These are Not Preventable Disasters I’m accused practicing mantras careful of not being mean at no later point in time someone sick or worse off trying to blame someone no one sees a bad concerned about the wrong the things of have an offensive confidence trying to appear innocent someone who didn’t fight voices after…

(01/16/25, 1/21/25, 1/26/25, 1/27/25) solution going to start keeping a log with dates listed and term brought up or issue create a timeline instead creating unnecessary difficulty in public). Notice: (current voices) Dont call me a monster that’s insulting you don’t know my story I’ve not written a book yet it’s not become necessary or…

I’m aware that a person who is considered God is not the cause the death so by connecting empowered is not a power given exchanged or drained or can’t be recovered no offense to men or women. Even if no one can handle being me or being bigger than me. I know I have “a”…

Connections don’t make you special when you accuse a president of inciting violence inside a fish tank protected by glass after forget or remove a story about Laguna and Nicole Brown Simpson, someone not on TV who reports neck size no one living a life convinced I’m being hurt or accuse my difficulties I’m life…

How many times do I need to be told what’s wrong with me mistake my focus or attentions in life as wrong I’m not racist or someone with experience concerned with my value not letting everyone be of value a person who gives love who can’t handle sex need to hurt my feelings accuse me…

I’m sorry for the confusion forget a show in common work hard to be trusted no one who relates to a song bothered by interaction in a job with a full time course anything a professor who cares who I am not disturbed by sleepiness anyone who I need to work hard to get a…

Still not feeling well, and broke my ankle need to see a doctor. Still getting voices, even after being off meds not blogging, and briefly writing something reassuring as to my health, did not hurt myself on purpose, with no mention of voices. Which by this time since 1-21-25 writing before the ICU, am still doing my best to…

So far grateful for ability not waste adderrall by accident (overdose, too much makes me suicidal). I didn’t need that much to get exactly to concerns but important I say stuff in a way that doesn’t concern and doesn’t allow myself to disappear or love disabled I have to know this is my job have…

Based on the number of victims within an industry I have a membership on IMDb ranked. As someone who is an influencer not a critic a true story not taking things the wrong someone doing my best from where I am with no support protection in a place in life I can confidently say that…

1-21-25: I Don’t Need To Lose or Be Punished For Voices Unclear of What Court is For is How a Solution is Found …. In every way I got voices is in every way you accuse me of being a morally disturbed patient or person who’s recovered who thinks they don’t belong or because of…

A courtesy to print an itinerary purpose for travel unprepared for searches and seizures brought all my electronics and brought a completely over packed backpack with everything important stuffed in a locker mean I’m fun disheartening a later take in life my instagrams were taken for granted with confusion over recover time or why I…

Not suicidal, sober, not hitting my head please don’t villainize self harm accuse me of being ugly or violent or sick. Not appreciate sharing. 08-04-21 – Submitted email to LAPD Detectives email addresses harassing me  OCDA Visits 03-13-22 – Met Todd at his House.  03-18-22 – Visited OCDA 04-15-22 – Met Eric Majors at my…

No One Needs to Read my Blog, if that’s the statement I’m hearing, it’s been reported, addressed several times, and I’m not feeling well again that’s not my fault, I did my best …. To accept the statement “fucking loser” means there is no solution for why he should put up a website or take…

Heading: The Issue is Blame Not Excuse (Should something go wrong it would be my fault not a story or system of winning or require anyone to help me or look bad). Not Voices, or Using People, Pretending to Be Hero, Too Serious or Miscalculate my Own Fears or Responsibilities, Never Accuse Me of Saying…

It’s not worth sacrificing solution so I’m willing to start again based on where I am now based on any diagnosis and medication taken away (told is the solution for voices or why I’m getting voices) worth focusing on quality and being graded based on any reason for voices or explanation of voices not good…

Please Note: 48 posts were removed not good enough to solve voices not in a tone or clear referencing of traumas respected and left up, figuring out my own confidences in life to be able to improve blog be strong enough to blog and continue discussion of voices, after a medication is taken away, given…

Based on where I am in life with the same problems and circumstances, and now taken off adderrall I am processing what it is I’m discussing online, continue to reflect on what I am punished for, continue to reflect on being given a hard time, continue to see the lesson in listening. Continue to pause,…

I’m doing my best to be apart of what is considered to be the solution and have willingly accepted to not be prescribed adderrall based on the opinion of the doctors I’ve met and spoke to at this time in my life based on what I’m going through am someone who leaves it up to…

Whenever I take a break and there’s a delay between posts I keep wondering if time away is hurting anyone’s patience and for that I’m sorry. I too equally feel the growing demand of what’s to come what to say and think really hard of what I should say to make things better. Who’s to…

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I am grateful today remember the issue is quality not be too casual with words …. Be proper worked hard and time to rest …. And reconnect not be alone too long worry anyone or get sick be mindful of those of value mentioned relying on me to stay well just as everyone on my…

Everyone’s given chances I can’t be expected to handle things better or get sick or say self harm is turn off ….why would hurting myself takes years and months or treatment to fix about my own unhappiness or a poor reflection of who I am based on what’s said can’t handle defamation or bringing up…

I’m sad for when I tried stats punished everything wrong with identified by others told she could help someone with a diagnosis have concern with not being regarded as trash going through something not a big predictable anyone who requires constant condemnation for disclosure accuse me of suffering hurt by being a given a hard…

Please respect my time spent focusing on solution considering everyone as important and say it’s not okay to call me stuff and take for granted whether I’m hurt accuse me of dishonesty discomfort or require voices coming from me to make believe a website is not a big deal or code something everyone’s okay with…

If you can keep going work hard live an honest thoughtful life not allow yourself to be forgotten in the mix, or let yourself be punished for explaining how help can approved no one rushing the process anyone who’s worked hard need to normalize what life is like question who cares or not be comforted…

I understand my value and recognize what trust is for or no one to be concerned with mentioning an experience to accuse me of not being in a good place in life deserving of peace then I’m okay with working in hard in public doing my best to address all concerns fix my attitude am…

I’m sorry that after working hard on my own still losing to what I’m told I’ve done wrong (voices) I’m doing my best to be honest keep being mindful helpful not be punished about who’s helped or where my power goes or who’s not harmed not be mistreated not recognize or insult my politics or…

My next court date April 24th is up to me to stay well and figure out what court needs to hear or the public or any voice for that matter okay with not being certain about my own legal standing okay to make fun of someone treating me like a person you give a hard…

#Caruso —- When will everything be okay based on everything overall 12 years of work didn’t take too long and a 10 year commitment doesn’t take that long or determine how solution is found, do not accuse me of addressing Caruso or representing members of trauma as anyone I would reach out to you then…

We are nearing solution for upsets negative terminology doing my best to illustrate I’m not complaining or okay with my medical records calling it an overdose and if that’s true and if what keeps happening to me is overdose talking to Kevin Costner, or not solved by blogging, missing therapy, punished for being at rest…

I stopped reading (book): “let them,” based on my own misfortunes in life wish to be supported similarly in a place in life acknowledge for good work or proof of work assignments completed. Do my best to handle a lot on my own remember what I’ve said as not burdening or allowing for things to…

If things can’t go right in a job then what prevents me from working is continued discussion with the goal of doing the work required to focus on (1) what’s wrong with me (2) what’s my fault (3) reflect on treatment (4) recognize being alone and what purpose that serves (5) accept distrust and my…

Again it’s not my feelings that matter or my story I’m changing or take away from the significance of how hard I worked to be good enough not anyone responding poorly to any shouting or not playful or need to be made fun of for hitting my head in the bathroom and fracturing my hand…

<!– wp:paragraph {“className”:”p1″} –> <p class=”p1″>Re: Eminem and a Loss at Thrive …. How I could not afford more treatment left my job told the truth told to wait insurance would not cover additional treatment sober living or rehab, and remember defending myself as working hard pushing myself requesting a different court room due to…

In case it’s not been said enough times, proven through example, or by statements said by me words I’ve lived up to be a good example or describe the difficulty of recovery from mental health issues as not guaranteed having witnessed worse dispositions in life was never anywhere I didn’t belong or hear something I…

