• Guest Blogger: Trish Saemann ….

    Guest Blogger: Trish Saemann ….

    I’m Trish Saemann, a marketing visionary with over two decades of experience, recognized by Forbes and Inc., and founder of GoBeyond SEO. I’ve authored a book that provides a revolutionary framework for entrepreneurs to attract and retain high-quality clients, transforming their businesses. I’m reaching out with the hope that the book be reviewed on mymollydoll….

  • Guest Blogger: Chad Caruso ….

    Guest Blogger: Chad Caruso ….

    I’m Chad Caruso, a content creator and skateboarder who recently set a Guinness World Record by skating solo across America. I’ve compiled a book featuring over 200 photos and stories from this epic journey, offering a unique perspective on resilience, recovery, and the soul of America through the lens of skateboarding. I’m reaching out to…

  • Guest Blogger: Joan Palmiter Bajorek ….

    Guest Blogger: Joan Palmiter Bajorek ….

    My name is Joan Palmiter Bajorek and I’m publishing a book with Wiley that might be of interest to your readers. I’m honored to request that the book be reviewed on mymollydoll. 50% of Americans are experiencing layoff anxiety (HBR). I have been in 2 large scale layoffs myself and been resilient via entrepreneurship by…

  • Guest Blogger: Marko Petrovic ….

    Guest Blogger: Marko Petrovic ….

    I’m Marko Petrovic, a decade-long explorer of ancient rites and sacred traditions, now sharing my wisdom through a book. It’s a raw, unfiltered journey into the unknown, unlocking deep transformation through 22 real-life stories. I’m delighted to request that the book be reviewed on mymollydoll. Soul Path isn’t another self-help book – it’s an open…

  • Guest Blogger: Asaf Zamir ….

    Guest Blogger: Asaf Zamir ….

    I’m Asaf Zamir, a seasoned CTO and tech consultant with a global work experience spanning three continents. I’ve penned a book that unveils how technical blogging can be a game-changer in accelerating your tech career. I’m reaching out to request that the book be reviewed on mymollydoll. In “From Coder to CTO: The Power of…

  • Guest Blogger: Mandy Parrey ….

    Guest Blogger: Mandy Parrey ….

    I’m Mandy Parrey of Aber Stoat Publishing, and we have two fantastic new books covering how to enrich life after 50, as well as tarot reading. I’m delighted to request that the book be reviewed on mymollydoll. “Enrich Your Life: Top Hobbies for Men Over 50” is a comprehensive guide that invites you to redefine…

  • Guest Blogger: Phoenix Bloom ….

    Guest Blogger: Phoenix Bloom ….

    I’m Phoenix Bloom, a passionate author dedicated to personal growth and positivity. I’ve written a transformative guide that provides practical strategies for cultivating a positive mindset and unlocking resilience and happiness. I’m delighted to request that the book be reviewed on mymollydoll. In “Having a Positive Thinking Mindset: Unlocking Resilience and Happiness,” author Phoenix Bloom…

  • Go Easy on Yourself ….

    Go Easy on Yourself ….

    It’s almost been a month since I was hospitalized, and still recovering. I’ve been detoxing off of adderrall, and also not drinking, and starting to feel better. No voices! Finally get my peace and quiet, can just breathe and listen to silence, it’s been so peaceful and I am so grateful for my newfound sense…

  • For Example: Leonardo DiCaprio ….

    For Example: Leonardo DiCaprio ….

    For example, had I not carried myself well online, I would not be able to get a job, whether or not anyone knows who I am, no matter how simplified a story got, I think getting a job, shows that we are in more similar places in life, than we are different. Just as I…

  • This is Support and Encouragement for Everyone ……

    This is Support and Encouragement for Everyone ……

    I think being honest about voices helps, I think I was punished for managing a series issue privately, and no contacts period provided solution for voices, no method of writing, calling for help, or messages, and Im sure that is not always my fault, or because of meds, there will always be a reason for…

  • After What Happened to Me …..

    After What Happened to Me …..

    Battling Voices, Using Meds, to Report Voices, and Overcome Being Given a Hard Time about my recent Medical Care, is no ones emergency, there is no explanation required, I am living sober and doing my best and dont deserve to be hurt, and have not hurt anyone, and I am not alive to pretend I…

  • Re: The Loss of Lisa Marie Presley ….

    Re: The Loss of Lisa Marie Presley ….

    Re: The controversial baseball scene and continued punishment of no one talking to me and everyone talking to eachother means it’s okay to make decisions is reflective of an issue not identified by me or make fun of my understanding of mental health or accuse my writing of being preferential or punishing it’s clear what…

  • Texts to Justice Sotomayor …

    Texts to Justice Sotomayor …

    So far grateful for ability not waste adderrall by accident (overdose, too much makes me suicidal). I didn’t need that much to get exactly to concerns but important I say stuff in a way that doesn’t concern and doesn’t allow myself to disappear or love disabled I have to know this is my job have…

  • These are Not Preventable ….

    These are Not Preventable ….

    These are Not Preventable Disasters I’m accused practicing mantras careful of not being mean at no later point in time someone sick or worse off trying to blame someone no one sees a bad concerned about the wrong the things of have an offensive confidence trying to appear innocent someone who didn’t fight voices after…

  • I Think Right Now is About Focusing on Myself ….

    I Think Right Now is About Focusing on Myself ….

    Since being hospitalized, Ive done my best to support, and empower, not be blamed, not blame others, speak proper, and be a positive influence on mental health and figuring out life, finding love and jobs and being accepted for who you are, even if I was not loved, or accepted being myself. Right now I…

  • Email to SCOTUS 01-27-25:

    Email to SCOTUS 01-27-25:

    Still not feeling well, and broke my ankle need to see a doctor. Still getting voices, even after being off meds not blogging, and briefly writing something reassuring as to my health, did not hurt myself on purpose, with no mention of voices. Which by this time since 1-21-25 writing before the ICU, am still doing my best to…

  • About the Song Houdini and Thrive, Re: Losses ….

    About the Song Houdini and Thrive, Re: Losses ….

    For continued investigation and analysis: The story behind the song a rapper (teacher I disclosed who I know famous not anyone I spoke to without permission or a person comfortable here DM but not there encouraged to share in group a discontinued conversation). I did my best when I got a job everyone was so…

  • I’m Not a Loser ….

    I’m Not a Loser ….

    I am not doing what is in my best interests to not respond, but its also not worth dying over, trying to figure out why. I think if you don’t know you don’t appreciate my personality and gifts in life, or don’t value my book writing or story, it is going to be hard to…

  • Mental Health is a Serious Subject ….

    Mental Health is a Serious Subject ….

    When you think of mental health, hopefully after hearing from me, you have some respect for people who endure mental health issues, along all scales in life, some more severe than others. I think if you are concerned as to how my mental health or blog relates to relevancy to President Trump being shot, and…

  • Take Your Anger to Court ….

    I don’t need to photo love anyone if I get voices and you call me delusional I work hard voices prevented or accuse me of having a disease with no cure make fun of my system it’s clear school shootings and assassination attempts can be prevented whether I write or not in control emailing helping…

  • You Know What’s Too Late ….

    You Know What’s Too Late ….

    Please Note: to do remake the cards to include the word “attempt” sorry for the rush. If voices arent real and self-harm is some kind of repeated pattern of a joke or my inability to deal with emotions, or hurt, or insult, then so be it, then Im not clearly winning, and its too late…

  • Accept for There to Be No Solution …..

    At this point by my age 39, it doesn’t matter how I was known and helped or what my analytics are or what jobs and money is for, or what living home means, what matters most is do I comprehend what death means and in what ways have losses occurred that Im being accused of…

  • I Need to Be Alone ….

    I Need to Be Alone ….

    I think Ive done my part to help others, also something that went wrong before President Trump was shot was giving up, or feeling sick to the point of giving up, I don’t really think that alcohol matters in terms of respects or meetings can help past the point of voices, is something that I…

  • Important Statement (con’d) ….

    Important Statement (con’d) ….

    Before Trump was shot I made every effort to write review and sort all my posts by category counted 95 posts mentioning gun violence prevention and on my way a homeless person kicked my car made faces at me and shouted him to tell him that’s not okay by the time I arrived to OC…

  • Being Responsive ….

    Being Responsive ….

    Please review the following submissions following my visit to the LAPD station in West Los Angeles, located in my jurisdiction, following confrontation by a previous threat accusing me of having ill feelings toward him, and reported to the LAPD what he said, as a result of my condition, not feeling well, and my inability to…

  • Sexuality and Anger ….

    Sexuality and Anger ….

    I did my best to address asexuality or “masturbation” on my researchforhate.com website, providing support to those who choose to abstain, not be required to disclose whether or not they touch themselves, be exposed, or outted, or discriminated based on their sexuality. So much about being a blogger, keeping neat, is exactly for that purpose,…

  • I Don’t Know What Happened ….

    I Don’t Know What Happened ….

    08-30-24 Going through something personal right now, just need to talk to the Sheriff and figure out whats happening and why. While editing my website I noticed someone downloading and stealing content, and when I tried to change my password and remove my website from my jetpack, my website was removed from my account entirely,…

  • Sober for Years …..

    Sober for Years …..

    I was sober for years have been treated attended rehabs did my best to question missing a job in DC as a once in a lifetime experience or Witken Award ….. Note even if I get hurt sent down no one can take away my sense of doing the right thing and naturally can’t tell…

  • How My Fair Effort Unrecognized as Solution ….

    How My Fair Effort Unrecognized as Solution ….

    In the end I have no solution for being harmed or experiencing actual mental difficulty or instability you accuse guilt school shooting photo type or producing photos for the webcam person rape or what makes me stupid in the end if the issue is voices that cannot be solved talking to anyone that no person…

  • Being Normal is a Privilege ….

    Being Normal is a Privilege ….

    The Judge gambled by asking for my medical records persist on threat and challenge me on whether I’m cool or not go ahead – know who I was I didn’t not love myself success acquired by government uses of the my mean I’m a disease beating death joke I never fucking lied go ahead try…

  • I Would Never Work Hard Make Light ….

    I Would Never Work Hard Make Light ….

    I Would Never Work Hard to Live Life a Disability Threat or Make Light or Defend myself at anyone point in time even if demanded by City Attorney punishment of my live scan form or accuse me of lack of memory or non disclosure of avoidance or guilt or make fun of a confrontation in…

  • Right to Rise Above Fight for my Life Be Alone ….

    So you saw me rise above not hurt forced me to look hurt me injured me used voices revisit terms I don’t say make of issue a life long condition or suffering new make fun of my medical records who I’m connected to distrust me ….. I worked hard to be speak well it’s not…

  • Voices Stories ….

