without store it save it remember it but in order to learn more and expand…
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Not being hot is not delusional, theres a perfectly sound explanation for how I got this way and to explain what I went through when trying to assemble a likeable campaign against gun violence which was needed at this time, because everyone was too scared to broach the subject, it shouldn’t take a continued problem…
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Recently affected by the negative press that my pen pal #toddspitzer is receiving, regarding his remarks, if he did not intend to hurt anyone by that commentary then no offense should be taken, on the other hand, negative attention should not be provoked on the basis of who he is talking to also, I don’t…
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If its something that’s bothering you about me, what makes me so unique, or workable compared to other bloggers, when it comes to distant collaborations and themes in general being followed in distant communication to one another through blogging, is that I have earned the space that I keep, starting with nothing, just a lot…
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When it comes to love don’t deny your feelings, you could be causing more harm than good in avoidance of facing what baffles you, challenges you, or forces you to look at yourself, asking yourself where do I need to improve? Often times, if you’re like me, we don’t feel validated by the whole experience,…
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1. Attended treatment for schizophrenia. 2. Managed symptoms submitting to treatments and new medications for schizophrenia. 3. Graduated from law school and completed coursework for my masters in law, despite not earning my JD to go on to take the bar exam. 4. Was hospitalized 9x to treat bipolar, disorientation, delusion, and feeling suicidal. 5.…
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Coming up with a system that works for you will be key to your productivity and happiness, Im most happy when I am sticking to a system or a routine that guarantees to flip my mood around or turn a bad day into a good day, like yesterday, suddenly frozen, no thoughts, little writing, and…
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Still overcoming symptoms, (voices), but its getting better each day, the voices become more and more faint, its not shouting in my head, and limited to just hearing people talking about me, trying to figure me out, or guess whats wrong with me. Im assuming that if you are not feeling well, or in a…
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There’s always a way of looking at things, don’t be defeated by your thoughts. When going through a hard time its easy to be discouraged, they also remind us in AA not to be discouraged, the times may be tough, but you can get through this. According to oprahdaily.com, “The key, though, is how we handle…
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You know that feeling when you get in trouble, or when you are meant to feel embarrassed or ashamed, Im s