<!– wp:paragraph {“className”:”p2″} –> <p class=”p2″>Because they want to know how a team works and I’m working hard and doing my best and can say that people working independently and not going off eachother is a team and limiting suffering or innuendo to meetings or social skills which aren’t a big deal not take personally…

The solution for right now is to accept my difficulties in life, punishments, challenges, and not rush through my 12 steps I know I’m a good person and have not hurt anyone. I know based on collapsing to stay sober, it’s okay to be taken off adderrall or vyvanse and offered no alternative Ritalin and…

The N word needs to be addressed in public because it was used to hurt DA Todd Spitzer and Justice Scalia (who passed away after I met him in court and fed exed them everything about me) and address in more detail how I’ve been affected made to discuss hurtful words then used against me…

Things can be good and you can be supported given meds and things can go wrong and you can lose support not be given meds. I think at this time no one wants to look bad or guilty is concerned for their own health is aware of reality and life and recognizes what everyone is…

Instagram Caption: #askkevincostner what’s real, based on his vantage point, does he believe I’m helping him or hurting him, and from the public’s standpoint do you think my Dad or OJ’s deaths occurring during the 4 years I was recovering from bullying including my recent collapse do you think court is handling a more serious…

Im sensing the intimidation due to the loss of Kevin Costner’s beloved favorite actor Gene Hackman, is a loss that has been a recent staple in the news uncovering the timing of their deaths and I’m assuming incites fear to those who have recently been reading my blog a heard I was studying Kevin Costner’s…

Originally Written: 03/03/25 I think the issue being represented right now is how can someone get hurt publicly while in connection to me, and that not be his fault a similar circumstance to when Hestrin a DA’s client/defendant sought to take priority in interest during a time I was in connection and speaking to the…

Re: The controversial baseball scene and continued punishment of no one talking to me and everyone talking to eachother means it’s okay to make decisions is reflective of an issue not identified by me or make fun of my understanding of mental health or accuse my writing of being preferential or punishing it’s clear what…

<!– wp:paragraph –> <p>Then write a post on something about not getting your hopes up not knowing what’s real not be jealous too quick not be jealous of privacies not expect solution to be plentiful in constant production daily give time to think it’s ok to start with nothing and re affirm that it’s experimental…

<!– wp:paragraph –> <p>When it’s serious what needs to be observed is being alone, focusing on my return to blogging, and my difficulties are not for entertainment or excuse any condition is and has never been the responsibility of someone else to correct or help me with. </p> <!– /wp:paragraph –> <!– wp:paragraph –> <p>Please…

…. Resting following Doctors orders.

It’s taking awhile to think about what to say after getting sick, its not been an easy return to blogging, but I am doing my best to make the most of things and think about what Ive said, and continue to find solution for issues better discuss things so that I do not suffer from…

After working on two books, and after disclosing treatments I underwent for voices, and forward about self-harm and overcoming that hurdle in life, including honest about how in August without writing overdosed on diet pills and if you view that as a suicide attempt or not handling a hate website well, then I suppose 7…

Everyday is an opportunity to start over improve yourself life is not expected to know you console you believe you and may not always know based on the timing of life and by what is provided clear or convinced of any phase of recovery I’m sorry no time off meds on 1 pill a day,…

In spite of everything I still write, even if things are not perfect. You can only do your best. Right now Im focused on my sobriety of over a month now, not drink, work on my temperament when I get voices, not leave home travel or call 911, and do my best to deal with…

This was deleted my phone died. I don’t appreciate voices trying to kill me using my words to kill me to fight me pretend to be people support John Cockrell retaliated try to make life about defaming me disrespecting me hurting me. Making his arrest about my death or me dying take personally my hard…

Reflection/Symptom: What is like going to bed with voices bothering me, saying please stop, what its like waking up and getting voices, and how its nothing to do with medication or anything that Ive said, thinking of all the created excuses, for witnessing my life, misrepresenting me, recovering and overcoming, think about my own sadness,…

At the time of my hospitalization I was battling voices and find solution through writing. Unfortunately due to being put on too many medications with a heart condition I collapsed after taking night meds, probably exhausted from battling voices. I was sober, I did not overdose, I did not intend to hurt myself. My Brother…

It’s an unfortunate circumstance to get sick, or experience mental illness in public, not everything is related to rap, or the use of the word battle to describe overcoming something, or not or require getting sick again to be a failed effort to write a book on mental health, or require publishing, I think life…

One of the best ways to move forward is to spare your opposition the agony of defeat, which can arise through improvement, that fear of making other people feel bad or jealous, that sense of guilt you feel (whether that’s a voice) or a feeling or thinking about others, not wanting anyone to feel bad,…

Getting sick is not ideal, its not always guaranteed that you will recover, some damage to your sense of pride and self esteem can be sacrificed in the process of finding yourself and staying well. No life is perfect, no person who is known to many, is invincible or everyone able to handle symptoms, negativity,…

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I think being honest about voices helps, I think I was punished for managing a series issue privately, and no contacts period provided solution for voices, no method of writing, calling for help, or messages, and Im sure that is not always my fault, or because of meds, there will always be a reason for…

Since being hospitalized, Ive done my best to support, and empower, not be blamed, not blame others, speak proper, and be a positive influence on mental health and figuring out life, finding love and jobs and being accepted for who you are, even if I was not loved, or accepted being myself. Right now I…

08-30-24 Going through something personal right now, just need to talk to the Sheriff and figure out whats happening and why. While editing my website I noticed someone downloading and stealing content, and when I tried to change my password and remove my website from my jetpack, my website was removed from my account entirely,…

I was sober for years have been treated attended rehabs did my best to question missing a job in DC as a once in a lifetime experience or Witken Award ….. Note even if I get hurt sent down no one can take away my sense of doing the right thing and naturally can’t tell…

In the end I have no solution for being harmed or experiencing actual mental difficulty or instability you accuse guilt school shooting photo type or producing photos for the webcam person rape or what makes me stupid in the end if the issue is voices that cannot be solved talking to anyone that no person…

The Judge gambled by asking for my medical records persist on threat and challenge me on whether I’m cool or not go ahead – know who I was I didn’t not love myself success acquired by government uses of the my mean I’m a disease beating death joke I never fucking lied go ahead try…

I Would Never Work Hard to Live Life a Disability Threat or Make Light or Defend myself at anyone point in time even if demanded by City Attorney punishment of my live scan form or accuse me of lack of memory or non disclosure of avoidance or guilt or make fun of a confrontation in…

Heard voices (after women disappeared). Wrote a quote about hearing voices. Dated broke up campaigned got sick HPV. It was vaccinated for HPV test frequently. Someone black had sex with me at work when I told him crying that I loved my boss and lost my job and reported to police that someone had sex…

Eventually God willing we reach a point of absolute isolation and separation create an indestructible space between me and everyone. Whoever I was I now understand is the person motivated to be destroyed and any moment of wellness or achievement a prompt to attack me, and that’s how pitiful life is in terms of staying…

When I say I quit I’m going to stay in my room my for the rest of my life refuse public appearances jog on a treadmill and my neighbors called the sheriffs jumping out of my chair lunging at the balcony saying I’m gonna fucking jump off the balcony. Means voices isn’t a joke or…

It’s Not Important for anyone to talk to me, I do not respond poorly anyone who shares a story pushed past a limit to compare, it’s not a game voices however I sound is the solution whatever a hate website represents I can’t control how to keep things good constantly sick someone who you see…

I’m not living life in the wrong I’m sorry you don’t know me don’t value get voices a person unhelpful to any audience someone who can’t handle hurt hate or anger make me a poor example of effort can’t even stay well or need protection make my safety needs a joke, I don’t understand why…

Communication with SCOTUS making fun of mentioning wage equally as successful in life alive and well earning my stripes not immune doing my best no one making fun of movie tittles is nothing about me misunderstood I think life represents what makes sense to the people please don’t confuse me anyone working hard to get…