    Voices Stories ….

    Heard voices (after women disappeared). Wrote a quote about hearing voices. Dated broke up campaigned got sick HPV. It was vaccinated for HPV test frequently. Someone black had sex with me at work when I told him crying that I loved my boss and lost my job and reported to police that someone had sex…

  • About Words ….

    About Words ….

    Eventually God willing we reach a point of absolute isolation and separation create an indestructible space between me and everyone. Whoever I was I now understand is the person motivated to be destroyed and any moment of wellness or achievement a prompt to attack me, and that’s how pitiful life is in terms of staying…

  • Please Trust …

    Please Trust …

    When I say I quit I’m going to stay in my room my for the rest of my life refuse public appearances jog on a treadmill and my neighbors called the sheriffs jumping out of my chair lunging at the balcony saying I’m gonna fucking jump off the balcony. Means voices isn’t a joke or…

  • Battling Voices in Private ….

    (Don’t publish) Battling Voices in Private overcoming dysfunction changed spoke proper then suicidal (that’s how life works when people hate you and there is nothing you can do to prevent voices means I’m at what stage in life making up a crisis or someone online unhelpful) ….. There’s no cure for voices it’s a deadly…

  • It’s Not Important ….

    It’s Not Important ….

    It’s Not Important for anyone to talk to me, I do not respond poorly anyone who shares a story pushed past a limit to compare, it’s not a game voices however I sound is the solution whatever a hate website represents I can’t control how to keep things good constantly sick someone who you see…

  • Able to Live Alone (Boulder) ….

    As an able to live in the dark mountainous region, with no locks on doors anyone who is able to work 24 hrs shifts be woken up in the middle of the night show up to a hospital asked who I am need to be someone who knows how even the best people leave you…

  • Not Living Life in the Wrong ….

    Not Living Life in the Wrong ….

    I’m not living life in the wrong I’m sorry you don’t know me don’t value get voices a person unhelpful to any audience someone who can’t handle hurt hate or anger make me a poor example of effort can’t even stay well or need protection make my safety needs a joke, I don’t understand why…

  • Communication with SCOTUS ….

    Communication with SCOTUS ….

    Communication with SCOTUS making fun of mentioning wage equally as successful in life alive and well earning my stripes not immune doing my best no one making fun of movie tittles is nothing about me misunderstood I think life represents what makes sense to the people please don’t confuse me anyone working hard to get…

  • Don’t Overanalyze Names ….

    Don’t Overanalyze Names ….

    Please don’t over analyzed public names on my 4th step about sex love or closeness or privilege in life working hard in spite of mental health issues respect others a person who I think is known where if I’m hurt of course that’s not okay, but no one can help me I still need to…

  • I Don’t Appreciate Voices ….

    I Don’t Appreciate Voices ….

    I Don’t Appreciate Voices Hospitalized 12 steps expected to just take it ignorant of suffering taking care of my own human life in a life not bothering anyone need to report hearing voices am not the joke working hard as best I can a world peace joke or on the day I publish a copy…

  • Re: Zero Attention ….

    Re: Zero Attention ….

    I’m sorry for a typo I dont think at any point in time is zero attention proper as someone who passes background checks with public blogs and gets jobs with blogs in court for nothing explained to me ever not my job to figure out what’s wrong a team player. I don’t wish to address…

  • Working Hard Humiliated ….

    Working hard humiliated accept the permanency of hate website and report the voices as stated not be forced to be made fun speak in dysfunction what makes me wrong something everyone saw unforgivable …… I’m not hiding a condition failing to write posts keeping track of how many times I respond at different times leaving…

  • What Hurts Me ….

    What Hurts Me ….

    The issue is about what hurts me it’s my feelings what I’m okay with managed in private a response in public ….. letting my health get hurt make fun of me fighting and not care if I end up in the hospital is no one’s job to tell me when to be sick is no…

  • Voices Are Not Deserved ….

    Voices Are Not Deserved ….

    Again the Voices are not deserved …. Now is not the time to make fun of life …. To remind voices no one ever let you down ignore you punished you made you go to 3 law schools take the LSAT 3 times a person who is doing well got good grades not an alcoholic…

  • I Don’t Care How You Hurt Me ……

    I Don’t Care How You Hurt Me ……

    What I wrote yesterday: It has gotten to the point, of upset, being called “____ _____” after being hospitalized, which is no ones business, its my life to live, and no I don’t deserve to be hurt. It’s become so unsupportive, no calendar dates, or messages, or privacy required, if anyone is trying to hurt…

  • When Things Are Good ….

    When Things Are Good ….

    When things are good it should feel quiet, you should feel at peace, there may be deadlines looming, things to do, you could feel like something is missing, life isn’t perfect, but its about appreciating things when things are good, or to appreciate the peace that is achieved through improvement. Having just had a near…

  • Editing Book #2 ….

    Editing Book #2 ….

    I had a chance to revise the last version of my book, and deleted up until the last edits, my research paper on voices, will not be published in a book, due to things getting worse not better, having stated exactly what Ive heard, and if its not helping me, I don’t need to be…

  • Be a Nice Person …..

    Be a Nice Person …..

    If there is one thing that I have learned from getting voices, is to not fight voices, it only makes you sound bad, combative and you end up being the person who appears to be losing in life, losing your mind, derailed, off track, not on course. To me having a sense of peace is…

  • Afraid of Fear ….

    Afraid of Fear ….

    I’ve not been too shy about my fears as of lately, beyond the little things you worry about, people being mad at you, what others think, rumors, being exposed, career ending traumas, in the end you just have to keep going. I can say the scariest times for me, have been getting in trouble, mostly…

  • Respect is Not a Game ….

    Respect is Not a Game ….

    A few issues: In life respect is not a game. Whoever I was and whatever I was loved for, changes, once I become the person who is fought, it becomes about why do I deserve to have a life, and recover, and move forward in life. As someone who has been in many phases of…

  • It Doesn’t Make Sense ….

    It Doesn’t Make Sense ….

    I am probably that person, who had everything, or lost everything, or started again, or had good news, then bad news, who sounds like a life isn’t fair story. I just think its important to note that I did spend the time focusing on the insults and how they have affected me, I didn’t think…

  • Focusing on Being Supported ….

    Focusing on Being Supported ….

    I think as a person who supports everyone, and does not judge others and is nice everyone, and has a history of being popular well liked, I always hoped for the same outcome through blogging, but respect not being on Facebook, also to be careful of speaking to the public, but not lose my flair…

  • Moving Forward ….

    Moving Forward ….

    I don’t think anyone spending time writing, battling voices bullying, intends to end up in the ICU, and maybe that only happens to me. Who am I to suggest limits, or provide reason to anyone or anything working against me in life, who am I to ask for leniency or to request to not be…

  • Managing Your Own Crisis ….

    Managing Your Own Crisis ….

    There will be many moments in life, don’t let the worst of it all to define you. I think as of recently I was improving, past an ultimate low point mental health wise (in discussion of terms/words/hateful phrases), and it goes without saying that the opposite or truth posted on hate websites, did not help,…

  • Clarity is the Goal ….

    Clarity is the Goal ….

    I think with regard to all things mental health related, clarity is always a goal. Having a sense of clarity, like everything is going to be okay, things are working out, the worst is behind us. I can’t say that I am always in a place of clarity, but I would not mistake going to…

  • Ways to Show You Care ….

    Ways to Show You Care ….

    If you ever get lost people pleasing and worrying what everyone thinks, one of the best ways to overcome that feeling of what if, is to be someone who shows that you care. It’s usually in all the details not necessarily the overall big picture that you need to get in the immediate. People appreciate…

  • Learning a Big Lesson ….

    Learning a Big Lesson ….

    Sometimes we learn our biggest lessons in life, if not too late, when under the care of others. I can’t say that the road to independence has been easy. Every so often I am reminded of my own strength, and the necessity to follow directions, its not frustrating, it sometimes feels like punishment, but its…

  • Personal Update ….

    Personal Update ….

    I just got home from the hospital, yesterday. I just woke up, taking it easy. I did not mean to hurt myself, I passed out (collapsed) and my sister called 911, my heart rate fell, and almost ended up in the ICU, and almost died. I am thankful to be alive. I just want to…

  • The Gift of Love: Your Power ….

    The Gift of Love: Your Power ….

    Everyone has the potential to offer peace a goal not always time to rest to me love as a person fought a return to normalcy not guaranteed not too fragile to date a website law school graduate no one has ever told me anything about being good as a good idea to get by in…

  • I Just Think Everyone Should Be Thankful …..

    I Just Think Everyone Should Be Thankful …..

    Talking to voices and hurtful words: I think after two years in court improving I’ve come a long way from taking chances on good terms considerate of my neighborhood not any unwanted toughness a version of me to dislike not empowering others inhuman or untimely for no reason for many years I struggled since last…

  • Don’t Take Chances in Life with your Public Image ….

    Don’t Take Chances in Life with your Public Image ….

    It’s always best to be just you on Instagram and keep your Facebook private I think by now both places want good news stay in a place improved deserving of friendship not let anyone down inspire show that I have overcome insecurity earning friendships worth succeeding deserving of a happy ending no matter where I…

  • If I can’t help you -Im Sorry ….

    If I can’t help you -Im Sorry ….

    Life isn’t easy I go through a lot work hard no loss taking for granted my content or support anything you make fun of it’s not my job to lose or need help at all time like this there is no explanation or reason or system of anything that’s failing mean I’m not in control…

  • I Need to Take a Break from Blogging ….

    I Need to Take a Break from Blogging ….

    I need to take a break from blogging I’m doing my best to address concerns clarify issues that could be of issue do the work like everyone else nothing happens I’m an instant it takes time to be settled and say enough things right to make things better. Right now I’m overwhelmed not feeling well…

  • My Ability Your Ability ….

    My Ability Your Ability ….

    I was designed to be a person expected to do her best at no point in time took anyone for granted worked hard to be well stay sober mean I’m guilty or on my way out say things that I fail to comprehend as relevant to me someone working hard to which a vocalized difficulty…

  • No One is Not Loved …..

    No One is Not Loved …..

    No one is being denied the heartwarming a light heated moments of solution or given attentions too late making a choice to be online with risk to me not too late for therapy. Any person privileged to be entrusted with managing your personhood in an environment that recognizes you to pass tests to be deserving…

  • I’m a Good Example …..

    I’m a Good Example …..

    I’m a good example of someone who goes through a lot not required to disclosed or forced to disclose not in a book an improper unjustified response to not being fit to handle questioning as to a year in life or any moment of mental health a known difficulty or circumstance that should tell me…

  • There’s No Solution with Expectation that I Move On …..

    There’s No Solution with Expectation that I Move On …..

    We have tried all solutions to address concerns supported, in treatment at home, with jobs, no jobs, stable, not stable, sober, in therapy, not self harming, not blogging, following advices, did not end up some place worse or someone who you constantly accuse of showing up places or speaking improper, have a noticeable disability you…

  • Identifying Issues, Problem Solving …..

    Identifying Issues, Problem Solving …..

    If the issue are rare moments in time I’m able just need to show up are not missed opportunities in life to speak mean anything is going wrong because a moment special was lost mean my moments matter if it’s not my timing or job how many examples of less than are required to show…

  • Texts to Justice Sotomayor, Continued Private Discussion …

    Texts to Justice Sotomayor  Why it’s not safe to share story staying home it was taken the wrong why (why are others memorialized improve) while using voices to accuse me of not being recovered or call mental health selfish or court mean I’m asking for help or letters and don’t deserve it a person who…

  • #newpost: Writing a Book vs Losing my Battle with Voices ….

    #newpost: Writing a Book vs Losing my Battle with Voices ….

    By the time I’m losing my battle with voices punching my head, or experiencing difficulty writing, decide to drink and not write, or make decisions to be offline with support, give me time to contemplate the existence of voices (as they are real to me not delusion or hallucination) and based on the facts figure…

  • #newpost: Don’t Believe the Hype ….

    #newpost: Don’t Believe the Hype ….

    When I heard at work that the job I was in was within a dying profession, I immediately felt concern while working in Film Distribution. One of my biggest heartaches was being invited to work at AFM in Santa Monica the American Film Festival and purchased a very expensive badge to work that week which…

  • Talking to Your Audience ….

    Talking to Your Audience ….

    No matter who your audience is, never downplay the excitement and enthusiasm which is appreciated when hearing from anyone, you never know how people are feeling, so the more you keep things positive the better they will feel. As a person with mental health issues voices, sometimes I struggle with communicating how I feel. Neither…

  • Disaster Recovery Centers ….

    Disaster Recovery Centers ….

    Dear Friends, Disaster Recovery Centers are opening to the public today to provide in-person, targeted assistance for residents impacted by the LA Fires. County and State departments and agencies will be able to connect you with needed benefits and services, and LA Public Health will have nurses and a physician on site to help with any prescription or…

  • Simple Reminders ….

    Simple Reminders ….

    At a time like this simples reminders can help you get past any negative thoughts or symptoms, its all about harnessing your power, to withstand and endure the conditions before you, and get strong again. Like today, as soon as voices start, it’s like a fight that gets started, either you can choose to freeze…

  • Doing Step Work ….

    Doing Step Work ….

    The best way to handle the hate website crisis and voices, would be to continue to improve and not get stuck fighting with voices, not let my life be ruined by rumor, voices, fighting, or self-harm. I will continue to stay committed to my sobriety, after so many delays to get well enough to blog…

  • So Far Since 2017 …..

    So Far Since 2017 …..

    After a few nights of voices, I once talked about 2017, not much seems to have paved way for acceptance of me, my life, my condition or my story. And maybe that will always be a mystery, what did I do or say, that was viewed in private to cause a lawsuit, and continue to…

  • Building Resentments …..

    Building Resentments …..

    Today I started working on my book drafts, not sure when I’m publishing, but keep trying to afford be good enough to fulfill a dream in life, make a book and be an author. Working on a chapter on voices, editing and rewriting my voices research paper, working on Chapter 8. I’ve submitted 10 Chapters…

  • Federal Assistance for Fire Victims ….

    Federal Assistance for Fire Victims ….

    Federal Assistance to Fire Victims This assistance is designed to help cover costs not covered by insurance. Grant Assistance to a Household: FEMA Individual Assistance – Special Needs Assistance Grants: $770 one-timepayment to afford immediate needs like food, water, hygiene, and transportation. FEMA Individual Assistance – For Housing: The maximum amount a homeowner can receive through the FEMA Individual Assistance grant program…

  • Try to Do a Better Job …..

    Try to Do a Better Job …..

    In the spirit of trauma, and mass catastrophe, I’m going to continue to pause for a moment and change my approach to discussing voices (negative, bullying) and do my best to have compassion for all people, of varying personality types, and economic backgrounds, and ages, and do my best to not fight, and in an…

  • In All Seriousness ….

    In All Seriousness ….

    Given the circumstances, maybe this is the best time to change, or come forward, or help out, set aside my issues with voices, move forward and help out and apply to Red Cross or work hard to get to go back to work, who knows what the future holds. Right now I want to focus…

  • One of the Most Difficult Parts of Helping …..

    One of the Most Difficult Parts of Helping …..

    Some things we should never forget as we move long this course in discovery through blogging, improving as the days come, one step at a time. Reminds me of the many CITI Research Certificate courses I took, on how to protect people from harm how to protect vulnerable population. I would say in general the…

  • If You Don’t Prefer Communication ….

    If You Don’t Prefer Communication ….

    At this point there is no acceptance for my life or mental health or 39 years of life is not unreasonable to deal with things privately or publicly upon distrust continue to report voices keep a log never unclear on what life is about or unclear of belonging or being on team didn’t let my…

  • Don’t Confuse My Reality ….

    Don’t Confuse My Reality ….

    Let’s not confuse my reality as compared to anyone else’s ability withstand a pressure or faced with a grave intolerance of me that does not reflect how long it took to be well or suddenly judge me for being in a lawsuit for now more than 3 years is not about my mental health or…

  • Sometimes No Matter What You Say …..

    Sometimes No Matter What You Say …..

    Sometimes no matter what you say will ever be good enough in the eyes of comparison, or a decision maker of privilege or wellness, life is not a competition, or a story anyone should win or lose by create political theories on life, to exclude me us my information, or conversations or communications against me….

  • The Use of Bullying ….

    The Use of Bullying ….

    When people are done with you. What life is like not mattering. What life is like expect me to stay well or get sick complain or change be a certain way about everyone except me unclear on what calling me offensive means. That I shouldn’t blog. Not required to speak in public. Am dealing with…

  • Reality vs. Voices ….

    Reality vs. Voices ….

    Noticed this was the only content provided for this post and can’t find a copy of this post in my records or on my phone, therefore if written and deleted not by me. No offense taken or paranoia necessary or diagnosis or circumstance or present concerns mean I’m taking it or have done wrong or…

  • When the Judge is Mad ….

    I retitled this post and can further explain how I don’t appreciate any hate website using me ridicule me accuse me expect continued contact or expect me to just deal with a life changed by (speakeasy code or war music or film violence or loss) not allow myself to be mistreated disfavored accused or expect…

  • I Can Comprehend the Need for Normalcy ….

    I Can Comprehend the Need for Normalcy ….

    These are not destructive conclusions or reflections on life and my innocence or paranoia or disclosures this is about loss and mental health and voices and to determine whether or not it’s okay to call me offensive and use lawsuits to destroy and ruin my life without regard for my mental health or the written…

  • Today I told Voices “Stop” Method (1): Speak out loud ….

    Today I told Voices “Stop” Method (1): Speak out loud ….

    Believe in something positive in life other than the symptoms that disrupt your happiness let no moment of wellness or symptom of voices disadvantage you in life or cause you illness one of the most difficult issues in life to face is dealing with something you have no control or power or ability to predict…

  • Previous Discussion with mention of “Mezzaluna” ….

    Previous Discussion with mention of “Mezzaluna” ….

    I had one middle school double date experience where someone sat on my chest hooking up, I’m a good friend I didn’t grow up in life hurt or offended or share an experience in which I was offended mistaken for an inexperienced woman or have reportable experiences that a job was for ever thinking it’s…

  • Reported the Judge’s Threat and Public Humiliation and Condemnation of Me ….

    Reported the Judge’s Threat and Public Humiliation and Condemnation of Me ….

    The judge is on it observing me crediting John Cockrell ruining my life causing me suicide wrongfully accusing me using a form shared trying to tell me what to take seriously keep accusing me being in court stress me out don’t care what court is about don’t respect who I am Judge used me to…

  • I’m Sorry if the Judge is Disappointed ….

    I’m Sorry if the Judge is Disappointed ….

    Written before blocking hate website. After 39 years of life and doing my best I’m not obligated to explain anything to court or required to get well again, it’s not okay to prosecute me call me harassment or use a hate website as excuse for punishing me if I’m giving up punching my head or…

  • I’m in Court ….

    I’m in Court ….

    Written before blocking hate website. If that’s what the website said and that’s how I’m being judged and if that is who is hurting me I’m not sure at what point my diagnosis should matter or am anyone complaining why did he win and I sound mentally ill anyone who is suddenly wrong or criminal…

  • How Court is Being Used to Harm Me …..

    How Court is Being Used to Harm Me …..

    It’s never been more clear watching my life not work out, experience disability, self-harm, questioning hostility, or voices, or mental health against me. The lesson is that wellness is not some memorized rehearsed ability or muscle memory, that any safe space should be accused of enabling or disabling a person’s right to return to normalcy….

  • Submitting Documents to Court Instead of Blogging …..

    Submitting Documents to Court Instead of Blogging …..

    Now’s a good time to start improving my writing to better convey the meaning of words being used, and how offensive terms are being used to misinform the public, spread rumor, and force a wrongful diagnosis of my mental health, not to mention, create a situation in which a Judge would threaten me after living…

  • Experiencing Difficulties …..

    Experiencing Difficulties …..

    I’ve never been so hurt on so many levels, that suddenly I should be expected to be confident move on, composed, write, provide, with discontent concerning court, that should not require additional treatment about anyone trying to help me or anyone capable of figuring out whats wrong with me, suddenly be given a hard time…

  • Experiencing Hate ….

    Experiencing Hate ….

    In addition to my research paper on voices, I would now like to focus on the negative effects of repeated incidents of the use of terminology or receiving unwanted communications, via the use of tech, social media, blog, photography, hacking, with awareness for negative viewership, and the potential to be read or watched by unwanted…

  • Once You Dislike Something ….

    Once You Dislike Something ….

    Once you dislike something or someone there’s nothing that can be done to change your heart or mind of opinion on what or who to value in life, there’s no book or story that can be written for free to give meaning to a life otherwise misjudged by diagnosis or symptoms and at this point…

  • Palisades Wildfire Relief Fund Opportunities ….

    Palisades Wildfire Relief Fund Opportunities ….