Please don’t over analyzed public names on my 4th step about sex love or closeness or privilege in life working hard in spite of mental health issues respect others a person who I think is known where if I’m hurt of course that’s not okay, but no one can help me I still need to…

I Don’t Appreciate Voices Hospitalized 12 steps expected to just take it ignorant of suffering taking care of my own human life in a life not bothering anyone need to report hearing voices am not the joke working hard as best I can a world peace joke or on the day I publish a copy…

I’m sorry for a typo I dont think at any point in time is zero attention proper as someone who passes background checks with public blogs and gets jobs with blogs in court for nothing explained to me ever not my job to figure out what’s wrong a team player. I don’t wish to address…

The issue is about what hurts me it’s my feelings what I’m okay with managed in private a response in public ….. letting my health get hurt make fun of me fighting and not care if I end up in the hospital is no one’s job to tell me when to be sick is no…

Again the Voices are not deserved …. Now is not the time to make fun of life …. To remind voices no one ever let you down ignore you punished you made you go to 3 law schools take the LSAT 3 times a person who is doing well got good grades not an alcoholic…

I had a chance to revise the last version of my book, and deleted up until the last edits, my research paper on voices, will not be published in a book, due to things getting worse not better, having stated exactly what Ive heard, and if its not helping me, I don’t need to be…

A few issues: In life respect is not a game. Whoever I was and whatever I was loved for, changes, once I become the person who is fought, it becomes about why do I deserve to have a life, and recover, and move forward in life. As someone who has been in many phases of…

I just got home from the hospital, yesterday. I just woke up, taking it easy. I did not mean to hurt myself, I passed out (collapsed) and my sister called 911, my heart rate fell, and almost ended up in the ICU, and almost died. I am thankful to be alive. I just want to…

Everyone has the potential to offer peace a goal not always time to rest to me love as a person fought a return to normalcy not guaranteed not too fragile to date a website law school graduate no one has ever told me anything about being good as a good idea to get by in…

Talking to voices and hurtful words: I think after two years in court improving I’ve come a long way from taking chances on good terms considerate of my neighborhood not any unwanted toughness a version of me to dislike not empowering others inhuman or untimely for no reason for many years I struggled since last…

It’s always best to be just you on Instagram and keep your Facebook private I think by now both places want good news stay in a place improved deserving of friendship not let anyone down inspire show that I have overcome insecurity earning friendships worth succeeding deserving of a happy ending no matter where I…

Life isn’t easy I go through a lot work hard no loss taking for granted my content or support anything you make fun of it’s not my job to lose or need help at all time like this there is no explanation or reason or system of anything that’s failing mean I’m not in control…

I need to take a break from blogging I’m doing my best to address concerns clarify issues that could be of issue do the work like everyone else nothing happens I’m an instant it takes time to be settled and say enough things right to make things better. Right now I’m overwhelmed not feeling well…

I was designed to be a person expected to do her best at no point in time took anyone for granted worked hard to be well stay sober mean I’m guilty or on my way out say things that I fail to comprehend as relevant to me someone working hard to which a vocalized difficulty…

No one is being denied the heartwarming a light heated moments of solution or given attentions too late making a choice to be online with risk to me not too late for therapy. Any person privileged to be entrusted with managing your personhood in an environment that recognizes you to pass tests to be deserving…

I’m a good example of someone who goes through a lot not required to disclosed or forced to disclose not in a book an improper unjustified response to not being fit to handle questioning as to a year in life or any moment of mental health a known difficulty or circumstance that should tell me…

We have tried all solutions to address concerns supported, in treatment at home, with jobs, no jobs, stable, not stable, sober, in therapy, not self harming, not blogging, following advices, did not end up some place worse or someone who you constantly accuse of showing up places or speaking improper, have a noticeable disability you…

If the issue are rare moments in time I’m able just need to show up are not missed opportunities in life to speak mean anything is going wrong because a moment special was lost mean my moments matter if it’s not my timing or job how many examples of less than are required to show…

By the time I’m losing my battle with voices punching my head, or experiencing difficulty writing, decide to drink and not write, or make decisions to be offline with support, give me time to contemplate the existence of voices (as they are real to me not delusion or hallucination) and based on the facts figure…

When I heard at work that the job I was in was within a dying profession, I immediately felt concern while working in Film Distribution. One of my biggest heartaches was being invited to work at AFM in Santa Monica the American Film Festival and purchased a very expensive badge to work that week which…

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At this point there is no acceptance for my life or mental health or 39 years of life is not unreasonable to deal with things privately or publicly upon distrust continue to report voices keep a log never unclear on what life is about or unclear of belonging or being on team didn’t let my…

Let’s not confuse my reality as compared to anyone else’s ability withstand a pressure or faced with a grave intolerance of me that does not reflect how long it took to be well or suddenly judge me for being in a lawsuit for now more than 3 years is not about my mental health or…

Sometimes no matter what you say will ever be good enough in the eyes of comparison, or a decision maker of privilege or wellness, life is not a competition, or a story anyone should win or lose by create political theories on life, to exclude me us my information, or conversations or communications against me….

When people are done with you. What life is like not mattering. What life is like expect me to stay well or get sick complain or change be a certain way about everyone except me unclear on what calling me offensive means. That I shouldn’t blog. Not required to speak in public. Am dealing with…

Noticed this was the only content provided for this post and can’t find a copy of this post in my records or on my phone, therefore if written and deleted not by me. No offense taken or paranoia necessary or diagnosis or circumstance or present concerns mean I’m taking it or have done wrong or…

These are not destructive conclusions or reflections on life and my innocence or paranoia or disclosures this is about loss and mental health and voices and to determine whether or not it’s okay to call me offensive and use lawsuits to destroy and ruin my life without regard for my mental health or the written…

Believe in something positive in life other than the symptoms that disrupt your happiness let no moment of wellness or symptom of voices disadvantage you in life or cause you illness one of the most difficult issues in life to face is dealing with something you have no control or power or ability to predict…

I had one middle school double date experience where someone sat on my chest hooking up, I’m a good friend I didn’t grow up in life hurt or offended or share an experience in which I was offended mistaken for an inexperienced woman or have reportable experiences that a job was for ever thinking it’s…

The judge is on it observing me crediting John Cockrell ruining my life causing me suicide wrongfully accusing me using a form shared trying to tell me what to take seriously keep accusing me being in court stress me out don’t care what court is about don’t respect who I am Judge used me to…

Written before blocking hate website. After 39 years of life and doing my best I’m not obligated to explain anything to court or required to get well again, it’s not okay to prosecute me call me harassment or use a hate website as excuse for punishing me if I’m giving up punching my head or…

Written before blocking hate website. If that’s what the website said and that’s how I’m being judged and if that is who is hurting me I’m not sure at what point my diagnosis should matter or am anyone complaining why did he win and I sound mentally ill anyone who is suddenly wrong or criminal…

It’s never been more clear watching my life not work out, experience disability, self-harm, questioning hostility, or voices, or mental health against me. The lesson is that wellness is not some memorized rehearsed ability or muscle memory, that any safe space should be accused of enabling or disabling a person’s right to return to normalcy….

Now’s a good time to start improving my writing to better convey the meaning of words being used, and how offensive terms are being used to misinform the public, spread rumor, and force a wrongful diagnosis of my mental health, not to mention, create a situation in which a Judge would threaten me after living…

I’ve never been so hurt on so many levels, that suddenly I should be expected to be confident move on, composed, write, provide, with discontent concerning court, that should not require additional treatment about anyone trying to help me or anyone capable of figuring out whats wrong with me, suddenly be given a hard time…

In addition to my research paper on voices, I would now like to focus on the negative effects of repeated incidents of the use of terminology or receiving unwanted communications, via the use of tech, social media, blog, photography, hacking, with awareness for negative viewership, and the potential to be read or watched by unwanted…

Once you dislike something or someone there’s nothing that can be done to change your heart or mind of opinion on what or who to value in life, there’s no book or story that can be written for free to give meaning to a life otherwise misjudged by diagnosis or symptoms and at this point…

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If there was ever a moment, to stop for a moment ruminating over your life, your day, and your own problems, the time would be now to think about others, and think about what you can do at this time to be mindful, and considerate of all the losses at this moment. It’s an easy…

One of the most tiring aspects of mental health or bipolar are the highs and lows to go from yesterday to today and to feel completely different or better than you felt the day before. Don’t give up hope no matter how bad things get, always have faith that things will get better. 