    In case you were wondering how to donate or help out and volunteer, I’ve compiled a list of resources to help you figure out how to help out, if interested. The foundation is seeking monetary donations to equip firefighters battling the wildfires with items including emergency fire shelters, hydration backpacks and wildland brush tools. You…

  • If There was Ever a Moment ….

    If There was Ever a Moment ….

    If there was ever a moment, to stop for a moment ruminating over your life, your day, and your own problems, the time would be now to think about others, and think about what you can do at this time to be mindful, and considerate of all the losses at this moment. It’s an easy…

  • Prayers for LA ….

    Prayers for LA ….

    And so the nightmare continues, now evacuating Hollywood Hills, there’s a 10 acre fire off Runyon Canyon. I couldn’t sleep last night watching the Palisades fire, it wasn’t long before I texted someone official after I heard Haverford, that’s where my AA meeting in Palisades was I used to attend, across the way Palisades High…

  • Today is Better ….

    Today is Better ….

    One of the most tiring aspects of mental health or bipolar are the highs and lows to go from yesterday to today and to feel completely different or better than you felt the day before. Don’t give up hope no matter how bad things get, always have faith that things will get better. 

  • It’s Been a Rocky Start ….

    It’s Been a Rocky Start ….

    So far it’s been a rocky start to 2025 for me but I haven’t given up just quite yet. Just need to put my positive thinking cap on to get through the month and be accepted to a court program for mental health. Seems like we just fall apart at the seems under pressure, and…

  • No One is Hurting Your Faith ….

    No One is Hurting Your Faith ….

    No one is hurting your faith being honest about life mental health or bullying. Everyone deserves to be hopeful positive see the good in others and hope for the best. What’s misunderstood is often times the exact things that make us uncomfortable distrusting pay attention less to those who we are told to ignore or…

  • Nowhere Better …

    Nowhere Better …

    Explain how offensive judge was towards me to use or highlight downplay side or support any unwanted derogatory love toward me and my family my race ethnicity. Is why he’s blocked discontinue support or correspondence with someone using court to rub in my face court documentation or terminology the judge equally refuses to recite or…

  • Recently Blocked Him ….

    Recently Blocked Him ….

    It’s recently come to my attention that I am a victim of identity theft was contacted and informed someone was pretending to be me messaging with him. This is not a easy experience, I’ve reported the incident to ic3 for identity theft and doing my best to get well, stay offline, improve, and hope to…

  • Life Doesn’t Forgive You ….

    Life Doesn’t Forgive You ….

    If Ive learned anything in the past three months, is recognizing how destructive voices are upon my mental health and my ability to work, stay well, stay sober, live free of harm, and improve. Since being hired and working full time, I have experienced mental illness in new heights including shouting, and symptoms, no matter…

  • It’s Not a Bad Life ….

    It’s Not a Bad Life ….

    Now’s a good time to reflect on the past year and think about what you would have wanted to do better. For me, it’s public speaking on the subject the voices, and how I handle insults, being demoralized, humiliated, bullied, tormented, ridiculed, fought, and put down in life. It’s not a good feeling. I have…

  • Do Your Best Not to Isolate ….

    Do Your Best Not to Isolate ….

    I was reading a book today that explained, “we can’t help or uplift anyone or anything else from a place of resistance and low vibration” if we don’t put ourselves first and that the more joy you embody the more you allow for inspiration to move through you. That to lift the world of fear,…

  • Closing Remarks ….

    Closing Remarks ….

    The goal for today would be to minimize risk or inciting trauma not allow for a crisis to occur or to accuse anything I go through a crisis it’s clear I was hospitalized 10 times was eventually able to complete a masters degree with straight As a person who does not take their own intelligence…

  • Which Moments Define You ….

    Which Moments Define You ….

    You get to choose which moments define you, please don’t be too concerned as to where my head is at while in court, or deny the fact Im under a kind of pressure in life, that is real and has nothing to do with anyone else. I’ve never felt so pressured to explain my mental…

  • Remind Yourselves ….

    Remind Yourselves ….

    My difficulties are not about you.  Don’t take my discussions personally. Don’t mistake my wellness as undeserved. Leslie is doing her best.  Leslie never lies tells the truth.  If Leslie is bullied or experiences voices that is up to her to figure out why.  Leslie is allowed to be alone or give up when she…

  • What is Writing For …..

    What is Writing For …..

    Im at a point in my career where Im thinking about what writing is for, not on a level that Im allowing myself to live a lesser life, or need to constantly experience the nightmare of voices or bullying or self harm to the extent that I need to give up, only means that its…

  • Getting Back to Normal ….

    Getting Back to Normal ….

    You don’t have to be perfect to be online. Take it from me, someone who has openly shared about mental health, yet still experiences periods, of voices, and writing in defense of self, is nothing that I need to leave up or take down, or forgetful of. There are no rules to staying well when…

  • Choose to Improve …..

    Choose to Improve …..

    Merry Christmas, to all those who celebrate. One of the biggest changes you can make on life, becomes a willingness, to stay well, for yourself, for your loved ones, and for all those who follow. Something I’ve learned recently about myself, while in recovery, in the middle of maintaining sobriety, improving, medication management, and speaking…

  • When I Hear Negative Terms ….

    When I Hear Negative Terms ….

    Maybe experiencing mental illness after being 100% well functioning in a job working full time, has nothing to do with my mental health, there is no reason, substance, or issue boiling over or left behind, or difficulty, Ive not discussed in public, discontinuing any system of support, after working hard for 7 months, resting and…

  • What a Fan/Hate Website Doesn’t Represent ….

    What a Fan/Hate Website Doesn’t Represent ….

    Another Fan/Hate Website was published, equally as damaging and traumatic and challenging to negotiate and have the website be taken down took August-December (5 months) and required calling an Investigator to protect my own safety from threats. Unfortunately an investigator can prevent voices, all that I assume is that if I saw it, whoever is…

  • I’m not punishing anyone …

    I’m not punishing anyone …

    Was writing about not having sex knew after enough times of sex possible in the middle of a traumatic loss it was not okay for me to continue to have sex or be punished as though I’m having sex loved recognize leaving places of comfort to focus on how to help please do not allow…

  • Dear Judge Nguyen ….

    Dear Judge Nguyen ….

    I plan on: Stopping all contact until January 30, 2024 (update: I tried it’s too hard I have at least 3 pen pals to support me). You told me to stay away and I can stay away remember I never complained why am I alone for 39 years of life let’s not carried away in…

  • I Know My Rights ….

    I Know My Rights ….

    To: Judge Nguyen It’s not fair to make a spectacle of me without publishing a public record or press release providing your own description of this case or purposes for punishing me more than two years now, since prior to my Father having been put on hospice care, have failed to explain why an investigator…

  • What Court Represents ….

    What Court Represents ….

    To me court represents something overwhelming and serious for me I don’t wish to discuss describe or explain to anyone is my right to privacy something I take seriously, that makes treatment or connecting unnecessary at this time. I’m not ruining my life everyone is nice to me that doesn’t change the fact that calling…

  • Arguments in Support of Everyone …. #leaveeveryoneastheyare

    Arguments in Support of Everyone …. #leaveeveryoneastheyare

    [2] Arguments in Support of Everyone – To stay well and carry on, focus on myself and problems right now and do my best to figure out life on my own, start publishing books, not be intimidated by the process of becoming known, or allow any death to convince me that by giving me a…

  • Maybe I was Told “You’re Going to Regret That.” …..

    Maybe I was Told “You’re Going to Regret That.” …..

    Maybe I was told you are going to regret that, one of the few moments in life, I ever loved someone, and faced so much disbelief concerning my private content and progress, now is a moment of being serious, and need to be alone, focus on my health until my next court date January 30,…

  • Life is Tough ….

    Life is Tough ….

    I think the purpose of improvement and refinement and fitness and applying for jobs, is about being that person, who can be relied upon, able to handle their private life, able to put down one thing, blogging and pick up another line of work, a job in law. Unfortunately due inconsistent sobriety dates, and a…

  • How Things Look …..

    How Things Look …..

    Please Note: My card doesn’t mean I’m giving up or allowed to be mean clearly punished if so unsupported. I have court next month “Judge Nguyen threatened to not accept admitting me into a program after requesting I appear in court to go over a form then said he would like to proceed” which to…

  • Final Chapter: Epilogue

    Final Chapter: Epilogue

    Draft: 12-20-24 (not finished writing it yet) Book #1: Thinking Out Loud Chapter: Epilogue I initially wrote this book 2019, around the time I started distributing blog posts through Blogpros, beginning July 2019. It was not until Fall 2020, that my Alexa Rank was in the 14,000s, it seems almost unreal, due to difficulties (online…

  • What More Could You Want ….

    What More Could You Want ….

    I’m reading 📖 this book “Super Attractor” [1] and she reminds us of we find ourselves in a story about lack of comparison to keep it simple. (Page 60) She tells us to do something do anything that brings you joy. Redirect your focus, go out and exercise, she stresses the importance of feeling good,…

  • About Me …. (Book #1) – draft (12-20-24)

    About Me …. (Book #1) – draft (12-20-24)

    Edit 12-20-24 I grew up in Brentwood, and attended two prestigious grade schools Kindergarten through 12th Grade, the base of my education. I then went on to College at University of Colorado at Boulder, where I pursued a Psychology degree, and graduated with a Sociology Degree. After writing my Honors Thesis, I graduated with Departmental…

  • It’s Never Too Late ….

    It’s Never Too Late ….

    It’s never too late. I don’t care what you say about time, you won’t understand time, until you have lived life to it’s fullest, which means to focus on moving forward, you can’t go back into the past, what’s past has past, and if all you can do is move forward, well than you still…

  • All Fights Aside ….

    All Fights Aside ….

    I think it would be wrong to believe that a major tragedy, shooting, fire, or school shootings, is the fault of anyone. Today a hate website asked me what am I doing to prevent school shootings, trying to blame me, including the rest of the hurtful terminology put on the internet to cause people to…

  • The Imagined Battle ….

    The Imagined Battle ….

    At this point I don’t think there is any excuse or diagnosis that can explain how to handle a fight or voices or bullying on a level that I have not already demonstrated solutions created written and explained by me in a effort to both survive court and also have been working hard writing on…

  • There’s Not One Side to Get To ….

    There’s Not One Side to Get To ….

    There’s not one side to get to, if I could best explain what I have learned from defamation and rumors being spread about me, and how damaging that has been to my mental health, not to mention causing me to hear voices, it’s really about managing those difficulties in private, and to no extreme fight…

  • Watching Yellowstone ….