No one is hurting your faith being honest about life mental health or bullying. Everyone deserves to be hopeful positive see the good in others and hope for the best. What’s misunderstood is often times the exact things that make us uncomfortable distrusting pay attention less to those who we are told to ignore or…

Explain how offensive judge was towards me to use or highlight downplay side or support any unwanted derogatory love toward me and my family my race ethnicity. Is why he’s blocked discontinue support or correspondence with someone using court to rub in my face court documentation or terminology the judge equally refuses to recite or…

It’s recently come to my attention that I am a victim of identity theft was contacted and informed someone was pretending to be me messaging with him. This is not a easy experience, I’ve reported the incident to ic3 for identity theft and doing my best to get well, stay offline, improve, and hope to…

If Ive learned anything in the past three months, is recognizing how destructive voices are upon my mental health and my ability to work, stay well, stay sober, live free of harm, and improve. Since being hired and working full time, I have experienced mental illness in new heights including shouting, and symptoms, no matter…

The goal for today would be to minimize risk or inciting trauma not allow for a crisis to occur or to accuse anything I go through a crisis it’s clear I was hospitalized 10 times was eventually able to complete a masters degree with straight As a person who does not take their own intelligence…

You get to choose which moments define you, please don’t be too concerned as to where my head is at while in court, or deny the fact Im under a kind of pressure in life, that is real and has nothing to do with anyone else. I’ve never felt so pressured to explain my mental…

My difficulties are not about you.  Don’t take my discussions personally. Don’t mistake my wellness as undeserved. Leslie is doing her best.  Leslie never lies tells the truth.  If Leslie is bullied or experiences voices that is up to her to figure out why.  Leslie is allowed to be alone or give up when she…

Im at a point in my career where Im thinking about what writing is for, not on a level that Im allowing myself to live a lesser life, or need to constantly experience the nightmare of voices or bullying or self harm to the extent that I need to give up, only means that its…

You don’t have to be perfect to be online. Take it from me, someone who has openly shared about mental health, yet still experiences periods, of voices, and writing in defense of self, is nothing that I need to leave up or take down, or forgetful of. There are no rules to staying well when…

Merry Christmas, to all those who celebrate. One of the biggest changes you can make on life, becomes a willingness, to stay well, for yourself, for your loved ones, and for all those who follow. Something I’ve learned recently about myself, while in recovery, in the middle of maintaining sobriety, improving, medication management, and speaking…

Maybe experiencing mental illness after being 100% well functioning in a job working full time, has nothing to do with my mental health, there is no reason, substance, or issue boiling over or left behind, or difficulty, Ive not discussed in public, discontinuing any system of support, after working hard for 7 months, resting and…

Another Fan/Hate Website was published, equally as damaging and traumatic and challenging to negotiate and have the website be taken down took August-December (5 months) and required calling an Investigator to protect my own safety from threats. Unfortunately an investigator can prevent voices, all that I assume is that if I saw it, whoever is…

I plan on: Stopping all contact until January 30, 2024 (update: I tried it’s too hard I have at least 3 pen pals to support me). You told me to stay away and I can stay away remember I never complained why am I alone for 39 years of life let’s not carried away in…

To: Judge Nguyen It’s not fair to make a spectacle of me without publishing a public record or press release providing your own description of this case or purposes for punishing me more than two years now, since prior to my Father having been put on hospice care, have failed to explain why an investigator…

To me court represents something overwhelming and serious for me I don’t wish to discuss describe or explain to anyone is my right to privacy something I take seriously, that makes treatment or connecting unnecessary at this time. I’m not ruining my life everyone is nice to me that doesn’t change the fact that calling…

[2] Arguments in Support of Everyone – To stay well and carry on, focus on myself and problems right now and do my best to figure out life on my own, start publishing books, not be intimidated by the process of becoming known, or allow any death to convince me that by giving me a…

Maybe I was told you are going to regret that, one of the few moments in life, I ever loved someone, and faced so much disbelief concerning my private content and progress, now is a moment of being serious, and need to be alone, focus on my health until my next court date January 30,…

I think the purpose of improvement and refinement and fitness and applying for jobs, is about being that person, who can be relied upon, able to handle their private life, able to put down one thing, blogging and pick up another line of work, a job in law. Unfortunately due inconsistent sobriety dates, and a…

Please Note: My card doesn’t mean I’m giving up or allowed to be mean clearly punished if so unsupported. I have court next month “Judge Nguyen threatened to not accept admitting me into a program after requesting I appear in court to go over a form then said he would like to proceed” which to…

Draft: 12-20-24 (not finished writing it yet) Book #1: Thinking Out Loud Chapter: Epilogue I initially wrote this book 2019, around the time I started distributing blog posts through Blogpros, beginning July 2019. It was not until Fall 2020, that my Alexa Rank was in the 14,000s, it seems almost unreal, due to difficulties (online…

I’m reading 📖 this book “Super Attractor” [1] and she reminds us of we find ourselves in a story about lack of comparison to keep it simple. (Page 60) She tells us to do something do anything that brings you joy. Redirect your focus, go out and exercise, she stresses the importance of feeling good,…

Edit 12-20-24 I grew up in Brentwood, and attended two prestigious grade schools Kindergarten through 12th Grade, the base of my education. I then went on to College at University of Colorado at Boulder, where I pursued a Psychology degree, and graduated with a Sociology Degree. After writing my Honors Thesis, I graduated with Departmental…

It’s never too late. I don’t care what you say about time, you won’t understand time, until you have lived life to it’s fullest, which means to focus on moving forward, you can’t go back into the past, what’s past has past, and if all you can do is move forward, well than you still…

I think it would be wrong to believe that a major tragedy, shooting, fire, or school shootings, is the fault of anyone. Today a hate website asked me what am I doing to prevent school shootings, trying to blame me, including the rest of the hurtful terminology put on the internet to cause people to…

At this point I don’t think there is any excuse or diagnosis that can explain how to handle a fight or voices or bullying on a level that I have not already demonstrated solutions created written and explained by me in a effort to both survive court and also have been working hard writing on…

There’s not one side to get to, if I could best explain what I have learned from defamation and rumors being spread about me, and how damaging that has been to my mental health, not to mention causing me to hear voices, it’s really about managing those difficulties in private, and to no extreme fight…

Watching a Yellowstone marathon on Paramount today, the season finale is tonight at 8pm. I heard about the show, overhearing my Supervising Attorney, having a conversation with someone else on the phone about watching his favorite tv-show, Yellowstone. Which happened to be on TV today, so Ive been watching all the episodes since this morning…

How do we feel about anger, is it justified, have things risen to any extreme that would naturally prompt anyone to get angry or upset. What is the difference between anger like in the Movie: Gran Torino, versus anger as expressed by a movement for victims of crimes, that prompts the public to become angry…

Getting grounded, is a strategy for managing stress, or that internal or external chaos around you, that not so good feeling, something is wrong, that worry, that sensory overload, of things being too much, in the end you have the power to control those mental health symptoms (or take meds), if you just give yourself…

Recently its been a shouting match with voices, and which terms are hurtful and Im sure in my desperation hysterically crying, or dependent on meds, I didn’t make sense, and for anyone who saw me on Instagram, not a fan of my arguments and separations from various classifications and movements in life. I think a…

I was reading a book today, reminding us not to compare, describing comparison as a difficult emotion to navigate. She describes “comparison” as “actually a form of judgment, and [that] judgment weakens our attracting power.” [1] So why should we challenge our judgments? Because its about not being brought down by negative feelings about ourselves…

It’s 4pm in the middle of the week I just had court and things have just begun looking up for me. Your typical people pleaser trying to make everyone happy and last to help herself winds up getting in trouble while helping others or at least thinking that she’s helping someone she loves. In the…