    Watching Yellowstone ….

    Watching a Yellowstone marathon on Paramount today, the season finale is tonight at 8pm. I heard about the show, overhearing my Supervising Attorney, having a conversation with someone else on the phone about watching his favorite tv-show, Yellowstone. Which happened to be on TV today, so Ive been watching all the episodes since this morning…

  • How Do We Feel About Anger ….

    How Do We Feel About Anger ….

    How do we feel about anger, is it justified, have things risen to any extreme that would naturally prompt anyone to get angry or upset. What is the difference between anger like in the Movie: Gran Torino, versus anger as expressed by a movement for victims of crimes, that prompts the public to become angry…

  • 3 Ways to Get Grounded ….

    3 Ways to Get Grounded ….

    Getting grounded, is a strategy for managing stress, or that internal or external chaos around you, that not so good feeling, something is wrong, that worry, that sensory overload, of things being too much, in the end you have the power to control those mental health symptoms (or take meds), if you just give yourself…

  • People Don’t Know What to Think ….

    People Don’t Know What to Think ….

    Recently its been a shouting match with voices, and which terms are hurtful and Im sure in my desperation hysterically crying, or dependent on meds, I didn’t make sense, and for anyone who saw me on Instagram, not a fan of my arguments and separations from various classifications and movements in life. I think a…

  • Challenge Your Judgments …

    Challenge Your Judgments …

    I was reading a book today, reminding us not to compare, describing comparison as a difficult emotion to navigate. She describes “comparison” as “actually a form of judgment, and [that] judgment weakens our attracting power.” [1] So why should we challenge our judgments? Because its about not being brought down by negative feelings about ourselves…

  • People Pleaser ….

    People Pleaser ….

    It’s 4pm in the middle of the week I just had court and things have just begun looking up for me. Your typical people pleaser trying to make everyone happy and last to help herself winds up getting in trouble while helping others or at least thinking that she’s helping someone she loves. In the…

  • Just as You Thought ….

    Just as You Thought ….

    With the world in the palm of your hand, why risk it all. For anyone with a God complex, trying to control the universe, or seeing themselves in the center of the universe, hallmarks, of common mental health issues, everyone knowing you, reading you, or being able to tell what’s going on inside your head,…

  • Maintain a Positive Attitude …..

    Maintain a Positive Attitude …..

    Always maintain a positive attitude, I cant emphasize this enough, especially out in the open online, with so many political arguments underway, and movements in the works, you really don’t want to get anything wrong, and have people turn on you, go against you, be angry with you, be racist toward you, bring up international…

  • How You Handle Pressure ….

    How You Handle Pressure ….

    How you handle pressure says a lot about where you are to others onlooking or trying to assess how far along you are in terms of realizations and life in general, as a person who writes life advice online, or considering careers in the helping professions, or technology. It all comes down to one thing,…

  • Reality Check ….

    Reality Check ….

    It’s always a healthy idea to take a step back and remind yourself not everyone knows me, it’s not a big deal, this is only temporary, you’ll get through this, not everyone knows your story, not everyone thinks something the same, it’s not about me, and come to grips with life in a way that…

  • Find the Old You …..

    Find the Old You …..

    Maybe it takes losing everything to describe my past experience battling addiction, or reasons why I stopped or chose to not drink alcohol my whole life, and hopefully the main point doesn’t go missing in the process of me trying to illustrate who I am on a level that the public can accept, and with…

  • Effort Makes Sense …..

    Effort Makes Sense …..

    Effort makes sense, whether you are a person who is responsible for your own troubles, or a product of some mess not of your own making, there is something to said about someones progress and what acceptance by court and people in general online, whether or not a side against is represented by voices, in…

  • Writing is a Good Sign …..

    Writing is a Good Sign …..

    No matter what happens to me, do not be alarmed, I have been this way for at least 12 years in and out of the hospital, although I thought I would outgrow any type on instability by getting a job, but I guess its all the same no matter how old you are, just be…

  • How to Gauge Your Progress …..

    How to Gauge Your Progress …..

    The goal of every writer or blogger or website is to publish solid good work product. According to Google.com work product is defined as, “A good work product is characterized by qualities like accuracy, completeness, clarity, timeliness, adherence to specifications, attention to detail, reliability, consistency, functionality, and the ability to meet or exceed expectations; essentially,…

  • What Court is About: Mental Health …..

    What Court is About: Mental Health …..

    I’m sorry to be misunderstood or to have been sued based on my condition, being on meds, and having a medical history that’s not an excuse to accuse me of harassment, or to fight me, or to make fun of my mental health, or call me names, or make fun of my story. If its…

  • You Will Find What You Seek …..

    You Will Find What You Seek …..

    One of the biggest lessons I learned in life is to not go out into the world chasing danger its like if you call upon it it will find you, like a nightmare of circumstances can leave you feeling torn broken and lost, but don’t worry you wont be gone for long, if you seek…

  • It’s a Weird Truth …..

    It’s a Weird Truth …..

    It’s a weird truth to improve or be found in the wrong on a level that you lose purpose in life and people don’t only not know who you are or think you don’t make sense unrelateable and that’s a sad fact about life analytics and money not knowing who is strong for whom, or…

  • Everyone Works Hard …..

    Everyone Works Hard …..

    Maybe its just me, who works really hard and cant figure out how to make money that doesn’t mean Im not working work of equal value to any story by comparison, that’s where I think I am misunderstood, in terms of what getting my first jobs paid in law represent, the equivalent effort and years…

  • Is Love Your Second Chance in Life ….

    Is Love Your Second Chance in Life ….

    “Love is a force both potent and fragile. It has the ability to create joy and communion or anger and desperation. Love binds us, builds us, but can also tear us down. So why do we pursue it? Why is love the thing most of us seek?” https://rebellove.com/love/second-chance-at-love/ How does loving yourself help prepare you…

  • Figure Out Mental Health without Me ….

    Figure Out Mental Health without Me ….

    I’ve been through too much suffered too long to be used and abused as an advocate based on present difficulties and worries now is a good time to make clear I’m not strong enough to help anyone with mental health, addiction, sobriety, or legal issues. I have enough on my plate doing my best need…

  • Coming to Terms …

    Coming to Terms …

    I’m coming to terms with what voices mean or any lawsuit either give up close all my blogs discontinue a public presence stop applying risk getting sick not reading or writing off meds. Or choose to live my life. Getting sick and losing my job and getting voices and a hate website just means to…

  • I’m Doing my Best ….

    I’m Doing my Best ….

    I’ve been going through a lot I’ve been trying to return to blogging after being in treatment for a year it’s been difficult the times are not always the best. I’m too late or responsible for anything bad happening I’ve been in court for two years writing my brains out to my attorney sending emails…

  • I Think Everyone Gets Mad ….

    I Think Everyone Gets Mad ….

    I think everyone gets mad or feels offended or insulted or starts movements against or exposes people or cause job loss and that can represent a system of using racism or wrongful rumor accusations to justify make famous people feel better being up Jewish issues or Black issues or me too I’m not insulting anyone’s…

  • I Think Angry Voices …

    I Think Angry Voices …

    I think angry voices represent subjecting me to people racist who hate me to question my ability to prevent a mass shooting be apart of progress wealth and beauty or sacrificed and used and turned into a person you put in jail and call guilty sometimes I wonder the purposes for success and get anger…

  • Being Wrong ….

    Being Wrong ….

    Speaking wrong feels like an repeated pattern of becoming what your called a condition you can’t snap out of it’s like the reverse of rising above once in ever way you improve a reminder is sought called mental illness self harm and suicide to remind you of what rock bottom feels like I think in…

  • What Happened Today …..

    What Happened Today …..

    Today I had court, after spending the night in the ER spoke to the Sheriff was self-harming and punching my head and had to report voices, which after repeated attempts and several years of treatment has become an unbelievable consequence of talking about my mental health or knowing me and knowing how to hurt me,…

  • To Prevent Assassination …..

    To Prevent Assassination …..

    Get back to 400k in the US and take the CA State Bar with or without “voices” no cure for.

  • Coming to Terms with a Loss ….

    Coming to Terms with a Loss ….

    While on a break from writing, which I do not intend to be absent the public sphere or be unavailable, is usually something I may receive a random text from someone I know or former pen pal, who can tell whether Im not doing well, checked on to see how Im doing. I was informed…

  • It’s a Shame ….

    It’s a Shame ….

    Whenever a momentum is lost or group conscious required to feel good and go by one another delightfully without repercussion or negative judgment, that’s how you know that you are human or whats too late. Sometimes there must be a break in character, a change in perception, a dulling of circumstances, a heightening of interest,…

  • Fear of Being Unwanted: Get Away …..

    Fear of Being Unwanted: Get Away …..

    We have entered a time period of sexual offenses, sexual pasts exposed, overhearing rape in the news, and also have recently experienced momentous opportunities for growth, that far surpass the past’s recognition of finally coming to accept us as we are, mixed. In recent months, well the past 8 years I have struggled on and…

  • It is Serious ….

    It is Serious ….

    I deserve time to rest reserve the right to call police write problem solve figure out what to do prevent voices work hard live long be a good person survive court be responsive. I’m working hard to prevent In the nicest way possible I am giving others the time and energy under pressure to talk…

  • How Anger is Expressed ….

    How Anger is Expressed ….

    People express anger toward those they find offensive or are made to believe are offensive or capable of saying something offensive or derogatory to another person whether within a language or by energy or via interpretation threatened by the substance and mental makeup distrusting of the image or qualities as possessing oneself of no threat…

  • It’s Not What You Think ….

    It’s Not What You Think ….

    Sometimes the best way to let go off on an tangent in life explaining away a concept or how you feel describing what your going through emotionally hopefully you come to a point of cessation where you are no longer trying to discuss something that pains you or causes you difficulty or frustrates or bothers…

  • Don’t Live in Defiance ….

    Don’t Live in Defiance ….

    Don’t live in defiance that’s definitely not the solution. I drove and I am writing in the jurisdiction of the pen pal who sued me in reference to a distressed phone call to OC Sheriff discussing my views what’s been difficult and how I feel about court anything else interpretation wise can’t solve what can…

  • Why Do People Give Up …..

    Why Do People Give Up …..

    Why do people give up? Why do appearances matter. What is your reputation for. Why should people know you, what does knowing you do or enable others to do with your work and philosophies in life. To me you can do so much work and still be hurt, and although its not the end of…

  • How Things Get Worse ….

    How Things Get Worse ….

    I have already come to accept that I will be on meds for the rest of my life, regardless of the side effects or weight gain. What I want to figure out, with investment in my company name and acknowledgment from the Secretary of State, I would hope to clarify issues, and reasons for attack…

  • It’s Your Life ….

    It’s Your Life ….

    It’s your life, it goes wherever you go, it fits in a job, it has a home, it has friends, it has support, who you are in an integrated mix of who you are and all the variations of what makes you you. To me sickness is a condition that is feared, much like depression,…

  • Always Rise Above ….

    Always Rise Above ….

    Fighting is the quickest route to absolute insanity, to me fighting is mental illness, can’t tell which way is up or down, as though you are drowning and running out of time, saving your own life, due to some unforeseen series of events keeping you down in life. To me that’s a fan website, I…

  • If You Wait Too Long ….

    If You Wait Too Long ….

    If you wait too long between an unsettling feeling with delay in working towards making things right again sometimes you risk allowing for a hurt to settle in otherwise necessary had you spoken up. As a blogger I’ve learned that sharing is a process of acceptances earned each day a type of momentum and motivation…

  • Everyone Comes into Your Life for a Reason ….

    Everyone Comes into Your Life for a Reason ….

    Everyone comes into your life for a reason, whether you know it in the immediate, trust the process of improvement, and hope for better interactions in the future. Its when things are going well, that sometimes the dangers associated with being at the bottom of the loop in life, creep back up as opportunity to…

  • Life is Full of Surprises …

    Life is Full of Surprises …

    When you least expect it life finds itself out to be better than any moment or loss of clarity stuck in your head. Always pay attention to your surroundings and don’t forget to pick your head up. I know it took me awhile in more awkward stages on different meds it’s like I couldn’t get…

  • Things Won’t Get Better ….

    Things Won’t Get Better ….

    Things won’t get better fighting or not allow for a valid effort to explain difficulties being no one’s fault that is not code permission or reasons ability court given or taken away mean I’m allowed to quit or not helping everyone ruin my story fight me and overall lose to terms or losses blame for…

  • Research Paper on Voices ….

    Research Paper on Voices ….

    Research Paper How are Voices Viewed 11-21-24 Introduction The experience of voices is still a phenomenon that science has not quite yet explained or defined or coming to mean that there is something wrong with you, by reporting the voices you do hear, is unclear the reason or the cause for why voices occur, and…

  • Everyone Against You ….

    Everyone Against You ….

    The problem with getting voices and being misdiagnosed and sued automatically puts you at risk for being changed to something worse to please the anger directed toward you so instead of being a victim to voices these are ways you convince others that I’m offensive or mentally ill when you do something to someone to…

  • It’s Hard to Explain ….

    It’s Hard to Explain ….

    Although not believed I never had voices in at least the majority of my hospitalizations it wasn’t until 2021, that I was suffering from self-harm voices, and would have to go to the hospital. There are many ways to live life and start over, and punishment and disability are two completely separate things in life,…

  • When Battling Voices ….

    When Battling Voices ….

    It’s hard to talk about something that doesn’t exist so please first know who I am soft spoken therefore I don’t shout I’m not aggressive I’m not combative I stick up for myself went to law school write helpful arguments to prevent chaos or psychosis that it sensed by me as a writer and blogger…

  • Remember the Positives Over the Years Not Criticize the Pace ….

    Remember the Positives Over the Years Not Criticize the Pace ….

    Unite the lights, there were so many special moments to remember in life for what it represented serving the purpose to make others feel apart of never fail to find positive meaning in life the best way to give back in times of need is to not fail, not complain, do your best, stay well,…

  • Making Peace with Voices ….

    Making Peace with Voices ….

    Most things in life require teamwork like getting along problem solving support building systems that work for everyone life may be tough but it’s harder to handle life on your own don’t forget to ask for help and don’t give up simply due to conflict symptoms or difficulties with enough time and effort addressing an…

  • What Makes Voices a Difficult Subject …..

    What Makes Voices a Difficult Subject …..

    Voices is a difficult subject, and worth publishing a book, based on my experience, with hope for helping someone else struggling in these respects in life. As a person who has suffered from voices, beginning 2017, and hospitalized for self-harm, to me in an unexplained experience in life, that can happen which you are not…

  • Someone Who “Gets it” ….

    Someone Who “Gets it” ….

    At my magazine job at Level 21 writing articles with experience blogging was told that I’m someone who gets it. And I guess that’s what’s being tested in the event everyone is nice to me supportive work is manageable I’m in therapy going to AA working full time doing my best to deal with and…

  • My Battle with Voices …

    My Battle with Voices …

    Because I called Trevor Project to be good on women’s issues (a suicide recovered law student) instead that phone call published became about denominating me to butch lesbian calling me pervert expect me to eat cunt or suck dick as insult is improperly lowering me to empower people who hate rapists and sex offenders and…

  • My Recent Work Experience ….

    My Recent Work Experience ….

    cc: I got a job and worked for about 8 days, until I was let go, and have learned a lot from that experience the first time I was going through a lot destabilized over home finances punching my head before work started, struggling to stay sober, having many positive moments and experiences and interactions at…

  • When Life Isn’t Hard on You What Is? ….

    When Life Isn’t Hard on You What Is? ….

    I don’t believe life is hard on you is not how you endure pain that’s not worth crying about but when you think of how your years and time has been spent make sure it’s been worth your while to be where you are that’s what builds confidence being certain that where you are earned…

  • Making the Transition ….

    Making the Transition ….

    Making the transition to working full time was not an easy start barely a week sober exhausted from all the letters and emails I sent trying to figure out what’s wrong including taking the time in therapy to take a step back and work on myself figure out my own feelings and emotions reflect on…

  • Be a Good Example …

    Be a Good Example …

    Be a good example. I just started a new job full time and lasted a week so proud of myself in spite of a rough start re: relapse or self harm and dealing with voices, but lucky I’m able to work 8 hrs a day and given a chance in spite of disability prove myself….

  • What Does Normal Feel Like …..

    What Does Normal Feel Like …..

    Normal to me, feels like a calm, you feel motivated to do things that day, you are at rest, able to sleep and gather your thoughts, feeling positive in a good mood like things are going to turn out today okay, and having a sense of clarity that distinguishes a normalcy that you feel meaning…

  • It’s Finally a Good Day ….

    It’s Finally a Good Day ….

    So much has happened since I last wrote, I started a new job, survived my first day of work, and working through mental health issues texting my therapist, and writing letters, or emails until things have finally gotten better by today and so thankful. I know discussing voices is a very controversial subject and requires…

  • That Unnerving Chaos …..

    That Unnerving Chaos …..

    I’ve been thinking a lot lately about how to describe a battle with voices, without anyone losing or becoming upset, however created, and to me it’s a sensitive subject based on how or why hurtful terms are used, and doing my best to figure out the triggers and causes for the use of hurtful terms,…

  • It’s Dangerous to Blog ….

    It’s Dangerous to Blog ….

    I’ve been blogging for 6 years continuous now, and have built two blogs, and for the first time in my life, I have been presented with problems in life, so severe, and so serious, that no investigator, report, openness, subject, or blog post can solve, and maybe that’s a fact about life, I was lucky…

  • It’s Not Okay to Live Life Offensive ….

    It’s Not Okay to Live Life Offensive ….

    It’s not okay to live life offensive it’s not okay to suffer from voices or terms be honest or be punished for it and demand scientific analysis and solution you’ve determined on your own and have done your best to solve. It’s not okay to live life offending anyone or viewed as insult or stupid…

  • What Exists ….

    What Exists ….

    What exists is how you make people feel. There’s no science about going by your own feelings and thoughts in life however you are persuaded. A common defense to mental illness and crisis is then associated to no one suffering from unknown causes of blogging is considered a safe shared space to prevent harms from…

  • Lessons About Fighting ….

    Lessons About Fighting ….

    The lesson about being fought, is that you get sick, there is no way around it. If someone connects to you, and doesn’t like you, is angry at you, or cannot be happy for you, then you are going to get sick, by that person connecting to you, watching you, reading you, or seeking to…

  • What Do People Want ….

    What Do People Want ….

    I get that as a reader of my blog, there is an expectation for quotes, wisdom, articles, self-help, mental health subjects, and a sense of hope of things working out or going to be okay. That being said, it’s hard to address crisis, or emergencies on the blog, in a way that doesn’t cause worry…

  • Things Were Getting Better ….

    Things Were Getting Better ….

    Things were getting better until it became unclear if I’m sick or not offensive or not or who hurt who I think I did my best got hurt things got better given chances court was going well supported and encouraged by many will continue to accept losing badly when fought, or looking bad compared to…

  • Mental Health Update sent to Texas Investigator ….

    Mental Health Update sent to Texas Investigator ….

    Due to worsening symptoms I’ve started to send comment replies to who made the fan site and have decided to discontinue contact with everyone including informed the Marina del Rey Sheriff of my worsening condition due to voices or dislike toward content or how I’ve addressed being hurt or protected others from harm not fought…

  • Submission to LADA ….

    Submission to LADA ….

    I’ve called in the past, recently coming to terms with discussions online and in private concerning my own losses and while reflecting on jobs lost jobs trips to ER support over the years, progress, function, disclosures, self harm, living in Santa Monica with no TV able to sleep in the quiet have slept with the…

  • Love is a Sensitive Subject …..

    Love is a Sensitive Subject …..

    Love is a sensitive subject, I don’t think even at 39, I represent the negative connotation in describing a woman who is “done” or “changed” or in a place in life, where they cannot be loved, or not deserving of love is my issue, or obvious hurdle in a poor review of me personally posted…

  • There are Different Types of Voices ….

    There are Different Types of Voices ….

    There are different types of voices. Although recently a psychiatrist and therapist at Cedars did not believe that my diagnosis was schizophrenia, and do not think I am, along with my internist, and my current therapist does not believe in labels. In case there is confusion as to my openness during the time my diagnosis…

  • Life is a Team Sport ….

    Clearly if I’m not feeling well taking a break it’s too much I’m doing the work once you dislike comments texts or communications there’s nothing I can do to provide to who doesn’t value my writing accuses me of writing poor making mistakes I can’t win I can’t prevent voices I did my best I…

  • Addressing the Issues Learn Watch Mistake Loss, Hard on myself self harm, put in danger, lose everything, cause me confusion, work on being alone not bother anyone.

    I resent the foot in Barbie is causing me mental illness to highlight a 70 year old wasting the rest of my 30s punished with a website left up for over a year something I overcame was punished for taken off meds, miss the issue as redressing a hate website and the term “pedophile” continue…

  • Maybe I am Doing my Best and Have Lost my Right to Privacy and Ability to Stay Well or Diagnosis Changed All I Have to Do is Do my Best with Respect to Everyone Else’s Freedoms Not Bother Anyone Not Live Life Disabled Not Be a Joke ….