With the world in the palm of your hand, why risk it all. For anyone with a God complex, trying to control the universe, or seeing themselves in the center of the universe, hallmarks, of common mental health issues, everyone knowing you, reading you, or being able to tell what’s going on inside your head,…

Always maintain a positive attitude, I cant emphasize this enough, especially out in the open online, with so many political arguments underway, and movements in the works, you really don’t want to get anything wrong, and have people turn on you, go against you, be angry with you, be racist toward you, bring up international…

How you handle pressure says a lot about where you are to others onlooking or trying to assess how far along you are in terms of realizations and life in general, as a person who writes life advice online, or considering careers in the helping professions, or technology. It all comes down to one thing,…

It’s always a healthy idea to take a step back and remind yourself not everyone knows me, it’s not a big deal, this is only temporary, you’ll get through this, not everyone knows your story, not everyone thinks something the same, it’s not about me, and come to grips with life in a way that…

Maybe it takes losing everything to describe my past experience battling addiction, or reasons why I stopped or chose to not drink alcohol my whole life, and hopefully the main point doesn’t go missing in the process of me trying to illustrate who I am on a level that the public can accept, and with…

Effort makes sense, whether you are a person who is responsible for your own troubles, or a product of some mess not of your own making, there is something to said about someones progress and what acceptance by court and people in general online, whether or not a side against is represented by voices, in…

No matter what happens to me, do not be alarmed, I have been this way for at least 12 years in and out of the hospital, although I thought I would outgrow any type on instability by getting a job, but I guess its all the same no matter how old you are, just be…

The goal of every writer or blogger or website is to publish solid good work product. According to Google.com work product is defined as, “A good work product is characterized by qualities like accuracy, completeness, clarity, timeliness, adherence to specifications, attention to detail, reliability, consistency, functionality, and the ability to meet or exceed expectations; essentially,…

I’m sorry to be misunderstood or to have been sued based on my condition, being on meds, and having a medical history that’s not an excuse to accuse me of harassment, or to fight me, or to make fun of my mental health, or call me names, or make fun of my story. If its…

It’s a weird truth to improve or be found in the wrong on a level that you lose purpose in life and people don’t only not know who you are or think you don’t make sense unrelateable and that’s a sad fact about life analytics and money not knowing who is strong for whom, or…

Maybe its just me, who works really hard and cant figure out how to make money that doesn’t mean Im not working work of equal value to any story by comparison, that’s where I think I am misunderstood, in terms of what getting my first jobs paid in law represent, the equivalent effort and years…

“Love is a force both potent and fragile. It has the ability to create joy and communion or anger and desperation. Love binds us, builds us, but can also tear us down. So why do we pursue it? Why is love the thing most of us seek?” https://rebellove.com/love/second-chance-at-love/ How does loving yourself help prepare you…

I’ve been through too much suffered too long to be used and abused as an advocate based on present difficulties and worries now is a good time to make clear I’m not strong enough to help anyone with mental health, addiction, sobriety, or legal issues. I have enough on my plate doing my best need…

I’m coming to terms with what voices mean or any lawsuit either give up close all my blogs discontinue a public presence stop applying risk getting sick not reading or writing off meds. Or choose to live my life. Getting sick and losing my job and getting voices and a hate website just means to…

I’ve been going through a lot I’ve been trying to return to blogging after being in treatment for a year it’s been difficult the times are not always the best. I’m too late or responsible for anything bad happening I’ve been in court for two years writing my brains out to my attorney sending emails…

I think everyone gets mad or feels offended or insulted or starts movements against or exposes people or cause job loss and that can represent a system of using racism or wrongful rumor accusations to justify make famous people feel better being up Jewish issues or Black issues or me too I’m not insulting anyone’s…

I think angry voices represent subjecting me to people racist who hate me to question my ability to prevent a mass shooting be apart of progress wealth and beauty or sacrificed and used and turned into a person you put in jail and call guilty sometimes I wonder the purposes for success and get anger…

Speaking wrong feels like an repeated pattern of becoming what your called a condition you can’t snap out of it’s like the reverse of rising above once in ever way you improve a reminder is sought called mental illness self harm and suicide to remind you of what rock bottom feels like I think in…

Today I had court, after spending the night in the ER spoke to the Sheriff was self-harming and punching my head and had to report voices, which after repeated attempts and several years of treatment has become an unbelievable consequence of talking about my mental health or knowing me and knowing how to hurt me,…

Get back to 400k in the US and take the CA State Bar with or without “voices” no cure for.

While on a break from writing, which I do not intend to be absent the public sphere or be unavailable, is usually something I may receive a random text from someone I know or former pen pal, who can tell whether Im not doing well, checked on to see how Im doing. I was informed…

Whenever a momentum is lost or group conscious required to feel good and go by one another delightfully without repercussion or negative judgment, that’s how you know that you are human or whats too late. Sometimes there must be a break in character, a change in perception, a dulling of circumstances, a heightening of interest,…

We have entered a time period of sexual offenses, sexual pasts exposed, overhearing rape in the news, and also have recently experienced momentous opportunities for growth, that far surpass the past’s recognition of finally coming to accept us as we are, mixed. In recent months, well the past 8 years I have struggled on and…

I deserve time to rest reserve the right to call police write problem solve figure out what to do prevent voices work hard live long be a good person survive court be responsive. I’m working hard to prevent In the nicest way possible I am giving others the time and energy under pressure to talk…

People express anger toward those they find offensive or are made to believe are offensive or capable of saying something offensive or derogatory to another person whether within a language or by energy or via interpretation threatened by the substance and mental makeup distrusting of the image or qualities as possessing oneself of no threat…

Sometimes the best way to let go off on an tangent in life explaining away a concept or how you feel describing what your going through emotionally hopefully you come to a point of cessation where you are no longer trying to discuss something that pains you or causes you difficulty or frustrates or bothers…

Don’t live in defiance that’s definitely not the solution. I drove and I am writing in the jurisdiction of the pen pal who sued me in reference to a distressed phone call to OC Sheriff discussing my views what’s been difficult and how I feel about court anything else interpretation wise can’t solve what can…

Why do people give up? Why do appearances matter. What is your reputation for. Why should people know you, what does knowing you do or enable others to do with your work and philosophies in life. To me you can do so much work and still be hurt, and although its not the end of…

I have already come to accept that I will be on meds for the rest of my life, regardless of the side effects or weight gain. What I want to figure out, with investment in my company name and acknowledgment from the Secretary of State, I would hope to clarify issues, and reasons for attack…

It’s your life, it goes wherever you go, it fits in a job, it has a home, it has friends, it has support, who you are in an integrated mix of who you are and all the variations of what makes you you. To me sickness is a condition that is feared, much like depression,…

Fighting is the quickest route to absolute insanity, to me fighting is mental illness, can’t tell which way is up or down, as though you are drowning and running out of time, saving your own life, due to some unforeseen series of events keeping you down in life. To me that’s a fan website, I…

If you wait too long between an unsettling feeling with delay in working towards making things right again sometimes you risk allowing for a hurt to settle in otherwise necessary had you spoken up. As a blogger I’ve learned that sharing is a process of acceptances earned each day a type of momentum and motivation…

Everyone comes into your life for a reason, whether you know it in the immediate, trust the process of improvement, and hope for better interactions in the future. Its when things are going well, that sometimes the dangers associated with being at the bottom of the loop in life, creep back up as opportunity to…

When you least expect it life finds itself out to be better than any moment or loss of clarity stuck in your head. Always pay attention to your surroundings and don’t forget to pick your head up. I know it took me awhile in more awkward stages on different meds it’s like I couldn’t get…

Things won’t get better fighting or not allow for a valid effort to explain difficulties being no one’s fault that is not code permission or reasons ability court given or taken away mean I’m allowed to quit or not helping everyone ruin my story fight me and overall lose to terms or losses blame for…

Research Paper How are Voices Viewed 11-21-24 Introduction The experience of voices is still a phenomenon that science has not quite yet explained or defined or coming to mean that there is something wrong with you, by reporting the voices you do hear, is unclear the reason or the cause for why voices occur, and…