    With negativity voices or negative view of me low regard disrespect or anger suggested then I’ve learned you sound stupid until you sound smart again and you get shouted at insulted as many times as it takes to distract you force you to fixate or remember what others have said either until you improve and…

  • A Challenge is Everyone’s Difficulty Minimized by Addressing a Challenge in Public without Losing my Peace or Sense of Reality …..

    I can understand if there are ways of telling me medically that I’m too late to change what others think of me or decide I’ve been harmed in a way I can’t challenge defend myself explain or excuse use moments of disability as an excused upset or version of anger toward me as though I’ve…

  • When Everything Works Out versus Things Not Working Out (Based on my definition identification of what makes a role model) ….

    I think everything in life can work out for you if you work hard enough to earn your peace and figure out things in time with room to spare not face difficulties in life while helping others and have a life that teaches solution and doesn’t let others down, prove your wise intelligent helpful with…

  • Maybe it’s Too Late to Simplify an Issue of What’s Wrong with Me ….

    Maybe it’s Too Late to Simplify an Issue of What’s Wrong with Me ….

    It’s clear I have mental health issues that are my fault not met with sensitivity used as examples to punish me continue to punish me and misjudge continued hospitalization as doing my best taking meds not on drugs working in my masters in law getting jobs working my way up in a profession that clearly…

  • I’m working hard to earn acceptances respect my effort as privilege not make fun of issue or public presence or bullying incident …..

    I’m working hard to earn acceptances respect my effort as privilege not make fun of issue or public presence or bullying incident …..

    Nothing justifies breaking my hand doesn’t mean anything wrong to destroy my ability to write injure my ability to hand write make fun of journaling processing or fixing myself. Maybe I can’t get over all the ways I was punished worked hard to be in public took seriously rejections told the police of issues work…

  • Please Accept My Limits Respect my Best …..

    Please Accept My Limits Respect my Best …..

    I’m sure in every way I tried my best, and however I tried hard able to work speak to tragedy in a place to help or have a demonstrated work ethic or belief in myself that would make my writing beneficial to others, it shouldn’t the matter the details or offense taken period isn’t a…

  • Don’t Denounce Mental Challenge Forewarning Being Human Myself ….

    Don’t Denounce Mental Challenge Forewarning Being Human Myself ….

    Don’t denounce who is smart or gifted or question who is me insult egg donation applications in my 20s already thinking in advance to hide my kids with the government be raised as agents special but protected by another human being mentally ill in a way as fertile constant check ups being 39 decide delays…

  • The Secret to Staying Healthy & Happy ….

    The Secret to Staying Healthy & Happy ….

    The secret to staying healthy and happy is to push yourself, set goals, work on your relationships with others, pick a hobby, keep up with doctors appointments, try therapy or any kind of counseling coaching, hire an attorney, do research, if it’s reassurance that you want to know that everything is okay or going to…

  • I Know it Gets Crazy ….

    I Know it Gets Crazy ….

    I know it gets crazy sometimes on the blog but this is mental health full of twists and turns and stories and people and feelings and substances, addictions, influences. And you are you standing in the middle of it. I hope that by sharing my journey in story from time to time you come understand…

  • Do My Best to Help Others ….

    Do My Best to Help Others ….

    It is true that you tend to remember everything that you’ve done wrong in life, and that could mean being haunted by your mistakes, make pride confidence and growing up occur in stages that hopefully you overcome at some point in adulthood that that the strides you make to be accepted by others and not…

  • I believe a solution can be found …..

    I believe a solution can be found …..

    Help is an ability you have in life and I wouldn’t shocked if I considered a person disabled or punished or told in so many ways they are not allowed to help others mean I’m in control or not in control informative or teach a point of sickness I’m companionships I’m in denial of both…

  • Lesson on Being Hurt ….

    Lesson on Being Hurt ….

    The lesson on being hurt is whether I deserve to be me and how I function with others always comparing my state of mind or face insulted by lack of improvement that must be a new standard of judging my love as delusional try to replicate elsewhere in difficulty or accuse me of not being…

  • When People Take Sides ….

    When People Take Sides ….

    When people take sides in the event you face disability the harm can never be repaired the minds of others never changed the image imagined never good enough when people think your the defect not inspirational think everything’s a joke including your life Facebook and connections it’s not about giving me two successful websites two…

  • Right to Privacy I’m Working on Trying to Blog In Spite of Being Hurt Not Lose Confidence Be Judged Negatively …..

    Right to Privacy I’m Working on Trying to Blog In Spite of Being Hurt Not Lose Confidence Be Judged Negatively …..

    I’m doing my best to minimize complication and prevent voices allow for peace not be disturbed or disturb or bother anyone else’s peace or permissions outlook and happiness in life apart of known in communication communicating to me to the world at large I have to stay strong on my own and work hard for…

  • Recognized Handicap as of 2024 …..

    Recognized Handicap as of 2024 …..

    Aside from the success of two blogs not believed, as real. I can focus on problems and all the problems caused by being hurt. If you see the world as good and innocent and create writing that reflects that viewpoint however long it takes to earn that level of respect trust or standing in public…

  • “Managing Threats” …..

    “Managing Threats” …..

    See the world as good and live in peace proper and not speak to complicated subjects or work hard and create a job for yourself and prove your work ethic is meaningful in a way every day your given an opportunity to prove how you can help and how you plan to help prevent and…

  • Some Things Make Everyone Sad ….

    Some Things Make Everyone Sad ….

    Some things make everyone sad, in terms of what life is about, whats known about me, how a lawsuit makes me look bad, what type of attitude or disrespect that causes me, there are any number of ways that you can be affected or convinced you are something you are not, allow every little things…

  • My Reputation and Legal Standing ….

    My Reputation and Legal Standing ….

    I have been applying to job and got two interviews. Im still in court, waiting for my case to be dismissed, so far everything is going well. I’ve been sober since 2003, only recently relapsing due to bullying voices, hate website. I’ve come a long way, and continue to submit arguments and analysis to scotus….

  • Unforeseen Losses ….

    Unforeseen Losses ….

    I’m in a place right now where I’m going through difficulties that don’t need to be brought up in the face of losses, I’m in control of my own life I can decide earn respect be a source of inspiration prove my innocence be of value maintain rapport and make sure things go right in…

  • Keeping Things Under Control ….

    Keeping Things Under Control ….

    I think that part of the reason my stats fluctuate is because of what I’m dealing with privately however vocal I’ve tried to be on subjects made relevant to me that doesn’t mean those terms are true or an accurate depiction of who I am overall and my progress reflect my positive attitude and hard…

  • Things are Getting Better …

    Things are Getting Better …

    Going through a lot as you can see through the many changes in tone and topics on my website but getting some much needed rest. Sticking to my cardio schedule, doctors appointments, and getting help with bullying and hope that things will get better moving forward. So far so good the voices have stopped and…

  • I’m Doing my Best ….

    I’m Doing my Best ….

    What Ive learned from all of this is that my limits, my mental health, my feelings, my privacy, my right to do well function have a clear mind be functioning and working hard, getting work ready be employable, isn’t a type of life that I would call a threat to anyone else livelihood. I think…

  • Bullying: Don’t Let them Win …..

    Bullying: Don’t Let them Win …..

    Don’t let them win, when a bully is provoking you, insulting you, trying to hurt your feelings, get under your skin, drive you nuts, destroy you don’t let them. Don’t break character with who you are, simply because of what type of energy and words are being projected upon you. None of it is deserved,…

  • No One Deserves to Be Hurt ……

    No One Deserves to Be Hurt ……

    No one deserves to get hurt, not in private, not in public, not while making fun of me, not while enduring changes, not while enduring difficulty, be pestered, challenged, threatened, or made to look bad, or use my data or information to hurt me or change my story. I refuse to attend court, I quit…

  • Submitting Documents ….

    I spoke to self help case was looked up document printer told to submit documents I need my attorney to do so and that I could not because it’s urgent if I’m being threatened or getting voices or in the event of shootings it’s best to inform whoever is a DA without being viewed as…

  • Don’t Threaten Me …

    Don’t Threaten Me …

    Don’t expose me lie to “the people” the Attorney General has access to my accounts don’t accuse me of deletion or tampering or complain about what’s provided the people can take everything and put it online but don’t wrongfully accuse me of being something I’m not! Then take everything and delete everything! I didn’t lie!…

  • Phases of Bullying ….

    Phases of Bullying ….

    Recently since August 30th I’ve been struggling privately preventing bullying toward me and the launching of a hate website. There were moments of calm, moments of emergency, balance, and negative consequences to my mental health. All in all doing my best to stay strong in spite of what’s said about me continue to represent myself…

  • Don’t Forget to Rest ….

    Don’t Forget to Rest ….

    Just took a 2 day break from exercise and blogging and already feeling better. How quickly we get stuck in that spiral feeling the weight on our shoulders wondering what’s bringing us down in life. This is when you come into play take control of the reigns and work on toning it down and leveling…

  • When There’s Too Much Turbulence ….

    When there’s too much turbulence it can be hard to do anything, start anything, review anything, keep up seems like when we are all cylinders down drowning underneath that frozen state of worry doing less it’s hard to get going, but once we do things start to pan out one thing after the other one…

  • In Terms of Everyone ….

    I worked hard to be online I’m sad in so many ways to get hurt aware of who I know not make things so personal political call me out on issues no one knows my story no one’s winning and I’m losing in doing my best I don’t need to figure out my mental health…

  • I’m Not Feeling Well ….

    I’m being hurt I’m doing my best I can’t keep up with voices issue I’m going through something no one can relate to gets has compassion for can prevent voices or bullying or lawsuit I was treated and improved I can get sick again go to the hospital if necessary I worked hard to improve…

  • Took Meds …

    I took Geodone this afternoon in spite of working hard handling being hurt in a fair way address issues faced with not be hurt. Keep taking as prescribed work hard get back to normal I’ll be on meds for the rest of my life I can’t afford to get sick or be hurt or get…

  • Quality Matters & Mental Health ….

    I don’t think I’m not doing my best considerate everyone’s going through a lot gets to live a normal life not hospitalized sued twice taken off meds changed appearance make the issue my disability or age I’m doing my best I worked hard to recover live in sober living be social it’s unfortunate to delay…

  • I’m not a Lawsuit Rejection Joke ….

    No one accepts a new condition “voices” nothing explains or represents who’s hurting me or why I self harmed injure myself almost crack my skull the wall broke in lucky old house accuse me of trying to kill myself. If that’s the story to go by voices self harm no recovery no treatment helped no…

  • I Give Up Right to Be Alone ….

    I’m tired of getting hurt making fun of story make fun of what story is memorialized accuse me of fault or told something in a way that let’s me know I’m not special make fun of what’s possible not possible happening helped ignored comforted free of harm keep trying to erase my memory change me…

  • Everyone’s Okay Except Me ….

    I’m alive for no reason medical records doesn’t explain anything legal to anyone identify who I am or what I’ve endured or how chill I am helpful continue make fun of a big story injure me call me stupid retarded trash injured bullied there nothing wrong with telling Israel I’m being given a hard time…

  • I Quit Court & Emails ….

    In the end it’s not about being enamored about what’s wrong with me difficult you accuse of addiction confession or disclosure accuse me being unprofessional can’t handle or help others concerned about what makes me offensive or an addict an addiction issue home class friendship arrest threat medication joke …. It’s not about his recovered…

  • I’m Not Being Hard on Anyone ….

    If court or attorney general punishment or attorney or things going well isn’t good enough keep hurting me let me handle problems on my own report if necessary not make a game out of what people say or what happens to me accuse me of being sick or causing sick or making anyone sick cared…

  • Right to Quit Court ….

    I’ve been helped so many times sickness suicide prevented help came to my apartment I’ve made a choice to seek treatment I’ve been forced to stay by ER I’ve been sent home and it’s clear if I’m being punished not believed watched hacked witnessed seen change worsen a website not in control of what others…

  • I Did my Best …..

    I can’t keep up with court issue diagnoses illness losing dysfunction delay punishment injury death photo record life possessions conversation difficulty deal with hurtful terms accuse me of mental illness distrust me use politics or everyone compared to me or interpretation by me against me. Make fun of my life accuse me of medication dependency…

  • You Need Your Peace ….

    You Need Your Peace ….

    You need your peace, that no mental health issue your battling should keep you from achieving, nor anything to be ashamed about requiring a phone call to 911, the police or a visit to the ER, just to make sure you are okay, voices or not. Hell, chaos, that blarring sense of something being wrong,…

  • Hurricane Relief ….

    Hurricane Relief ….

    Please consider making a donation for hurricane Helene and Milton relief efforts. https://www.redcross.org/donate/dr/hurricanes-milton-helene.html

  • Your New Beginning …

    Your New Beginning …

    Your new beginning starts with you, letting go of the past, let go of what others think, don’t be hard on yourself while processing or in therapy, remember who you are, not get sidetracked by mental health symptoms, and continue to live free of discussion of things your not comfortable with or issues or diagnosis…

  • It’s Not Cool to Hurt Women …..

    It’s Not Cool to Hurt Women …..

    I may be the best example of someone who tries really hard, improves, takes meds, has been in psychiatry for years, explored writing famously and now building successful websites, with a world wide audience, and a growing following in the US, and an official Instagram with followers now. But life isn’t perfect, I would only…

  • I Lost Data ….

    I Lost Data ….

    I lost data, after the first time I opened up is when my website was being hacked and noticed my drafts and published posts were being changed and duplicated without my permission, and moved, as a result, of this happening to me, I decided to delete all 36 posts written on a 3 day writing…

  • When I Sense Anger ….

    When I Sense Anger ….

    When I sense anger I don’t think Im imaging the issues wrong, or getting things mixed up, no matter what Im in court for, if my goals are to try for things in life Im determined to have like a relationship or a marriage, a successful blog, maybe a child, and a job, then those…

  • Got Help Today ….

    Got Help Today ….

    Got Help Today ….  #personalupdate Got help today with my blog today in therapy my therapist read my blog. So I have someone to talk to about improving my writing and get more organized stick to article writing and make sure if I write in one paragraph it makes sense and make sure I share…

  • Everyone Needs a Lift ….

    Everyone Needs a Lift ….

    Whether you think you deserve it or not everyone needs a lift and deserves to have their spirits lifted in difficult times. This is when you get to be you most, branch out, sing, dance, pretend no one’s watching, watch stand up comedy, watch a movie, read a fun magazine article, you don’t have to…

  • Find Your Inner Peace ….

    Find Your Inner Peace ….

    Recently have been struggling finding my sense of inner peace. I’ve been on a steady gym routine of 30 mins treadmill and weights everyday that seems to be working for me to battle depression and feel good about myself. I finally modeled again it’s been like a year since I last tried. How I look…

  • If You’re Losing ….

    If You’re Losing ….

    If your losing it’s only important to keep track of why your losing especially when it comes to voices not continue to lose on issues not allowed to improve defend yourself against let any issue fly under the radar not especially in terms of losses. Sacrifice wins in life or steady progress due to misinterpretation…

  • Life Isn’t a Rush ….

    Life Isn’t a Rush ….

    Life isnt a rush, there is only so many ways you can be hurt in life, face devastation, be humiliated, teamed up on, misunderstood, be in court before things are too much or become difficult, and I can’t say that I ever intended to live a lesser life, or have lessor connections in life, or…

  • When Things Don’t Get Better …..

    When Things Don’t Get Better …..

    Things don’t get better by diagnosis, look how much has gone wrong for me in life, since being misdiagnosed, and don’t now think as things get worse for me, giving up is not untimely, or appropriate, to discontinue some discussions, or allow there to be peace in terms of what voices do or don’t exist,…

  • I Think When You Fight a Person …..

    I Think When You Fight a Person …..

    I think when you fight a person, and call it “schizophrenia” that takes away from who I am as a person and causes others to question if I know whats wrong with me or can accept whats wrong with me or what a definition says is wrong with me. I don’t think its any less…

  • The Point of Being Hurt ….

    The Point of Being Hurt ….

    I think the point of being hurt in life is to teach you your own strength and any lesson on being exposed to pain in life is not usually something you ask for in life or deserve. I don’t think that being hurt enables you to catch up with life or keep up with life…

  • Confrontation and Executive Decisions …..

    Confrontation and Executive Decisions …..

    After working hard for years to graduate and be able to apply and be hired in a paid position in the legal field, it’s only fitting that I defend myself and the appropriateness and the timing of having such good fortune in life, as being well deserved, in spite of however many setbacks occur by…

  • Learn to Accept Silence as Your Teacher ….

    Learn to Accept Silence as Your Teacher ….

    Learn to accept silence as your teacher. If there is one thing I have learned about how to help in crisis, it would be to focus on yourself, and by focusing on yourself and being productive, organized, vocal, and by communicating fairly and appropriately, you save others from having to engage in unnecessary battles in…

  • Don’t Be Ruled by Shame ….

    Don’t Be Ruled by Shame ….

    Don’t be ashamed by your mental health, if you haven’t met them yet, there are many people like you who find themselves in better places in life, able to talk about the periods in life when their thinking wasn’t the best, or they weren’t the most positive, or had issues with confidence. I’m one of…

  • Make a List of Reminders ….

    Make a List of Reminders ….

    There are multiple ways to move forward. Talking about the past shouldn’t be a daunting task but it can be. There isn’t one story of heroism that everyone needs to adapt to. There’s not one social circle closer to the center of anything in life that you can’t find and achieve on your own. The…

  • Opening Up ….

    Opening Up ….

    Thank you for your patience as I work on coming back center. I had a good therapy session this week. Working on opening up to my audience and sharing very personal private stories near and dear to my heart. Pieces of my life I went through and like all people who have been through a…

  • Let Life Move On Minus Me ….

    Let Life Move On Minus Me ….

    I’m doing my best I’m sorry my life is so challenging so misunderstood get hurt easily continue to say words or treat me as not loving hardworking respect alone time as figuring solution pricing I’m not mentally I’ll earn trust back not bother anyone can afford another lawsuit not talk to anyone get the point…

  • Your Life Can Change in an Instant: Respect ….

    Your Life Can Change in an Instant: Respect ….

    Instead of questioning how I was or who I was before being exposed let’s focus on why a website is discontinued or what makes it inappropriate to blog and look like something else online at the same time. I never tried to defend hurtful terms I’m glad I survived no one was hurt got a…

  • I’m Alive Today and Alone …..

    I’m Alive Today and Alone …..

    Because no one let me suffer in silence it was not okay to be on meds or stuck in bed the quality of life or constant crying or anorexia was probably someone who tried hard who is alone being nice may have worried others punished visited supported who’s cat died of cancer accused of doing…

  • The Conflict Over Meds ….

    The Conflict Over Meds ….

    I was put on a 5150 hold they prescribed me vyvanse twice at one hospital and at another knowing both diagnoses functioned attended groups did sudoku not allowed to watch tv or follow the war. Because I got a heart exam and waiting for results sent to my attending psychiatrist is why I was taken…

  • Personal Update …..

    I’m going through a lot and need to be alone I’m not giving up I don’t have a bad attitude I can handle my feelings hurt or negative comments just publish everything let people have their say consider it helpful to others. I’m sorry I was sober many years, attended AA, tried drinking but staying…

  • 2021 Compared to Now …

    2021 Compared to Now …

    It took me 4 years dealing with something in private to get a job be present spend time with family be forgiven lose the privilege the blog, make amends, date again, stop dating due to voices, text with replies text saying things wrong be supported, allowed to messaged with court going well, to be alone…

  • It’s Clear I Need to Be Alone ….

    It’s Clear I Need to Be Alone ….

    Here forward: If I say not feeling well taking a writing break or send a medical update under personal update please don’t be offended by breaks I clearly am working hard to make up for anything you think is my fault. I’m sorry. -I can be serious until things are better! Preservation = everyone minus…

  • The Solution Is ….

    The Solution Is ….

    The solution is to keep working on myself, attend therapy, put book writing on hold, try to document face changes take selfies, work toward being employable, do my best with the life I’ve been given to get along with everyone not get into fights, not lose fights, speak proper, not text bad or get suicidal…

  • Re: My innocence proof of voices ….

    Re: My innocence proof of voices ….

    If I go on a 3 day bender writing non stop for days my face out as prescribed goes through several stages and changes before my face appears proper today in makeup just to let you know for scientific sake what’s real or delusion or how my face is made (cardio/singing/now writing). I just think…

  • Just emailed SCOTUS ….

    Just emailed SCOTUS ….

    I’m going to stop “working in public” instead of emails clearly that system worked better. I think everyone’s been through a lot feelings wise like I’m said is waiting for solution reassurance and if day to day help getting going doesn’t have the patience for what’s discussed in therapy or court emails such as differentiating…