The problem with getting voices and being misdiagnosed and sued automatically puts you at risk for being changed to something worse to please the anger directed toward you so instead of being a victim to voices these are ways you convince others that I’m offensive or mentally ill when you do something to someone to…

Although not believed I never had voices in at least the majority of my hospitalizations it wasn’t until 2021, that I was suffering from self-harm voices, and would have to go to the hospital. There are many ways to live life and start over, and punishment and disability are two completely separate things in life,…

It’s hard to talk about something that doesn’t exist so please first know who I am soft spoken therefore I don’t shout I’m not aggressive I’m not combative I stick up for myself went to law school write helpful arguments to prevent chaos or psychosis that it sensed by me as a writer and blogger…

Unite the lights, there were so many special moments to remember in life for what it represented serving the purpose to make others feel apart of never fail to find positive meaning in life the best way to give back in times of need is to not fail, not complain, do your best, stay well,…

Most things in life require teamwork like getting along problem solving support building systems that work for everyone life may be tough but it’s harder to handle life on your own don’t forget to ask for help and don’t give up simply due to conflict symptoms or difficulties with enough time and effort addressing an…

Voices is a difficult subject, and worth publishing a book, based on my experience, with hope for helping someone else struggling in these respects in life. As a person who has suffered from voices, beginning 2017, and hospitalized for self-harm, to me in an unexplained experience in life, that can happen which you are not…

At my magazine job at Level 21 writing articles with experience blogging was told that I’m someone who gets it. And I guess that’s what’s being tested in the event everyone is nice to me supportive work is manageable I’m in therapy going to AA working full time doing my best to deal with and…

Because I called Trevor Project to be good on women’s issues (a suicide recovered law student) instead that phone call published became about denominating me to butch lesbian calling me pervert expect me to eat cunt or suck dick as insult is improperly lowering me to empower people who hate rapists and sex offenders and…

cc: I got a job and worked for about 8 days, until I was let go, and have learned a lot from that experience the first time I was going through a lot destabilized over home finances punching my head before work started, struggling to stay sober, having many positive moments and experiences and interactions at…

I don’t believe life is hard on you is not how you endure pain that’s not worth crying about but when you think of how your years and time has been spent make sure it’s been worth your while to be where you are that’s what builds confidence being certain that where you are earned…

Making the transition to working full time was not an easy start barely a week sober exhausted from all the letters and emails I sent trying to figure out what’s wrong including taking the time in therapy to take a step back and work on myself figure out my own feelings and emotions reflect on…

Be a good example. I just started a new job full time and lasted a week so proud of myself in spite of a rough start re: relapse or self harm and dealing with voices, but lucky I’m able to work 8 hrs a day and given a chance in spite of disability prove myself….

Normal to me, feels like a calm, you feel motivated to do things that day, you are at rest, able to sleep and gather your thoughts, feeling positive in a good mood like things are going to turn out today okay, and having a sense of clarity that distinguishes a normalcy that you feel meaning…

So much has happened since I last wrote, I started a new job, survived my first day of work, and working through mental health issues texting my therapist, and writing letters, or emails until things have finally gotten better by today and so thankful. I know discussing voices is a very controversial subject and requires…

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about how to describe a battle with voices, without anyone losing or becoming upset, however created, and to me it’s a sensitive subject based on how or why hurtful terms are used, and doing my best to figure out the triggers and causes for the use of hurtful terms,…

I’ve been blogging for 6 years continuous now, and have built two blogs, and for the first time in my life, I have been presented with problems in life, so severe, and so serious, that no investigator, report, openness, subject, or blog post can solve, and maybe that’s a fact about life, I was lucky…

It’s not okay to live life offensive it’s not okay to suffer from voices or terms be honest or be punished for it and demand scientific analysis and solution you’ve determined on your own and have done your best to solve. It’s not okay to live life offending anyone or viewed as insult or stupid…

What exists is how you make people feel. There’s no science about going by your own feelings and thoughts in life however you are persuaded. A common defense to mental illness and crisis is then associated to no one suffering from unknown causes of blogging is considered a safe shared space to prevent harms from…

The lesson about being fought, is that you get sick, there is no way around it. If someone connects to you, and doesn’t like you, is angry at you, or cannot be happy for you, then you are going to get sick, by that person connecting to you, watching you, reading you, or seeking to…

I get that as a reader of my blog, there is an expectation for quotes, wisdom, articles, self-help, mental health subjects, and a sense of hope of things working out or going to be okay. That being said, it’s hard to address crisis, or emergencies on the blog, in a way that doesn’t cause worry…

Things were getting better until it became unclear if I’m sick or not offensive or not or who hurt who I think I did my best got hurt things got better given chances court was going well supported and encouraged by many will continue to accept losing badly when fought, or looking bad compared to…

Due to worsening symptoms I’ve started to send comment replies to who made the fan site and have decided to discontinue contact with everyone including informed the Marina del Rey Sheriff of my worsening condition due to voices or dislike toward content or how I’ve addressed being hurt or protected others from harm not fought…

I’ve called in the past, recently coming to terms with discussions online and in private concerning my own losses and while reflecting on jobs lost jobs trips to ER support over the years, progress, function, disclosures, self harm, living in Santa Monica with no TV able to sleep in the quiet have slept with the…

Love is a sensitive subject, I don’t think even at 39, I represent the negative connotation in describing a woman who is “done” or “changed” or in a place in life, where they cannot be loved, or not deserving of love is my issue, or obvious hurdle in a poor review of me personally posted…

There are different types of voices. Although recently a psychiatrist and therapist at Cedars did not believe that my diagnosis was schizophrenia, and do not think I am, along with my internist, and my current therapist does not believe in labels. In case there is confusion as to my openness during the time my diagnosis…

It’s clear I have mental health issues that are my fault not met with sensitivity used as examples to punish me continue to punish me and misjudge continued hospitalization as doing my best taking meds not on drugs working in my masters in law getting jobs working my way up in a profession that clearly…

Nothing justifies breaking my hand doesn’t mean anything wrong to destroy my ability to write injure my ability to hand write make fun of journaling processing or fixing myself. Maybe I can’t get over all the ways I was punished worked hard to be in public took seriously rejections told the police of issues work…

I’m sure in every way I tried my best, and however I tried hard able to work speak to tragedy in a place to help or have a demonstrated work ethic or belief in myself that would make my writing beneficial to others, it shouldn’t the matter the details or offense taken period isn’t a…

Don’t denounce who is smart or gifted or question who is me insult egg donation applications in my 20s already thinking in advance to hide my kids with the government be raised as agents special but protected by another human being mentally ill in a way as fertile constant check ups being 39 decide delays…

The secret to staying healthy and happy is to push yourself, set goals, work on your relationships with others, pick a hobby, keep up with doctors appointments, try therapy or any kind of counseling coaching, hire an attorney, do research, if it’s reassurance that you want to know that everything is okay or going to…

I know it gets crazy sometimes on the blog but this is mental health full of twists and turns and stories and people and feelings and substances, addictions, influences. And you are you standing in the middle of it. I hope that by sharing my journey in story from time to time you come understand…

It is true that you tend to remember everything that you’ve done wrong in life, and that could mean being haunted by your mistakes, make pride confidence and growing up occur in stages that hopefully you overcome at some point in adulthood that that the strides you make to be accepted by others and not…

Help is an ability you have in life and I wouldn’t shocked if I considered a person disabled or punished or told in so many ways they are not allowed to help others mean I’m in control or not in control informative or teach a point of sickness I’m companionships I’m in denial of both…

The lesson on being hurt is whether I deserve to be me and how I function with others always comparing my state of mind or face insulted by lack of improvement that must be a new standard of judging my love as delusional try to replicate elsewhere in difficulty or accuse me of not being…

When people take sides in the event you face disability the harm can never be repaired the minds of others never changed the image imagined never good enough when people think your the defect not inspirational think everything’s a joke including your life Facebook and connections it’s not about giving me two successful websites two…

I’m doing my best to minimize complication and prevent voices allow for peace not be disturbed or disturb or bother anyone else’s peace or permissions outlook and happiness in life apart of known in communication communicating to me to the world at large I have to stay strong on my own and work hard for…

Aside from the success of two blogs not believed, as real. I can focus on problems and all the problems caused by being hurt. If you see the world as good and innocent and create writing that reflects that viewpoint however long it takes to earn that level of respect trust or standing in public…

See the world as good and live in peace proper and not speak to complicated subjects or work hard and create a job for yourself and prove your work ethic is meaningful in a way every day your given an opportunity to prove how you can help and how you plan to help prevent and…

Some things make everyone sad, in terms of what life is about, whats known about me, how a lawsuit makes me look bad, what type of attitude or disrespect that causes me, there are any number of ways that you can be affected or convinced you are something you are not, allow every little things…

I have been applying to job and got two interviews. Im still in court, waiting for my case to be dismissed, so far everything is going well. I’ve been sober since 2003, only recently relapsing due to bullying voices, hate website. I’ve come a long way, and continue to submit arguments and analysis to scotus….

I’m in a place right now where I’m going through difficulties that don’t need to be brought up in the face of losses, I’m in control of my own life I can decide earn respect be a source of inspiration prove my innocence be of value maintain rapport and make sure things go right in…

Going through a lot as you can see through the many changes in tone and topics on my website but getting some much needed rest. Sticking to my cardio schedule, doctors appointments, and getting help with bullying and hope that things will get better moving forward. So far so good the voices have stopped and…

What Ive learned from all of this is that my limits, my mental health, my feelings, my privacy, my right to do well function have a clear mind be functioning and working hard, getting work ready be employable, isn’t a type of life that I would call a threat to anyone else livelihood. I think…

No one deserves to get hurt, not in private, not in public, not while making fun of me, not while enduring changes, not while enduring difficulty, be pestered, challenged, threatened, or made to look bad, or use my data or information to hurt me or change my story. I refuse to attend court, I quit…

Don’t expose me lie to “the people” the Attorney General has access to my accounts don’t accuse me of deletion or tampering or complain about what’s provided the people can take everything and put it online but don’t wrongfully accuse me of being something I’m not! Then take everything and delete everything! I didn’t lie!…

You need your peace, that no mental health issue your battling should keep you from achieving, nor anything to be ashamed about requiring a phone call to 911, the police or a visit to the ER, just to make sure you are okay, voices or not. Hell, chaos, that blarring sense of something being wrong,…

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Your new beginning starts with you, letting go of the past, let go of what others think, don’t be hard on yourself while processing or in therapy, remember who you are, not get sidetracked by mental health symptoms, and continue to live free of discussion of things your not comfortable with or issues or diagnosis…

I may be the best example of someone who tries really hard, improves, takes meds, has been in psychiatry for years, explored writing famously and now building successful websites, with a world wide audience, and a growing following in the US, and an official Instagram with followers now. But life isn’t perfect, I would only…

I lost data, after the first time I opened up is when my website was being hacked and noticed my drafts and published posts were being changed and duplicated without my permission, and moved, as a result, of this happening to me, I decided to delete all 36 posts written on a 3 day writing…

When I sense anger I don’t think Im imaging the issues wrong, or getting things mixed up, no matter what Im in court for, if my goals are to try for things in life Im determined to have like a relationship or a marriage, a successful blog, maybe a child, and a job, then those…

If your losing it’s only important to keep track of why your losing especially when it comes to voices not continue to lose on issues not allowed to improve defend yourself against let any issue fly under the radar not especially in terms of losses. Sacrifice wins in life or steady progress due to misinterpretation…

Life isnt a rush, there is only so many ways you can be hurt in life, face devastation, be humiliated, teamed up on, misunderstood, be in court before things are too much or become difficult, and I can’t say that I ever intended to live a lesser life, or have lessor connections in life, or…

Things don’t get better by diagnosis, look how much has gone wrong for me in life, since being misdiagnosed, and don’t now think as things get worse for me, giving up is not untimely, or appropriate, to discontinue some discussions, or allow there to be peace in terms of what voices do or don’t exist,…

I think when you fight a person, and call it “schizophrenia” that takes away from who I am as a person and causes others to question if I know whats wrong with me or can accept whats wrong with me or what a definition says is wrong with me. I don’t think its any less…

I think the point of being hurt in life is to teach you your own strength and any lesson on being exposed to pain in life is not usually something you ask for in life or deserve. I don’t think that being hurt enables you to catch up with life or keep up with life…

After working hard for years to graduate and be able to apply and be hired in a paid position in the legal field, it’s only fitting that I defend myself and the appropriateness and the timing of having such good fortune in life, as being well deserved, in spite of however many setbacks occur by…

Learn to accept silence as your teacher. If there is one thing I have learned about how to help in crisis, it would be to focus on yourself, and by focusing on yourself and being productive, organized, vocal, and by communicating fairly and appropriately, you save others from having to engage in unnecessary battles in…

There are multiple ways to move forward. Talking about the past shouldn’t be a daunting task but it can be. There isn’t one story of heroism that everyone needs to adapt to. There’s not one social circle closer to the center of anything in life that you can’t find and achieve on your own. The…

Thank you for your patience as I work on coming back center. I had a good therapy session this week. Working on opening up to my audience and sharing very personal private stories near and dear to my heart. Pieces of my life I went through and like all people who have been through a…

I’m doing my best I’m sorry my life is so challenging so misunderstood get hurt easily continue to say words or treat me as not loving hardworking respect alone time as figuring solution pricing I’m not mentally I’ll earn trust back not bother anyone can afford another lawsuit not talk to anyone get the point…

Instead of questioning how I was or who I was before being exposed let’s focus on why a website is discontinued or what makes it inappropriate to blog and look like something else online at the same time. I never tried to defend hurtful terms I’m glad I survived no one was hurt got a…

Because no one let me suffer in silence it was not okay to be on meds or stuck in bed the quality of life or constant crying or anorexia was probably someone who tried hard who is alone being nice may have worried others punished visited supported who’s cat died of cancer accused of doing…

I was put on a 5150 hold they prescribed me vyvanse twice at one hospital and at another knowing both diagnoses functioned attended groups did sudoku not allowed to watch tv or follow the war. Because I got a heart exam and waiting for results sent to my attending psychiatrist is why I was taken…

It took me 4 years dealing with something in private to get a job be present spend time with family be forgiven lose the privilege the blog, make amends, date again, stop dating due to voices, text with replies text saying things wrong be supported, allowed to messaged with court going well, to be alone…

Here forward: If I say not feeling well taking a writing break or send a medical update under personal update please don’t be offended by breaks I clearly am working hard to make up for anything you think is my fault. I’m sorry. -I can be serious until things are better! Preservation = everyone minus…

The solution is to keep working on myself, attend therapy, put book writing on hold, try to document face changes take selfies, work toward being employable, do my best with the life I’ve been given to get along with everyone not get into fights, not lose fights, speak proper, not text bad or get suicidal…

If I go on a 3 day bender writing non stop for days my face out as prescribed goes through several stages and changes before my face appears proper today in makeup just to let you know for scientific sake what’s real or delusion or how my face is made (cardio/singing/now writing). I just think…

I’m going to stop “working in public” instead of emails clearly that system worked better. I think everyone’s been through a lot feelings wise like I’m said is waiting for solution reassurance and if day to day help getting going doesn’t have the patience for what’s discussed in therapy or court emails such as differentiating…

I’m working hard for my peace. Maybe my Twitter saves were taken for granted. It shouldn’t matter what 2020 was like or how 2024 is judged. I know where I was how hard I worked what disability was like working and getting a paid job. All that matters is that I work hard to earn…

Distinguishing fault. Peace and wellness. Isn’t making fun of what being alone working hard being bothered asked for things or judge a timeline of getting sick or who’s fault that is question why I need to be left alone or question what treatment means to anyone pushing me or supporting me. It’s not too late…

Battling voices …. A fight for peace. Push yourself to be a better person you don’t have to be perfect. If there’s one thing I’ve learned in AA it is to work hard, forgive yourself, do what you need to do (get a court card signed), stay sober, in order to keep doing well. On…

(1) Was not writing consistently everyday. (2) Had difficulty messaging and reflecting on bullying without reliving trauma or fight. (3) A person let back into my life I was told to block not hurting me who believed in me said everything nice supported but didn’t stay well. (4) Sharing is upset or text which I…

I’m writing two books one unpublished I need to rewrite sharing quotes from over the years and life advice hopefully sans court issues I’ve been writing much longer than any legal problems or bullying or voices. It was recommended to talk about schizophrenia and given a list of suggestions for a book that’s already written…

The main lesson at a time like this, is to not let anyone affect you. My goal is to do my best and stay positive, and not draw too much attention to this type of argument in life, over who loves who or who is helping who, I have never been anyone to judge or…

My blood pressure today is low I’m under a lot of stress right now doing my best. I did my best to reconcile with this person however he continues to ask for photos then expose me and I really don’t have the time and energy to fight with this person. I’m not modeling I’m not…

I’m reading a book by Melody Beattie called Journey to the Heart. It’s a daily meditation book, I just started reading January 1 to hopefully September, then go day by day. She reminds us to “go on your own journey. Don’t let others hold you back, don’t hold them back. Don’t judge their journey, and…

After 7 months of treatment, and taken off adderrall, I am again battling relapse (alcohol), taken off adderrall for the week, and doing my best to discontinue drinking when things are “too much” and focus on the road ahead and my writing. In the meantime Im going through something personal with an individual who has…

We go through life, and sometimes we are reminded of things in life, sometimes we notice things later as things become more clear, and sometimes we get carried away in how everything is connected that we lose sight of a common purpose in life, and this is what I think affects the team spirit in…

Staying well is incredibly difficult when you are feeling triggered or symptomatic. My best advice would be to stay positive. I’ve noticed that in times of difficulty Im either reaching out to get help, or feeling stuck and decide to shut myself off from the world, and that ends up causing me more problems, than…

I’m the kind of person who is not allowed to love, be social, express themselves in photos, be photo’d in a bikini or sexy clothing, or be prescribed a medication I need to function. Life isn’t about aging and being too old for marriage, dating, or give birth be viewed as the fertile likesble human…

In life, if you ever experience mental health issues, and/or hospitalized, you are just so thankful to get better, that it really is never about where you are or how you are treated, in times of not feeling well, I don’t think you are ever concerned with how things look or how you look, it…

I’ve never not tried to learn tech or apply to coding school someone who has failed to comprehend what privacy is for or questions communications with the government, as all eyes on me, or no eyes on me preferential in order to perform in life and do well. I think life is accessible to anyone…

It’s very easy to get hurt in life, when there is disagreement directed toward you, whether it’s a symptom, or a condition you experience that tells you whats of issue, or could be going wrong for you. I don’t think anyone ignores themselves, or dislikes themselves. I think we all do our best to love…

Focus on a positive stimulus, when you are positive, and good spirited and want things to turn out well for others, able to be happy for others, proud of others, influence positive changes to be made, pave way for greater acceptances, it will be the positives that will be weighed against the negatives in life….

Why is there no inner circle? Because if I keep getting hurt and keep getting head injuries or mental health issues as a result of being offended online, without repercussion, then there will be no inner circle, based on trying to hurt me, and hurt everyone who loves me and knows me, and pretend to…

Being viewed in the positive is something that you earn in life, both privately and publicly. What people don’t accept about you in life, such as who I like or love Todd Spitzer, continues to be considered a delusion to love someone or like someone who on paper is viewed to not like me, or…

Everybody wants to be apart of the solution and to have their input be valued by me and interpreted in the positive. I don’t think that “my side” in life is taking away from other people preserving their innocence, or reading to battle me, change me, or force a side to be discussed that puts…

When no one sees your side, this is a way of alienating people, and isolating people in life, to get them to believe that everyone else is normal and they are not, or everyone else is related to and they are not, or everyone else is not punished, and they are. It really makes you…

After much delay since August 26, my cloudflare numbers are starting to go up, following writing 3 posts, and plan on continuing to grow my blog again, and lucky to be given a second chance to grow my website and my following, in spite of delays and public discussion of controversial subjects and traumatic incidences….

It may not be what I think that matters, but that doesn’t mean that what I have to say about life, is suddenly untrue or not helpful, as declared by another via insult privately or publicly. I consider anyone who turns on me, or considers voices to mean that parts of me are sick, if…

How you handle controversy says a lot about you. I think sometimes mental health gets judged in the negative in the event that you have to express a grievance, or frustration, or complaint, or trying to describe a fight toward you or someone being combative toward you. I think taking a break from writing, made…

I’m sorry I wasn’t feeling well for three days, going through something private, with someone who was fighting me, but things are better now. I’m sure I tried to discuss it online in a way that classically makes me look bad and doesn’t help. I think taking a writing break is necessary in the event…

It’s always okay to pause, start over, go lightly in life, things can be too much you can experience frustration or repetition of illness or self harm and voices but I’ve never lied to anyone about what self harm is instead of suicide or what not feeling good meant to me throughout the past 20…

Punishment to me in my brief experiences being punished, if you don’t include hospitalizations or mental health issues, is a difficult experience in life, and for the first time in your life, you are made to not be proud of yourself, and that scary jitteriness of being locked up and not able to contact anyone,…

The last time I applied for jobs I got interviews, many interviews. This time applying for jobs I’ve received no replies. Which makes me wonder what has changed about since leaving my last job. I just have to do my best and stay positive at least I’m honest about my story and my goals in…

To me anger is a dangerous subject if mentioned causes much disagreement towards me questioning my perspectives on life, sexuality, trust I have had an all positive relationship history and I am too adjusting to circumstances as they are today and health expectations, fitness, and attractiveness. Being popular online is not about branding people from…

You experience mental health issues you disclose various treatments and open about hospitalizations it’s an experience you improve but are not immune to going back to the hospital and no health you have the energy to gamble with. I will never be street and that doesn’t mean I’m not cool it just means I’m not…

When you’re head hurts sometimes it’s a lesson, sometimes it’s God protecting you, it’s usually not anyone you can accuse of being hurtful, there are many smart ways to view life if you simply aren’t affected or hurt by things easily the stronger you’ll be most people forget negative judgments and looking back anything happening…

I need to take my blood pressure everyday write it down and once my blood pressure is low enough then meet her again in 2 weeks she is willing to prescribe me adderrall based on telling her exactly what I’m going through. And 3 doctors now have told me to not blog and today that…

The Radio is back as consolation for everyone’s worry recently wondering what’s going on what’s different its that I’ve been offline for a few weeks, I had attended therapy improving everything going smoothly until I got a secondary opinion and because of a wrongful diagnosis I am being treated as too mentally ill to take…

The best way to address the seriousness of what is expected of me now, would be to describe how demoralizing it is to be diagnosed as schizophrenic, and in what way that becomes a new and permanent lesson on mental health, when it stops being about you, and becomes about others. Mental health isn’t just…

I’m not giving up in spite of difficulty I never said blogging was easy or not a huge responsibility or ever not believe in my stats I think right now I just need to focus on my health, not take risks with discussion, continue to keep to myself not bother anyone, journal keep reflecting on…

To know with certainty that you are doing well, and will continue to do well, will always go by the system of priorities given to you as a person who is being helped, and it will never stop being your responsibility to listen and stay well. In the end to be in good health and…

No one is immune to the pains that worry bring, awaiting to hear back or see results, be reassured, put at ease, informed, or disappointed. Sometimes it feels like disappointment can turn into this unnerving weighted pressure on your head, that keeps getting worse and worse, upon delay or miscommunication. There are some types of…

One Thing at a Time When I look back on my journey through mental health, there’s never a moment when I wish things would have turned out differently. Having a mental health issue whether identified by another or yourself, can sometimes occur in the form of a rude awakening, simply not being able to stay…